Author: Jessica Mullen

Jessica Mullen

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Jessica Mullen
yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i am doing my writing. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am sitting in this chair waiting for inspiration to strike. yes i want my path to light up for me. yes i want more coffee. yes i want to have a good day. yes i want to have fun and feel good and not beat myself up. yes i want to be nice to myself today.

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i don't give a fuck!

breathing in i love myself!
breathing out i don't give a fuck!

yes i am anxious. yes i am waiting. yes i am seeking. yes i am wanting. yes i am impatient. yes i am breathing out. yes i am anxious. yes i am breathing in. yes i am sitting here. yes i am wanting to laugh and have fun. yes i want to release this regret. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am sitting in this chair with tension in my back. yes i am irritated. yes i am judging. yes i am wanting change. yes i am waiting. yes i am wanting to feel good and do me and see my path light up for me. yes i am wanting to enjoy being. yes i am wanting to enjoy being.

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i don't give a fuck!

yes i am feeling tension in my back. yes i am anxious and waiting. yes i am sitting here. yes i am breathing out. yes i am anxious. yes i am wanting to feel better. yes i am wanting to be high. yes i am wanting to be affected by my external reality. yes i am seeing that typed out and want to revise my desire... i want to feel good regardless of my external reality. i want only to be affected by the source within.

am i aware? yes i am aware that i am aware. i am being aware of being aware. i am being. yes i am being. i am. being. being. i am being. i am radiating being.

i am is the source and substance of all my good.

yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am wondering if i should go work on the garden. yes i am braething out. yes i am feeling tension in my back. yes i am wanting to rub it out. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am wanting more coffee. yes i am anxious. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am sitting here writing. yes i am smelling neem oil. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am trying to focus. yes i am anxious. yes i am wanting and seeking. yes i am wanting more coffee. yes i am anxious. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am anxious. yes i am seeking. yes i am wanting. yes i am anxious. yes i am wanting a high, a peak experience. yes i am anxious. yes i am wanting more coffee.

yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am anxious. yes i am waiting. yes i am wanting and seeking. yes i can see that i am seeking. yes i am here. yes i am existing. yes i am existing. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am anxious. yes i am trying to trust the process of life. yes i am trying to feel better. yes i am wanting to feel good. am i aware?

yes i am aware of the presence of god. i am being aware. i am being. being. i am being. i am enjoying being.

yes i am craving more coffee. yes i am craving stimulation. yes i am trying to change what is and augment what is. yes i am resisting what is. yes i am wanting attention. yes i am wanting to feel better. yes i am wanting attention. yes i am wanting smoothness and peace. yes i am wanting peace. yes i am wanting smoooothness.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the magick life. thank you for helping me flip the switch with thank you!

thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for the perfect timing! thank you for the good attitude! thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you for helping me be my reason for feeling good. thank you for the plenty of money. thank you for the magick life. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you! thank you for the perfect timing! thank you for the love and connection! thank you for the being aware of being aware! thank you for the good news! thank you for the magick life!

thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you god for replacing me with you!

thank you for the passive income and perfect timing! thank you for the good energy and flow! thank you for helping me be impervious! thank you for helping me be patient and compassionate! thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you for the best day of my life! thank you for helping me see! thank you for replacing me with you! Thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you! thank you! thank you!

am i aware? this is the beloved!
am i aware? yes i am aware that i am aware. i am being aware. i am aware that i am being aware. i am being aware of being aware. i am now aware. i am now in the flow!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Be the Vacuum Where God Wants…


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Be the Vacuum Where God Wants to Be (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and open up to receiving today!
Breathe out and surrender your preferences.

Let go of trying to control the outcome.

Breathe in and slow down.
Breathe out and smile because life isn’t serious!

This is the best day of your life! Let go of all of your controlling tendencies, your resisting tendencies. Surrender them all just by stepping back and looking at them.

Breathe in and notice the place within you that’s not struggling.
Breathe out and keep noticing the place within you that’s not struggling.

It’s most of you. It’s the field behind all polarities, the neutral ground, the fertile empty space of creation—that’s you.

Breathe in and relax.
Breathe out and surrender control.

Stop trying to control. Your control is letting go.

Breathe in and open up to receiving!
Breathe out and stop trying to do! You don’t need to take any more action. You don’t need to control anything else. You can let it come to you now!

Breathe in and feel your power!
Breathe out and be the vacuum that draws god to it.

Empty yourself right now of your preferences, your likes and dislikes, the things you want to control and change. Let it all go just by noticing your desires with acceptance. Just say yes. Yes I want to control. Yes I’m judging. Notice it and leave it alone.

Breathe in and just notice.
Breathe out and relax.

Keep surrendering. Keep saying yes. Just accept everything as it is. Accept the good, accept the bad. They create each other. You can’t have one without the other. Today, go behind the good and bad, to just I am—the neutral empty field, the vacuum where god wants to be.

Breathe in and be the vacuum where god wants to be.
Breathe out and say thank you.

Thank you for helping me let go of control. Thank you for helping me surrender judgement and fear and my need to time master everything and everyone. Thank you for helping me trust.

Breathe in and be at peace with what is.
Breathe out and feel excited about what is.

Because if it’s something bad, something good is coming. And if it’s something good and you’re attached to it, just relax and let it be. Enjoy it but don’t get too attached to it. Go beyond, behind, transcend. Go to the I am instead of the good or bad, I see good or bad. That’s it. I exist. Everything else is just temporary. Just a story. Just a brief change in form. You are the neutral empty vacuum that god wants to be in!

Breathing in I am!
Breathing out I am!

Get excited about your life! You don’t have to care anymore! You don’t have to control! You can surrender and let it all go and just let it play! Let life unfold. Get out of the way and get so excited because that’s when you get what you want, when you let go. When you surrender and give up and say fuck it.

Breathe in and be the empty vacuum.
Breathe out and welcome god into you.

The illusion that you have some kind of control is just that—an illusion. Only god is controlling what happens. It’s not up to you. Let go of the stress and the struggle of thinking you have control, and surrender. Let go. Just say yes and thank you. And forget about the rest because you exist and that’s the only permanent thing there is.

Breathing in, I am!
Breathing out, yes! thank you! I am!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Be the Golden Child


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Be the Golden Child (transcript)

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and let go of those thoughts.
Breathe out and let your breath carry you into this present moment.

Breathing in, I know I’m breathing in.
Breathing out, I know I’m breathing out.

Breathing in, I know I’m breathing in.
Breathing out, I know I’m breathing out.

Let your body keep relaxing. Let yourself enjoy this moment, right here, right now.

Breathe in and say yes to what is.
Breathe out and say thank you for what is.

This is the best day of your life, starting right now.

Let go of your worries. Let go of holding onto anything outside of this moment. Thoughts of the future, thoughts of the past, worries, doubts, to do lists—surrender it all and let life take care of life today.

Breathe in and open up to receiving!
Breathe out and keep letting go!

Let it go. Every time you find yourself feeling a little off, feeling a little like, “Ugh, I have to worry about that now,”—go back to thank you. Attack everything with thank you. Combat everything with thank you. It’s the best way to fight without resistance.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you!

To every thought of worry—to every thought of anything!—thank you. I know it’s in my favor. Thank you. This is your super power! This attitude of, “You can’t hurt me, I’m grateful!” This attitude of, “That doesn’t sway me, that doesn’t throw me off. I’m grateful! I know it’s in my favor.” This is your super power, your magick wand! You can conquer anything, you can get anything, just by staying focused on thank you. The feeling in your heart that you know you trust life. You know it’s working out for you. Saying thank you is the feeling of knowing god has your back, knowing that it is all for you: the golden child. The perfect angel. The innocent one. That’s you.

Breathe in and be that perfect angel.
Breathe out and be the innocent one.

Be the golden child. It’s so easy. The only thought you ever need ever again is thank you. Feel it in your heart. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Feel the knowing that you know, no matter what it is, it’s for you. It’s a gift. You know that everything that happens, every thought, every decision—it’s a gift to you.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you!

Thank you! Thank you!

trust


yes i'm anxious. yes i'm getting irritated. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i am remembering when it's time it's time. yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am waiting for a call. yes i am sitting here getting irritated. am i aware? yes thank you i am. thank you i am. thank you i am. thank you for helping me trust the process of life. thank you for helping me trust the process of life. am i aware? yes i am. thank you i am. thank you i am. thank you i am. thank you i am. thank you i am.

am i aware? yes i am aware of the presence of god. i am aware of the flow of well being. i am aware of awareness. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. thank you god for replacing me wiht you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for perfect timing and magick life. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you for the patience and compassion. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you for helping me trust the process of life. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me trust. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

am i aware? yes i am aware of the presence of god. i am thank you. thank you i am. thank you i am. thank you i am. am ia ware? yes i am aware of hte presence of god. thank you god for replacing me with you.

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thank you for helping me surrender my preferences and trust you. thank you for helping me get out of the way.
thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the magick life. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the magick life.

thank you for helping me trust. thank you for helping me surrender and give up control. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for plenty of money. thank you for magick life and pure awareness i am. thank you for helping me simply identify as pure awareness.

thank you god for replacing me with you. am i aware? i am aware of the presence of god. am i aware? yes i am. i am thank you. thank. you i am. am i aware? yes i am aware of the presence of god. i am aware of the presence of god. i know i can trust the process of life.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the magick life. thank you for hte perfect timing. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the passive income and payments and sales and checks in the mail. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me surrender.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me see the perfection of this moment. thank you for hte perfect timing and pure awareness i am. thank you for helping me let go of control. thank you for helpinng me surrender. thank you for helping me let go. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me surrender. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for. helping me see the presence of god. thank you for helping me get out of the way.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for helping me help. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me be aware of being aware. thank you for helping me stabilize as i am. thank you god for replcaing me with you. thank you for theperfect timing. thank you for helping me trust hte process of life. thank you for the surrender and patience and compassion. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with u.

thank you for the magick life and miracles. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the good news. thank you for hte perfect timing. thank you for hte lfpw of well being. thank yuo for the good news!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Your Presence Is Wanted


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Your Presence Is Wanted (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Welcome back to the present moment, where all of your power lies!

Breathe in and say yes to what is!
Breathe out and wake up in the dream right now!

Wake up to this present moment. Wake up to the natural reality. Wake up to pure awareness, before words, before thought. Wake up right now.

Breathe in and ask, am I aware?
Breathe out and recognize the answer. Yes, I am aware.

Yes I exist. Yes I am here.

Breathe in and keep bringing your attention back to right here.
Breathe out and relax into right here.

In the present moment, everything is perfect and in its place. Everything is fun and there’s nothing to worry about. In the present moment, there is love, and abundance, peace, joy! It’s all right here for you.

Breathe in and let your thoughts go.
Breathe out and feel the bliss of presence!

Presence is the only measure of success. Presence is what you’re really looking for when you want a relationship or a drug or a thing or a circumstance.

Breathe in and welcome presence today.
Breathe out and know that your presence is wanted.

If you ever experience the feeling that you’re unwanted somewhere, or that you really want to be included and you want your presence to be wanted: all that means, is that your presence is wanted. Presence is wanted. If you want your presence to be wanted among other people or places, you have to want your own presence. Your own presence is wanted. And when you are present, that’s when you are wanted.

Breathe in and know your presence is wanted!
Breathe out and be present. And now you are wanted.

Breathe in and ask, am I aware?
Breathe out and feel the recognition that yes, I am.

I am aware. I am present! That’s all you have to do to be present, is just ask a simple question like, “Am I aware?” That brings your attention back in on itself. It does a thing that’s not a thought, it’s just a recognition of truth, of real knowing. The only thing you know for sure for sure is that you are here.

Breathing in, am I aware?
Breathing out, yes I am!

Yes I am. Yes I am. And when you feel that feeling of being here without thought, with no mind, that’s presence. And your presence is wanted. You are wanted. And if you ever feel like you’re excluded or you’re not wanted, or you’re feeling insecure, it’s just because your presence is wanted. And then your presence is wanted! It’s that simple.

Breathe in and keep asking, am I aware?
Breathe out and keep recognizing: yes, I am aware.

Yes I am here. Yes, I am present. I am present. I am here. I am aware. Your presence is wanted. That’s all that’s wanted, by your Self, your higher self, god. The people around you. Your presence is your present. Today, as you go about your day, be a gift for all of the people in your life, simply by being present, by asking, am I aware? Yes! I am aware! Yes, I am present. And now my presence is wanted.

Breathe in and be wanted today!
Breathe out and be free!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Trust the Science


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Trust the Science (transcript)

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and open up to receiving!
Breathe out and start feeling like a match to miracles right now.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you!

It’s so simple. There’s no need to make it any more complicated. To manifest what you want, just say thank you. That’s it and that’s all. Thank you.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you!

Thank you! Thank you! Of course you have to forget about the thing that you want and there’s all of these manifesting tricks, but to simply enjoy your life and have the things you want come to you steadily, continuously, effortlessly—all you have to do is stay in a vibration of gratitude.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you!

Thank you! It might take practice. Sometimes, you might feel too tired. But it’s a lot harder to stay in a pessimistic attitude. It’s a lot harder to live with the effects of creation by default. It’s a lot easier to choose thank you now, and live an easier life as it comes.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you!

Remember: you’re innocent! You deserve everything. You volunteered to be a physical human! You’ve done the hardest work possible, just by being born into a human body. You deserve a good life. You deserve to enjoy being alive. You deserve to feel good no matter what happens. And when you stay grateful, when you choose thank you before you have reasons to say it, you get everything that you’ve ever wanted.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you!

Trust in the magick of life! Trust that it really works! Trust the science that you must become it to see it, that perception affects what you observe. Trust that the way you look at things changes what you look at. It’s science, I promise!

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Life is supposed to be fun! You’re supposed to have a good time. And you don’t have a good time because you’re being given fun times, you have a fun time because you choose it by feeling gratitude. And then you get to enjoy a life to be grateful for. But you’re the creator, you are the source. And you have to be brave enough to take the first step right now.

Breathing in, thank you! Thank you. Thank you.
Breathing out, thank you! I know it’s all happening in my favor. And it’s all happening in your favor too. Everything, all of your choices, they led up to right now. Everything is perfect and in its place. You deserve to enjoy life now. Allow yourself to relax and let it come to you.

Breathing in, thank you! Thank you!
Breathing out, thank you! Thank you!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Control What Happens


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Control What Happens (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and say yes to what is!
Breathe out and keep relaxing your body.

It’s all happening in your favor. Everything that happens, every surprise, every action you take—it’s all happening in your favor.

Breathe in and keep lightening up! It’s the best day of your life!
Breathe out and say thank you! Thank you! Thank you! It’s the best day of my life!

As you go about your day today, keep thank you on your mind, in your heart, on your tongue, and see how well your day flows.

Breathing in thank you!
Breathing out thank you!

You do have control! You do have an ability to affect what happens. And you do that by feeling the way you want to feel, now. You become it, to see it. And the reason thank you works so well for controlling your reality, is because it’s actually surrendering. It’s welcoming what is. It’s being grateful for what is. And it’s trusting that what you get is what you need. And it’s all in your favor.

Breathe in and say thank you!
Breathe out and feel thank you! Thank you!

Feel this feeling of gratitude before you get what you want, before you have anything to be grateful for. You always have things to be grateful for, but if you’re stuck on something, and you want it to happen, it’s time to surrender with thank you and trust it’s happening in your favor.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you! I know it’s happening in my favor!

Allow yourself to feel gratitude now, before you get what you want. And that is how you control what happens.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you!

Every time a thought comes to you that’s doubting, or criticizing, or wondering or worrying, say thank you. And really feel it. Every time you notice that little dip in your mood because a thought occurred to you that you didn’t like: thank you! And you can change your vibration instantly! You can stay in the high vibe! You don’t have to get dragged away by every worrisome thought. If you can stay with thank you, the miracles will keep flowing and you will see how everything that’s happening is happening for you, not to you.

Breathe in and feel that gratitude!
Breathe out and feel the feeling of thank you!

Thank you! Feel how exciting it is! Feel how it feels like love, like you’re being taken care of! Like life likes you.

Breathe in and let life like you today!
Breathe out and like life today!

You have to take the first step. You’re the creator. You wanted this power.

Breathe in and say thank you!
Breathe out and feel thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

The miracles are already here! You reveal them with gratitude. You reveal them by becoming a vibrational match and when you feel gratitude in your heart, you start seeing all of the physical reflections that match that feeling. Miracles! Abundance! Love! Peace! Fun!

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Rest as I Am


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Rest as I Am (transcript)

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and lighten up because life isn’t serious!
Breathe out and surrender your worries.

Surrender your thoughts. Let it all go right now. Let yourself enjoy this moment, right here, right now.

Breathe in and say yes to what is!
Breathe out and trust the process of life.

It’s always right now. It’s always in perfect timing. You’re always in the right place at the right time.

Breathe in and smile because life is supposed to be fun!
Breathe out and remember: you are the source of your experience!

You are the source of what you see.

Breathe in and remember: you are the source!
Breathe out and know: you only have to become it to see it.

It’s so simple. And you can do it right now.

Breathe in and say, “I AM.”
Breathe out and feel your sense of being. I Am.

When you rest as you are, when you stay with the I AM, beyond all the opposites, you dissolve back into the infinite. Back into unconditional love. Pure abundance. Peace.

Breathe in and merge with the infinite.
Breathe out and say it: I AM.

Breathing in, I AM.
Breathing out, I AM.

Relax into the knowing that you exist. You are. That’s all you need to know. That’s all you need to focus on. Just stay as you are—your sense of being. The knowing that you are here.

Breathe in and say I AM.
Breathe out and feel what I AM feels like without words. Be the I AM without words.

What does your sense of being feel like, minus the words “I AM”?

Breathe in and be infinite.
Breathe out and be connected to everything.

Be one with everything. Everything is in perfect timing, even your actions. No matter when they happen. No matter when you do the thing you think you need to do. It’s all in perfect timing and there’s nothing you can do to change that.

Breathing in, I am.
Breathing out, I am.

Thank you, thank you, I AM. As you go about your day, rest as I AM. As you are. Rest in the knowing that you exist. And when you rest in knowing, you know that you’re one with everything. You know that it’s all love. You know that abundance is infinite. You know there is no lack. And you know there is only peace. Everything else is an illusion!

Breathing in, I am!
Breathing out, I am!

And there are no words here. There are no thoughts to think to make it make sense. You just have to do it yourself, rest as I AM, rest as you are. Rest as the knowing that you are here.

Breathe in and merge with unconditional love.
Breathe out and let the miracles flow.

The less you think, the more miracles you see. When you see the miracles, you might start thinking about how good they are and how you don’t want to lose them, but if you can stay as the knowing, instead of lost in thought, lost in words, everything will be revealed as perfect and in its place.

Breathing in, I am!
Breathing out, I know I am.

You don’t have to convince your mind of anything. Just stay as you are today. Stay with the I AM. Your true name: I AM. You are nothing that comes after “I am.” You are only the I am. Everything else is just the play of consciousness. Just an illusion, just for fun, just enjoy it!

Breathing in, I am!
Breathing out, I am!

And you are. And we are one.

Jessica Mullen

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watch yourself sit at your desk wondering what to do. reply to youtube comments? watch yourself think about how you're being lived, and the choice isn't up to you? watch yourself remember, thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me know what to do.

watch yourself feel insecure. watch yourself wish. watch yourself feel like a loser. watch yourself feel tired of feeling like a loser.

yes i feel like a loser. yes i feel unsuccessful. that must mean i am not present. yes i want to be present and it's annoying that i have to try so hard every day to do it.

yes i am anxious. yes i am doubting myself and feeling insecure. yes i want to make good work. yes i want to have a fun day. yes i am stressing myself out. yes i am frustrated with myself. yes i am wanting more money. yes i am feeling greedy? yes i am anxious. yes i am judging myself. yes i am projecting my own faults onto others. greedy, jealous, taking too much, wanting too much, never satisfied.

yes i am distracting myself on facebook. yes i am really harshly criticizing myself. yes i am really doubting myself. yes i am frustrated with myself. yes i want more coffee. yes i want more coffee. yes i want more coffee.

yes i am mad at myself. yes i am disappointed in myself. who is the i? who is the myself? who is disappointed?? who am i who is disappointed?

i know i have no problems when i am present, but i want to be present to get money. i want to GET something out of presence. yes i am frustrated because i am looking outside of myself for security. presence is the only security. presence is the only safety. ®ƒ√ßåßœ˚ˆøœ¬ß˜çß˚å´¨∫∂™•£ºß•åß∂

yes i am seeking and wanting. yes i am making myself feel incomplete. i know the only thing missing is god, so why won't i just look??

yes i am feeling emotional. yes i am missing my parents. yes i am thinking about problems! yes i am making problems in the mind! who is the me making problems in the mind????

yes i want this second cup of coffee NOW. yes i am anxious. yes i am seeking and wanting. yes i am wanting something to fill me up. attention, coffee, money. attention, coffee, money.

yes i am wishing i would make better work. yes i am frustrated that this journal isn't coming more easily. yes i am frustrated. yes i am wanting. yes i am mad. yes i am frustrated and projecting. yes i am jealous and seeking.

please zoom out. please become aware.

am i aware? when i am aware i have no problems.

i know i can flip the switch with thank you and i can apply it to the rest of my life. but should i focus on thank you or am i aware? the mind is creating problems!!!! the mind is looking for problems!!!!

yes i am anxious yes i am seeking yes i am mind identified and making it worse!!!

yes i am wanting to fix it! yes i am wanting to correct it. yes i am wanting to surrender and let god live me.

THANK YOU GOD FOR REPLACING ME WITH YOU. i surrender. i surrender. i give up. i give up.

yes i want more money. yes i am frustrated with myself. yes i am curious who the fuck I is and who the fuck myself is. why can't i just be the one? why can't i let the mind go? why is the question and questioner still there? why am i taking so long? why do i feel so frustrated with myself?

yes i want to be a better daughter. yes i want to help. yes i want to give. yes i want to help. yes i feel so sad and helpless. yes i feel so sad. yes i miss my parents. yes i feel so sad. yes i feel so sad.

yes i am making problems for myself. yes i am frustrated. yes i am looking for problems. yes i am so irritated with myself. yes i am so frustrated.

yes i feel not good enough. yes i feel depleted. yes i want to feel abundant. when i am aware i have no problems. am i aware?

EVERYTHING IS THOUGHT EVERYWHERE I LOOK! HOW CAN I TRANSCEND THOUGHT WHEN IT'S ALL THOUGHT?!

yes i am frustrated. yes i am embarrassed! yes i am struggling. yes i want to feel better. yes i want to say FUCK IT and trick it all off. give up. surrender.

yes i am seeking for something outside of me to feel good. yes i am making problems. i need to let go of my awareness of the problems!

am i aware? when i am aware i have no problems. i have no lack .i have no agitation or separation. am i aware?

am i aware that i am aware? yes i am aware. i am aware that i am aware. yes i am aware. am i aware? i am present. i am here. i am here now.

i exist. i am present. am i aware? i am aware that i am aware. i know i've been in the cloud of thought. i know i've been trapped in thought. am i aware? when i am aware i have no problems.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stabilize as i am. thank you for helping me do the right thing. thank you for helping me surrender. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

yes i am still struggling but i know i can be aware. i know when i am aware i have no problems. i know i have to read being aware of being aware. i know i am addicted to thought. i know i can let go i know i can transcend i know i can surrender i know i can let life live me. i know i can let go.

am i aware? when i am aware i have no problems. am i aware? am i aware? am i aware? i am aware that i am aware. i am aware of awareness. am i aware?

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Build Your Trust Muscle


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Build Your Trust Muscle (transcript)

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and step into the present moment.
Breathe out and surrender.

Stop trying to control right now.

Breathe in and remember: it’s all in your favor!
Breathe out and say thank you for all that is.

It’s all happening in your favor! Thank you!

Breathe in and lighten up! Life is not serious!
Breathe out and keep relaxing your body. Relax your shoulders.

Breathe in and just be.
Breathe out and relax.

This is the best day of your life. Everything is unfolding perfectly and to get on the frequency that you want to be, just start saying thank you right now.

Breathe in and say thank you!
Breathe out and say thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

You can change the trajectory of your entire life right now and it will apply to every single aspect of your life. Everything will improve if you can keep thank you and the emotion in your being today.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you!

As you go about your day, every time something happens that you don’t like or that you do like, say to yourself, “Thank you! I know it’s happening in my favor. Thank you! Thank you!”

Breathe in and see how it’s already happening in your favor!
Breathe out and really trust.

Trust the process of life. Trust that it’s unfolding perfectly. Trust that you don’t have to control anything! Life takes care of life. You’re just life living itself. You don’t have to let the separate self, the mind, the ego get involved and try to control life. It can’t!

Breathe in and say thank you!
Breathe out and feel your trust muscle building.

Every time something happens that you don’t like and you react with thank you, instead of displeasure or anger or annoyance—every time you respond like that, with thank you, you build your trust muscle. It gets easier to trust that it’s in your favor. Things start happening more quickly for you. Miracles are revealed more quickly.

Breathing in, thank you!
Breathing out, thank you!

The instant you make peace with what is, it changes. The instant you start liking that thing that you thought you didn’t want, it changes.

Breathe in and use your super power of gratitude today!
Breathe out and relax.

Who you really are, pure awareness, is unaffected by anything that happens. It doesn’t matter either way. It’s all perfect and in its place. There’s nothing to control. There’s no work to be done. It’s all unfolding perfectly, without your controlling, without your input or interference.

Breathe in and say thank you!
Breathe out and know for sure for sure, it’s happening in your favor.

All of the things that you resist or want to control, or change—they’re all in your favor. And if you can get out of the way you’ll see how life already is the way you want it to be.

Breathing in, thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
Breathing out, thank you! Thank you! I know it’s happening in my favor! I trust the process of life. Everything is perfect and in its place.

Breathe in and say thank you for the perfection that is.
Breathe out and say thank you.

This is the best day of your life. Get so excited. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!