Author: Jessica Mullen

Jessica Mullen

You cannot find it, you are it

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself stand at your desk, a little disappointed in yourself. Why is it the way I don't want it to be? Watch yourself feel perplexed. Watch yourself ask who am i who notices the feeling of perplexity? Watch yourself stand here and try not to get too upset. Watch yourself want to go back to witnessing the witness. Witness the witness. I am witnessing the witness. The witness is seen.

Watch yourself remember you are pure awareness. How to stay as pure awareness? Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Om.

Watch yourself check on lint who was digging in her water. Watch yourself want to meditate and find the pure awareness again. Watch yourself remember: you cannot find it, you are it.

Watch yourself breathe out and want transcendence and epiphanies. Watch yourself remember your dream about cheesecake. Watch yourself be here now. Watch yourself love your dream. Watch yourself breathe out and try to stop taking it so seriously. It's just for fun!

Watch yourself feel embarrassed by your perceived lack of self control. Watch yourself COMMIT TO WITNESSING THE WITNESS.

WItnessing the witness. I'm witnessing the witness. I consciousness am witnessing the witness. I consciousness am here. I consciousness am here. Consciousness is. Consciousness is here.

The witness is seen. The act of seeing is seen. The act of perceiving is perceived. Witnessing the witness.

PUre awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Om.

Watch yourself feel. soooo grateful for mooji. Watch yourself breathe out and be here now. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, i am. Pure awareness, I am. Om.

Watch yourself stand here and notice your mind still racing. But that is perceived. Witnessing the witness. Witnessing the perception. Witnessing the perceiving. I am pure awareness. I consciousness am pure awareness.

Who am I who notices confusion about all this? Mind is confused. Heart knows. How to center in heart? Love yeah love?

Love, yeah. Love. Thank you. Thank you Thank you.

Who am i who notices the questions? it is the mind with the questions. the mind thinks the heart knows. how to rest attention in the heart?

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

Witnessing the witness. Trying to give myself an epiphany. Trying to live a peak moment constantly. I want to rest in the pure awareness!!!!

Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Om.

Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Om.

Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, i am. om.

mind wants more coffee. mind wants cheesecake. mind wants to eat. mind wants to gobble. mind wants to devour.

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

witnessing the witness. i consciousness am witnessing the witness. i consciousness am witnessing the witness.

how to stay as consciousness is?? i am consciousness. i can't get away from it. i already am it. only the mind is veiling the consciousness. the self. the awareness. i am pure awareness! I know this intellectually and sometimes experientially... but i want to stay as pure awareness! stfu mind!

Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Om.

watch yourself go make linty get in her litter box. the shitshow is here to wake me up
the obsession with diet is here to wake me up
the obsession with body and image is here to wake me up

IT"S TIME TO WAKE UP

mind wants adderall. mind wants more coffee. mind wants weed. mind wants massage. mind wants good news. mind wants money. mind wants entertainment. mind wants sensual pleasure.

pure awareness i am. pure awareness i am. pure awareness i am. om.

all pleasure is pain, all pain is pleasure. go beyond the pain pleasure body.

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness i am. om.

watch your mind freak out at linty shitting everywhere. watch your mind get pissed! watch your mind freak out about the shitshow. watch your mind feel put upon, like it's not fair that the cat won't behave. watch your mind get angry. watch your mind get frustrated. watch your mind want to use this as an excuse to get angry. watch your mind get angry. watch your mind freak out.

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

watch yourself stand here and let it go. watch yourself stand here and want to be pure awareness.

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

watch yourself have to go get linty and put her in her box again. shit show!!! watch your mind react. watch your heart race with anger. watch yourself breathe out and just watch. witness the witness. witnessing the witness.

watch yourself witness the witness. watch yourself return to the perceiver that cannot be perceived. watch yourself be the eye that cannot see itself.

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

watch yourself feel like youre racing against time to get to this clarity of being. watch yourself feel like you just can't get there! even though you are there! how to stay there! how to get distance from this psycho mind!

the self is no distance away. the self is right here. the self is right now.

pure awareness. the self is pure awareness. the self is the isness. i am the isness. it is.

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

watch yourself remember: empty. empty. empty. stay empty of opinions and preferences. stay empty of thoughts and emotions. let it all go. witnessing the witness.
try witnessing the witness.

keep your attention on your self, on the pure awareness.

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

watch your mind kick up all sorts of worries and buts. health. cats. time. deadlines. to do. travel. stress. world.

pure awareness. i am. pure awareness. i am. pure awareness. i am. om.

watch yourself feel so grateful for mooji and know there is hope. you've gotten there before and you'll get there again. you can be there right now if you want to be. choose it!

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

PURE AWARENESS IS EMPTY

EMPTY PURE AWARENESS

be empty as pure awareness

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Stay As Consciousness Is


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Stay As Consciousness Is (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Stand up to your thoughts, right here right now!

Breathe in and say yes to what is.
Breathe out and welcome what is!

You’re in the right place at the right time, and you’re doing everything right! Let yourself surrender. Let yourself be here now without thinking about it.

Breathe in and smile because smiles becomes things too!
Breathe out and keep letting go.

Keep letting go of those thoughts. Feel for your sense of being. Feel for your I AM. Feel for the feeling of I EXIST.

I EXIST! I exist.

Breathe in and wake up in the dream!
Breathe out and become lucid right here, right now.

This is it! This moment is it! This is the main event! Let yourself enjoy it! This is it! This is the only time it’s going to be like this.

Breathe in and celebrate how far you’ve come!
Breathe out and keep letting go of your thoughts. Keep letting go of your thoughts. Keep letting go of your thoughts.

Breathe in and stay as consciousness is.
Breathe out and say it: consciousness is.

Step away from your psychological mind. Just get rid of the thoughts “I want this, I am this, I need this, I think this.”

Breathe in and step away from your thoughts.
Breathe out and just watch your thoughts.

Who am I who notices the thoughts?

Breathe in and be light.
Breathe out and stay as consciousness is.

Stay as consciousness is. Stay as consciousness is. If you can see from the perspective “consciousness is,” there will be nothing to be afraid of. There will be nothing to fear. Nothing to worry about. Nothing to shrink away from. It will all be welcome. It is all welcome, when you stay as consciousness is.

Breathe in and become lucid in the dream.
Breathe out and stay as consciousness is.

The witness, the observer, the I AM.

Breathe in and stay as consciousness is.
Breathe out and feel that sense of being.

Nothing to think about. Consciousness is. Nothing to think about. Consciousness is. Nothing to think about. Consciousness is.

Nothing to think about.
Consciousness is.

Nothing to think about.
Consciousness is.

Nothing to think about.
Consciousness is.

Nothing to think about.
Consciousness is!

Nothing to think about.
Consciousness is.

Nothing to think about.
Consciousness is.

Stay as consciousness is. Nothing to think about. Consciousness is. Don’t let your attention reach. Looking for what’s going on here or there. It’s all right now. There’s nothing to think about. Consciousness is.

Breathe in and stay as consciousness is.
Breathe out and stay as consciousness is.

Jessica Mullen

Witness the Witness

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself stand at your desk, breathing out. Watch yourself stand here and focus. Watch yourself shift on your feet and try to have good posture. Watch yourself feel grateful for coffee. Thank you for the coffee. Thank you for the heat. Thank you for the running water. Thank you for the passive income. Thank you for the perfect timing. Thank you for the good sleep. Thank you for the pure awareness I am.

Try witnessing the witness, mooji says. Who is witnessing the witness? Who am I?

WHo am I who notices the desire to witness the witness? Who am I who notices the mild excitement that comes from thinking about witnessing the witness?

Who am I who is standing here? Who am I who notices the standing here?

Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in and start to think about the future but stop yourself. Watch yourself breathe out. So much can be written in 10 minutes.

Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself witness the witness. Witness the witness. Witness the witness. Try witnessing the witness.

Who is the witness? Who am I who notices the search for the witness? The one seeking is the one who is sought.

Witness the witness.

Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Om.

Thank you for mooji. Thank you for satsang. Thank you for quiet mornings. Thank you for waking up early. Thank you for inspiration and motivation and curiosity and things to look forward to. Thank you for my family.

Thank you for perfect timing and passive income. Thank you for new ideas. Witness the witness. Witness the witness.
Who am i who notices witnessing the witness?

Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. PUre awareness, I am. om.

I consciousness am. Consciousness is. I consciousness am here. Consciousness is here.

Witness the witness.

Empty empty empty empty. I want to tattoo all of this on my knuckles.

Witness the witness.

Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out and feel excited for this vacay. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in and be here now> Watch yourself breahte out and try to witness the witness.

Witness the witness. Who am I who notices the attention listening for sounds of K stirring upstairs> Who am I who notices the attention running over my to do list like a wound? Who am I who notices the attention going out? Who am I who notices the witness?

Witness the witness.

Watch yourself stand here. Watch yourself hope for 30 more minutes. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself try to witness the witness. Wake up in the dream. Become lucid now. Consciousness is here. Don't make it complicated. It's simple. It's under the thoughts. No need to think about consciousness, just be it.

Witness the witness. I'm searching for a feeling. Where is this sense I AM. Where is this vibration I AM.

I AM. Who am I? I AM. Who am I?

Who am I who notices the mind wanting to think about the future? Who am I who notices the subtle worries popping up about health and family and travel? Who am I who notices the humidifiers hissing? Who am I who notices the displeasure with the cold weather?

Who am I who notices the anxiety> Who am I who notices the resistance? Who am I who notices the standing here?

Witness the witness. Who am I? The witness, the observer, the unchanging. Witness the witness.

Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. OM.

Who am I who is noticing? Who am I who is standing here identified with the body? Who am I who notices the body aging? Who am I who notices the fear and anxiety?

Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. om.

Who am I who is standing here? Who am I who notices standing here? Who am I who notices the anxiety? Who am I who notices the coffee kicking in? Who am I who notices the feeling of rushing? Who am I who notices the breathing in?

Witness the witness. Try witnessing the witness.

Who am I?

I am.

I consciousness am. I consciousness am here.
Consciousness is. Consciousness is here.
Witness the witness.
WHo am I who notices the thoughts?
Witness the witness.
Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Om.
Witness the witness.
Become empty. Empty of opinions. Empty of thoughts. The space, the sky.
Witness the witness.
I exist. Where is the sense I AM. Who is the sense I am. What is the sense I AM.

Witness the witness.

Who am I who avoids the question Who am i who notices the mind scurrying about?
Witness the witness. Rest the attention on attention itself. Rest consciousness on consciousness itself. Rest the attention on the awareness. Rest the awareness on awareness itself.

WHo am I who has questions about this> Who am i who notices resistance? Who am I who wants an explanation>

Witness the witness.

Breathing in I bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
breathing out i activate my throat chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out ia ctivate my heart chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra
breathing out i activate my root chakra

thank you for helping me witness the witness. thank you for helping me stay as consciousness is. thank you for helping me notice the sense i am and stay there. thank you for helping me stay present. thank you for helping me remember to ask who am i. thank you for helping me witness the witness.

Jessica Mullen

Don’t Take Shape

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself stand at your desk, thinking "empty empty empty empty". Watch yourself want to focus. Watch yourself kick your vacation house shoes off. Watch yourself breathe in and want to hurry through this before K gets up. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself stand here in the gloom. Watch yourself breathe out. WAtch yourself listen to the buddies. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself want to know how to get to the emptiness.

WAtch yourself feel confused. Watch yourself want to spend days in meditation. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in and feel for the I AM.

Watch yourself breathe out and backspace typos. Watch yourself stand here and hear stirrings upstairs. Watch yourself relax your shoulders but shift around on your feet. Watch yourself wonder what's up with your arches. WAtch yourself try to surrender. Watch yourself notice you can't try to surrender, you do or you don't

Watch yourself surrender. Fuck it! God I'll just stop trying!

Watch yourself wish for the euphoric high of epiphanies. WAtch yourself breathe in. WAtch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself turn around and look at linty. Watch yourself feel the usual pull of sadness about mortality. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself want a sip of water but don't take it so you can get a few more words in.

Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself want to be empty.

Empty empty empty empty empty. I AM. Consciousness is. I consciousness am here. Consciousness is here. Empty empty empty empty empty.

Watch yourself decide to say yes to what is.

Yes I am standing here at my desk. Yes I am glad it is sunday and we don't have to leave the house or cook or work out. Watch yourself breathe out. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I am hurrying. Yes I am hoping to have epiphanies today. Yes I live for those epiphanies!

Yes I am anxious. Yes I am worried. Yes I am thinking about family and health. Yes I am noticing that I upper limit with health worries and family worries. Yes i am noticing that i don't really upper limit financially anymore so that's cool.

Yes I am breathing out and thinking about friends. Yes I am standing here thinking about the neighbor. Yes I want to be the observer not the thought or the thinker. Yes I am learning about the illusions of the mind. Yes I am hoping to transcend the mind. Yes I want to transcend right now. Yes I am transcending right now.

empty empty empty empty empty

Yes I AM. Yes I am the observer. Yes I am the witness. Yes I am watching my thoughts. Yes I wish i felt high. Yes i've been really missing the kratom. yes i am pretty mad at myself. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am annoyed with my mind. yes i am annoyed with identifying with thoughts.

who am i who notices the guilt and shame? Who am i who notices the person feeling regret/ Who am i who notices the obsession with body? Who am i who notices the over identification with body? Who am i who notices the body? Who am i who is so cruel to the body? Who am i who is noticing cruelty? Who am I who is feeling sad? Who am i who is noticing the weather? Who am i who is craving?

WHo am i who notices craving? Who am i who notices the desire to fill a hole? Who am i who notices a hole to be filled? Who am i who notices the desire for drugs and food to fill a hole? who am i who notices the disappointment? Who am i who notices the fury? Who am i who notices the body? Who am i who notices the thoughts??

Who am i who notices the body standing here? "I AM"?? Who am who notices the mind freaking out? Who am i who notices the urge to pee? Who am i who notiices the urge to drink water? Who am i who notices the urge to say fuck it and eat everything in the house? Who am i who notices the urge to binge? Who am i who notices the urge to say fuck it and order kratom? Who am i who notices the urge to say fuck it and get fucked up? Who am i who notices the mind going CRAZY? Who am i who notices the thoughts? Who am i who notices the desire to not take shape??

Who am i who notices the desire to transcend these thoughts? Who am i who notices the call of freedom and the fury of the mind? Who am i who notices the mind freaking out about body and time? Who am i who notices the sadness? Who am i who notices the fear? Who am i who notices the concern?

WHo am i who notices the panic in the mind? Who am i who notices the desire for emptiness? Who am i who notices the peacefulness of this morning. WHo am i who notices perfect timing? Who am i who notices synchronicity? Who am i who wants to straight up discard the mind?? Who am i who notices the desire to listen to mooji 24/7??

Who am i who notices the breathing in? Who am i who notices the breathing out??

WHO AM I??
I AM??
I consciousness am.
Consciousness is here.
I consciousness am here.
Consciousness is here.
Empty empty empty empty empty empty

Who am i who notices the desire to go further? Who am i who notices the memory that it's right here, and there is no distance to travel or journey to take? Who am i who notices the mind baller blocking??

Who am i who notices? Who am i who asks how i can get into that watcher state??

Yes I am watching.
I am loving watching.
I am so curious.
Yes I am enjoying this. Yes I am loving what is.
Thank you. thank you..

Who am I?
I AM
I consciousness am
I consciousness am here
Consciousness is.
consciousness is here.
thank you
yes
thank you
yes
thank you
yes thank you

Jessica Mullen

empty empty empty empty

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself stand at your desk, happy the chickpeas are in the crock pot and the litter is already scooped. Watch yourself breathe in and feel a bit of guilt. Watch yourself breathe out and relax. Watch yourself relax into the music, a playlist gathered from radio garden tracks mostly in ibiza.

Watch yourself breathe in and enjoy the music. Watch yourself breathe out and relax your shoulders. Watch yourself notice yourself typing. Watch yourself notice.

Who am i who notices the hunger? Who am i who notices the guilt? Who am I who notices the desire to rush through this? Who am i who notices the desire to watch more mooji? Who am i who wants to stay as consciousness is? Who am I who notices the breathing in? Who am i who notices the smell of the neighbor's cooking? Who am I who notices the desire to make a phone call? Who am I who notices the words in the song?

Breathing in I bring energy into my crown chakra!
Breathing out I activate my crown chakra!

Breathing in I bring energy into my third eye chakra!
Breathing out I activate my third eye chakra!

Breathing in I bring energy into my throat chakra!
Breathing out I activate my throat chakra!

Breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra!
Breathing out i activate my heart chakra!

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra!
Breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra!

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra!
Breathing out i activate my navel chakra!

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra!
Breathing out i activate my root chakra!

Thank you for the pure awareness I am! Thank you for the sense I AM! Thank you for helping me stay as consciousness is!

CONSCIOUSNESS IS HERE.

Who am I who notices consciousness is here? Who am I who notices the music? Who am I who notices the thought, "i shouldn't listen to this playlist too much or it'll get stale before our trip"? Who am I who is noticing thoughts about instagram? Who am I who notices caring about what people think? Who am I who notices the slowing down? Who am I who notices the desire to take my time? Who am I who notices the presence?

I am saying yes to what is. Yes I am standing here. Yes I am hoping to be present today. Yes I know i need to start now. I am here now. I consciousness am here now. Consciousness is here now. Consciousness is here now. There is no rush. Consciousness is here now. You are safe. Everything is unfolding perfectly.

I am saying yes to what is. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I am relaxing into the now. Yes I am grateful to have the whole day to myself. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I am breathing in and standing up straight. Yes I am noticing the need to pee. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I am yawning. Yes I am relaxing into the now. Yes I am optimistic about this day. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I just want to be present, to rest in the sense I AM. To stay as consciousness is.

Consciousness is here.
Empty, empty. Empty. Empty.

Watch yourself breathe out and notice the mind. Watch yourself breathe in and be here now. Watch yourself stand at your desk, beating yourself up for some choices. Watch yourself breathe in.

WHo am i who notices the mind chastising? And who is being chastised? Who am I who notices the guilt and regret and disappointment? Who am I who notices caring about form? Who am I who notices caring so much about the physical body? Who am I who notices the desire to control so much? Your desire to control is controlling you.

Watch yourself breathe in and be here now. Watch yourself breathe out and be pure awareness.

Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Pure awareness, I am. Om.

I am loving what is! I am loving having time to write. I am loving having time to explore consciousness. I am loving having amazing house music from ibiza to listen to. I am loving that we have radio garden now! I am loving that it's the weekend. I am loving that the cooking will all be done today. I am loving breathing out. I am loving my new haircut. I am loving the music. I am loving standing here. I am loving doing my writing. I am loving slowing down to be present during my writing. I am loving being here now. I am loving what is.

I am loving that we have been working out consistently. I am loving noticing that i am in the past. I am loving being here now. I am loving the springtime. I am loving the clouds. I am loving the weather. I am loving the last few drops of being in the house. I am loving the time before our trip. I am loving having a reason to focus. I am loving being here. I am loving standing here breathing in.

I am loving relaxing my shoulders. I am loving relaxing in to the moment. I am loving my writing and journaling and counting morning routine. I am loving relaxing. I am loving slowing down. I am loving staying as consciousness is.

Consciousness is here. Empty empty empty empty empty. I am loving learning how to stay as consciousness is. I am loving learning about the mind. I am loving remembering what i know> I am loving being in the flow. I am loving feeling confident. I am loving feeling relaxed. I am loving staying as consciousness is. I am loving having the best day of my life! I am loving being light. I am loving deciding to not give a fuck!

I am focused. I am saying yes to what is. I am loving what is. I am staying as consciousness is.

Consciousness is here. I consciousness am here. Consciousness is here. EMpty empty empty empty

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Become Lucid


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Become Lucid (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and slow down.
Breathe out and smile because smiles become things too!

Let yourself ease into this moment. It’s safe to relax. It’s safe to let those thoughts go.

Breathe in and wake up in the dream.
Breathe out and ask yourself, “Who am I?”

Breathing in I
Breathing out AM

Let yourself open up to the flow. Let yourself breathe easily. Surrender your preferences. It doesn’t have to go a certain way.

Breathe in and lighten up! It’s not serious!
Breathe out and let go!

Keep letting go. Feel for your sense of being. Who are you without the thoughts? Who are you without the worries?

Breathe in and be who you really are.
Breathe out and keep letting go.

Let it be easy. Let it be simple. I AM comes before everything else. Notice that will little space, that little recognition when you say I AM, before anything else attaches to it in your mind.

Breathing in I am
Breathing out I am

I exist. We exist. We are. Whatever it is, whatever thought it takes you to get you feeling your sense of being, instead of thinking about your person, about your mind, about your body—let yourself just be and it’s not just a phrase. Let yourself be.

Breathing in I am
Breathing out I am

And a mantra or a mental code or a phrase won’t always work. There won’t always be a thought that’s the key into presence. It’s a feeling. It’s a remembering. It’s feeling for who you are when you say I AM, before anything else. What is there before you describe your person? What is there before you describe anything? What is there before you think about it?

Breathe in and let the flow take you there.
Breathe out and lighten up!

It’s just for fun! The present moment is always fun. It’s funny here!

Breathe in and step into this moment.
Breathe out and don’t take any of this for granted.

If nothing else, say thank you for every single thing you experience today. Thank you for this step. Thank you for this breath. Thank you for this step. Take none of it for granted. Look at it all as if for the first time.

Breathe in and have beginner’s mind.
Breathe out and feel for that sense of being.

Feel for that sense of waking up in the dream. Like you’ve just become lucid.

Breathe in and see what comes when you say I AM.
Breathe out and feel for what comes when you say I AM.

What notices what comes?

Breathe in and say yes to who you really are.
Breathe out and be who who you really are!

Jessica Mullen

Cycle Day 11

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself stand at your desk and listen to http://radio.garden/. Shit is SO COOL! Watch yourself breathe out and stand here. Watch yourself breathe in and relax. Watch yourself breathe out and relax.

Who am I who is standing here? Who am i who is noticing hunger? Who am i who is noticing heat? Who am i who is noticing the music playing?

Who am I who is standing here? Who am i who is noticing the thoughts? Who am i who is noticing the typing?

Watch yourself breathe in and be here now. Watch yourself breathe out and be here now.

Relax your body. Relax your body.

Breathe in and bring energy into your crown chakra
breathe out and activate your crown chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your third eye chakra
breathe out and activate your third eye chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your throat chakra
breathe out and activate your throat chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your heart chakra
breathe out and activate your heart chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your solar plexus chakra
breathe out and activate your solar plexus chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your navel chakra
breathe out and activate your navel chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your root chakra
breathe out and activate your root chakra

thank you for helping me stay as consciousness is!
never fear, consciousness is here!

who am i who is annoyed? Who am i who notices being annoyed at being unable to navigate a UI?

Who am i who notices pain in my left bicep? Who am I who notices the music playing? Who am I who notices the mind seeking for that feeling? Who am I who is seeking? I know I am seeking from the sought! I know I am seeking from the place I seek!

Who am i who is standing here? Who am i who notices displeasure? Who a i who notices disappointment? Who am I hwo notices the urge to listen to more mooji> who am i who hates the typos? Who am i who notices the hate of typos? Who am I who notices the urge to control? Who am I who wants to control?? Who am i who notices the one who wants to control??

Who am I who is standing here listening to ibiza radio? Who am i who is noticing the urge to listen to nin? Who am I who is noticing the creativity of this music? Who am I who notices caring about what people think> Who am i who notices the hunger in my body?

WHo am I who notices the breathing in? Who am i who notices the pressure of the to do? Who am I who notices dreading class? Who am i who notices the dread is much less pronounced than usual?

Who am i who notices the body breathing in? Who am i who notices the body breathing out? Who am i who is standing here?

Consciousness is here. Conscsiousness is here now. I consciousness am here now. Consciousness is here. Consciousness is here. Consciousness is here.

Consciousness is here.
I consciousness am here.
Pure awareness, I am.
I exist!
Consciousness is here.

I am loving what is!
I am loving listening to radio garden! I am loving hearing music from ibiza! I am loving being here now. I am loving morning. This is my favorite part of the day. I am loving standing at my desk listening to new music. I am loving breathing in.

I am loving finding new music! I am loving finding the global treasure trove of music! I am loving having a place to find new music! I am loving the internet! I am loving breathing in!

I am loving breathing out! I am loving remembering consciousness is here! I am loving remembering i am not a person! I am loving remembering i am consciousness! I am loving being here now. I am loving having new music to listen to. I am loving the morning time. I am loving relaxing into the now. I am loving that we get to eat breakfast soon. I am loving that it's the weekend and I am free! I am loving being free. I am loving having passions like

mooji
radio garden
hamilton morris
red scare
deep dreams
meditating
les mills

I am loving standing here at my desk. I am loving doing my writing before breakfast. I am loving keeping up my writing and meditating and counting and workouts and cooking and meditation videos. I am loving feeling good in my body. I am loving my new haircut! I am loving being here now. I am loving relaxing into the now. I am loving staying as consciousness is.

Who am i who notices the love? Who am i who notices the likes and dislikes? Who am I who notices the passion? Who am i who notices the desire for freedom? Who am I who notices the desire to devour every mooji recording in existence? Who am i who notices the tiny headache?

Who am i who notices the body breathing in? Who am i who notices the body breathing out? Who am I who notices a flicker of anxiety? Who am I who notices the desire to turn around and check on linty?

Who am i who looks at linty and notices the love that is tainted by sadness? Who am i who notices resistance to mortality? Who am I who notices the music? Who am I who notices the breathing out? Who am I who notices the impatience?

Who am I who notices the breathing iN? Who am i who notices the breathing out? Who am i who notices the tweets composing in my mind?

Who am i who notices the desire to call home? Who am i who notices the memory of a dream? Who am i who notices the sun coming out a tiny bit? Who am i who notices the need to record? Who am I who notices the breathing in? Who am i who notices the breathing out?

Consciousness is here.
I consciousness am here.
Consciousness is here. It's not personal.

Consciousness is here. Stay as consciousness is. I consciousness am here. I exist. I am!

I consciousness am here.
Consciousness is here.
I am here now!

Jessica Mullen

Be the Observer (day 9)

Jessica Mullen
be the observer. observe the thoughts.
go into the body. observe the i am-ness.
how to observe the i am-ness?

I am. What does the being feel like? There are so many thoughts and words when i just want to sit still but i have this habit of having to write now...

Be the observer.
Who am i? WHo am i who is noticing the body standing here?
Who am i who is noticing the music? Who am I who is noticing memories and associations?
Who am i who is noticing the humidifiers? Who am I who is noticing the need to find this observer?

I know that the observer is seeking for itself.. how to rest the attention on the awareness itself?
I am awareness. I am aware of awareness. I am pure awareness.

how to feel my sense of being? my sense I AM?

i am trapped in the mind, looking for hows. i just want to be.
i want to just be. i want to just be. i want to be pure awareness. i want to stay as consciousness is.

it's the feeling of consciousness is. consciousness is here. i consciousness am here. never fear, i consciousness am here. consciousness is here. consciousness is here now. i am here now.

who is noticing hte breathing in? Who is noticing the urge for stimulation?
Who is noticing the little urges coming up? The little needs to controL? "No i should eat breakfast later so we don't get hungry at our haircuts"

"what should i eat for lunch. oh i already solved that. where is better music. what can i listen to that's as good as mooji but has no words. i am hungry. i am wanting to feel more awake. i wish i had time to meditate more this morning. what is this song."

i want to rest my attention on awareness. i want to rest attention on attention. i want to rest awareness on awareness. what is this awareness? who the fuck am i??

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

i am staying as consciousness is. consciousness is here.
i am waking up in the dream. i am here live judge.

i consciousness am here. consciousness is here. i consciousness is here. there is something, awareness, that is here before the thoughts. what is here before the i am??

awareness.

i / eye

i am here

who am i who is here? who am i who is noticing the anxiety about having to leave the house twice in a day?

who am i who is remembering a bad memory and getting angered by it? who is it who is angered? who am i who notices the anger? who am i who notices the memory?

how can i get there without words? how can i remember to do the self inquiry without words, without constant mental code repetition?

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

who is who notices being annoyed that linty just shit on the floor? who am i who notices the urge to interfere and take over on the clean up? who am i who notices the judgement? who am i who notices the anger? Who am i who notices the guilt? Who am I who notices the attention listening to K cleaning up the mess?

Who am i who notices the desire for liberation> Who am i who notices the desire for peace and space/ who am i who notices the desire for more meditation? who am i who has to get her money's worth of the deep dream service?

who am i who notices the attention seeking to see if there is enough coffee? who am i who notices the impatience? who am i who notices the need to control everything?

who am i who notices the anxiety? Who am i who notices the desire to find this fucking presence? Who am i who notices the paradox that i can't find presence when i'm looking for it??

Pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

who am i going through the motions? who am i who is seeking? the attention is seeking. who am i who watches the attention seek>? who am i who wants to stay as the watcher?

who am i who notices the mind almost solving the puzzle, but then finding something else to grab hold of? Who am i who knows this is not a puzzle?

who am i who notices the body? Who am i who notices being here? consciousness is here. i consciousness am here.

who am i who notices the desire to wake up in the dream? who am i who notices my hands typing? Who am i who notices the thinking about the attention?

who am i who notices the mind thinking about the appointment?
who am i who notices the anxiety that comes from the attention stretching out?
who am i who desires to keep the attention here now?
who am i who is here now?
who am i who has attention?
who am i who possesses the attention?

who am i who notices the beat on this song and doesn't like it?

who am i who notices frustration, that i can't quite get there? who am i who notices the body breathing in? who am i who notices the body breathing out.

who am i who notices this moment? who am i who tries to tell myself "stay as consciousness is"? Who am i who notices that it isn't a thought that is going to work forever? Who am i who notices????

WHO THE FUCK AM I!?

I know I am it but i want to FEEL IT/

Consciousness is here. I consciousness am here. consciousness is here. i consciousness am here. who am i who notices consciousness is here? who am i who notices the mind seeking? Who am i who notices the mind sending attention out? who am i who notices the breathing in? Who am i who notices the breathing out?

who am i who notices the mind just wanting to get the writing over with?

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

stay as consciousness is.

consciousness is here. stay as consciousness is.

i consciousness am here now.
who am i who notices the mind wanting to hold onto these thoughts and make sure they work forever?? these thoughts are just pacifiers!!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Directions to The Feeling


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Directions to The Feeling (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and slow down.
Breathe out and slow down.

Use your breath to slow your mind down.

Breathing in I know I’m breathing in.
Breathing out I know I’m breathing out.

Breathing in I know I’m breathing in.
Breathing out I know I’m breathing out.

Let yourself spend the next few minutes practicing The Feeling of presence.

Breathe in and be here now.
Breathe out and wake up in the dream!

There are many techniques for practicing presence, for waking yourself up. You can focus on your breath. You can ask questions like, “Who am I who notices breathing? Who am I who notices thinking?” And look into your mind, and really look, really find the answer. Who am I who notices these thoughts?

Breathe in and look inside.
Breathe out and notice.

Who am I noticing these thoughts?

Breathe in and say I
Breathe out and say AM

I
AM

Feel for your sense of being. It’s your sense “I AM” that is noticing all of the comings and goings. It is your sense “I AM” that never changes. It always stays the same. It’s always there, it never comes and goes. You always have your sense “I AM”.

Breathing in I
Breathing out AM

But if you’re anything like me, it’s easy to still get caught up in the personhood, the I, the psychological mind when I’m saying “I AM”. I am what?? What does I AM mean?? But you can become pure awareness. You can transcend your thoughts and remember who you really are. Transcend the psychological mind, by remembering, “I (consciousness) AM, so consciousness IS.” And just think to yourself: Consciousness IS. Consciousness is all of this.

Breathing in consciousness
Breathing out is.

Consciousness
IS

It’s a feeling. Well, it’s beyond a feeling, but the way through is feeling. It’s not a thought. But the words “Consciousness IS” or “I AM” or “I (consciousness) AM”—all of these words are pointers or directions to the feeling. Directions to the state of being.

Breathe in and feel for your sense I AM.
Breathe out and be pure awareness!

And the psychological mind will keep coming back. The mind keeps coming back. It keeps coming back. It’s never going to stop coming back. But each time let it remind you, “Oh yeah, I am. Consciousness is.”

There is a knowing, there is a love. There is a natural ease inside of you already. And it’s accessible right here right now, without doing anything!

Just look inside and feel for that sense of being. Feel for that oneness. Feel for that feeling of waking up in a lucid dream, or realizing everything is alive. Everything is consciousness. Look around your life, like it is a dream. And start waking up to the reality that you are eternal. You are pure awareness. And your thoughts just distract you from that. They’re not real!

Breathe in and be pure awareness.
Breathe out and feel for that consciousness. Feel for that oneness with your reality.

Take a few seconds right now to feel for it. Consciousness is.

Breathing in consciousness is.
Breathing out consciousness is.

Breathing in consciousness is.
Breathing out consciousness is.

And the more you practice feeling for this natural state, that is beyond your thoughts, above your thoughts, the space between your thoughts—the more you practice this, the more joyful and loving you’ll become. And then the things you want will come to you, but you don’t care because you already have everything you want. You have love. You are love! You are gratitude! You are joyful! And it’s all right here, right now, in this present moment.

Breathing in consciousness is!
Breathing out consciousness is!

Jessica Mullen

A Camera Without Film (day 8)

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself stand at your desk. Watch yourself look up a mooji quote to tweet. Watch yourself breathe in and like the song. Watch yourself breathe out and stand here. Watch yourself listen to spotify deep house. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself feel good today. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out.

Watch yourself remember last night when asking who am i worked. Watch yourself remember the effectiveness. You asked, who am i who is so irritated?? And saw a little doll of yourself like on tv, and when the annoying thing happened, it washed over the doll, who cringed. But then from the watching, the doll and the annoyingness dissolved. And then the annoying thing didn't happen again. It dissolved from the pure awareness. It dissolved from the self inquiry.

So here are my favorite ideas that are working great for presence, although telling the mind the HOW is putting it in the mind's bank account... you can't save it up but still these thoughts are effective in various scenarios...

  • Who am I? (when annoyed or angry, ask WHO AM I who is annoyed or angry? should reveal the false self image that crumbles from the light of pure awareness)
  • I, consciousness, am here. (works when trying to stay present, or when anxious. never fear, i consciousness am here!)
  • Consciousness is (here). (this one works to depersonalize sometimes, to get out of the I person)
  • A camera without film (similar to alan watt's LOOK. just observe. take everything away and you are still the observer, the pure awareness)
  • Pure awareness, I am. (this chant can get me out of mental loops, reminds me who I really am)
  • Thank you (remember to take nothing for granted!!!!)
  • Yes! (Say yes to what is... especially when tired or low energy or not in a great mood. Accept the thoughts and emotions and they will pass)

And today's to do

  • Order paper
  • Post vid
  • Orders
  • Record
  • Zoom

Watch yourself switch to pandora because you want music without words. Watch yourself stand here and realize you'll probably have to turn the heat on...

Watch yourself breathe in. WAtch yourself breathe out.

Yes I am standing here. Yes I am writing. Yes i am looking back to check on linty. yes i am breathing in. yes i am hungry .yes i am eager for breakfast. yes i am breathing out .yes i am breathing in. yes i am remembering to smile. yes i am feeling good today. yes i am inspired. yes i am excited about this day. yes i am so grateful to have time affluence.

thank you for the perfect timing .thank yo ufor the music. thank you for the subscription services. thank you for the inspirational teachers. thank you for the fun show .thank you for the fun show getting easier. thank you for this breath. thank you for this home .thank you for teh music. thank you for my friends. thank you for the internet. thank you for the full vax. thank you for the passive income. thank you for the wholesalers. thank you for the inspiring music. thank you for the pleasure. thank you for the contrast that creates. thank you for the birds. thank you for the presence. thank you for the pure awareness i am. thank you for helping me stay as consciousness is.

breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
breathing out i activate my throat chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out i activate my heart chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra
breathing out i activate my root chakra

thank you for helping me stay as consciousness is. thank you for the pure awareness i am. thank you for the presence. thank you for helping me stay as a camera without film. thank you for absorbing me. thank you for the pure awareness, i am. thank you for the self inquiry.

WHo am I who notices a rushing towards breakfast?
A little doll. A little hungry doll throwing a tantrum.

Who am I who notices anxiety?
fearful little girl, everything is a threat

Who am I who notices desire for new better music?
A little snob doll, getting bored, needing entertainment for the mind

Pure awareness I am. Pure awareness I Am. Pure awareness I am. Om.

Pure awareness I am. Pure awareness. I am. Pure awareness. I am. Om.

I am loving standing here. I am loving learning how to do self inquiry. I am loving having inspirational teachers. I am loving learning from mooji. I am loving that it corroborates with byron katie and eckhart tolle. i am loving being here now. i am loving having the whole day ahead of me. i am loving being me. i am loving our home. i am loving living in cleveland. i am loving remembering to smile.

i am loving standing here doing my writing. i am loving learning to ask who am i. i am loving learning who i am. i am loving being here now. i am loving being pure awareness. i am loving relaxing into the now .i am loving learning to be a camera without film, or rather remembering i am a camera without film. i am loving being here now. i am loving lightening up. i am loving doing the work. i am loving relaxing into the now. i am loving being here now.

I am focused. I am saying yes to what is. I am loving what is. I am pure awareness. I consciousness am here!