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Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – I Love You and I Understand


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I Love You and I Understand (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance.

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance.

Relax your shoulders.

Breathe in and smile because life is not serious!
Breathe out and and let go of your worries.

Let yourself feel whatever you’re feeling right now.

Breathe in and ask yourself, “What am I feeling right now?”
Breathe out and listen.

I’m feeling so sad because of impermanence and I feel sad because I feel rejected. How do you feel?

Breathe in and make peace with what is.
Breathe out and just let yourself feel however you feel, right now.

Relax your body. Let yourself just be here now.

Breathe in and be here now.
Breathe out and be here now.

This is the right place and the right time and you are doing everything right. However you feel right now, is exactly how you’re supposed to feel.

Breathe in and now ask yourself, “How do I prefer to feel?”
Breathe out and think about it, how do I prefer to feel?

I prefer to feel energized and playful! And loving! I prefer to feel enthusiastic about life. I prefer to feel in love with myself and not care about what other people think about me!

Breathe in and say, “I love myself!”
Breathe out and say, “I don’t give a fuck!”

It’s time to let these emotions pass through us and move on to what we choose to feel. We are the creators. It’s up to us to choose what we think and how we feel and what we do.

Breathe in and welcome however you’re feeling.
Breathe out and tell however you’re feeling, “I love you and I understand. I love you and I understand. I love you and I understand.”

Breathe in and relax. You’re making peace with what is.
Breathe out and now let go of that feeling. You’ve embraced it, you love it, you understand it. It’s safe to let it go now.

Breathe in and make space for how you want to feel.
Breathe out and let go of your thoughts.

It’s always best to feel how you feel instead of bottling up and numbing yourself. However you feel today, I love you and I understand.

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I don’t give a fuck!

Life is supposed to be fun. But life is also deep and mysterious. Today, however you feel, whatever you do, it’s all okay. And whatever it is that you’re doing, thinking, feeling, or being, just say to yourself, “I love you and I understand.”

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I don’t give a fuck!

And now that we’ve let ourselves feel our feelings, whatever the opposite side of the wave is, is now on the way! So get ready to feel energized and playful!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I don’t give a fuck!

I love you and I understand!

Jessica Mullen

12 -12 Portal

Jessica Mullen
Got my emails down to two.

Excited about the new tagline for the School: 👁 A curriculum in magick, manifesting and meditation.
If you believe your thoughts create your reality, these materials are for you. 💌

Listening to Bright Eyes and remembering walking in the snow through Urbana, Illinois my junior year of college.
So grateful to be back in my office, on my computer, listening to music, the laundry done, pizza for dinner. Done with cooking for a night.

Feeling like I reveal too much of myself but at the same time... IDGAF. Thanks for the likes. I miss you and we've only met once.

Can't believe I'm listening to BRight Eyes though.

I wish I could come up with more tweets.

I hope to come across some Narcan some day so I can start carrying it.

I wish I had more replyguys, and I wish I didn't have any reply guys.

I wish I would be lucid in my dreams more.

I wish to be a bestselling Micro author and to make enough to buy a house...

Not that I would buy a house.

I wish these headphones didn't give me a headache.
I wish I was inspired to make my next project.
I wish I would start writing my 2020 post.

But I'm getting hungry and unfocused. I counted to 6200 so far today. Thanks for the motivation, it's really helping.

I wish I could direct my dreams more... I'm reading a novel called The Anatomy of Dreams that Betty recommended. It's about lucid dreaming and I just Love it!

I wish A would visit.

I wish I worked out a little more... an eternal wish. I wish there was more space for handstands. I wish I would make more space for handstands. I wish I would play my guitar.

Okay okay let's do some reframing shall we?

I intend to play guitar!
I intend to make more space for handstands!
I intend to write this 2020 post! Friendly Singular Focus!
I intend to count!
I intend to make magick!

Last night for the 12:12am full moon on 12-12 the four of us wrote intentions and burned them in our new mortar and pestle from Coven. It was our first time using the little mortar, and it handled burning so well! It was a moment of magick that I'd been craving.

I intend to record my best meditation video yet!
I intend to stop thinking about what I don't have!
I intend to live the magick life!
I intend to make my best work!
I intend to be friendly!
I intend to have singular focus!
I intend to lighten up and have fun!

Wow Bright Eyes was such a Lil peep precursor.

I intend to love myself and not give a fuck! I intend to love myself the way I am!

Even though I have been drowning in thought since Sunday, I still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself exactly the way I am.

Even though I am second guessing my communication, I still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself.

Even though I feel a little uneasy I still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself.

Even though I feel anxious, I still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself.

Even though I am doing so much second guessing, I still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself.

Even though this Bright Eyes is like beyond triggering I still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself.

Even though I feel unfocused and tired, I still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself!

Even though I feel like there is SO MUCH TO DO I still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself!

Even though I feel like I'm cheating at sobriety because of kratom, I still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself!

Even though this Bright Eyes is like... making me feel so inadequate, I still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself!!!!!

Tonight I intend to relax. I intend to just be present!!! I intend to enjoy being. I intend to enjoy life. I intend to love myself. I intend to enjoy the night. I intend to relax and breathe unconsciously.

I intend to love yeah love. I intend to surrender my preferences. I intend to lighten up and have fun! I intend to celebrate how far I've come! I've come so far since the last time I listened to this! I was such a mess! I had ... over a decade before I'd even quit drinking!

Notes on being alcohol free for 3.86 years
- I never miss it anymore because I have kratom
- I occasionally feel relieved thinking I could have a drink if I really wanted one, but I never want one because it makes me feel bloated and nauseated.
- I don't really dream about alcohol anymore
- I almost never go out at night
- I've never been to a liquor store in Ohio
- I really don't miss it today but I think i really would if I didn't have kratom
- Kratom fills an adderall/alcohol void and I am very attached to it
- But wow kratom is keeping me sober as fuck
- I feel like I'm really making some headway in our business from being sober. Getting a lot done/
- I wonder if the kratom sucks some of my magick out though...
- Really really REALLY grateful to be sober

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best night of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to just love myself and not give a fuck? Wouldn't it be nice to stop thinking about it? Wouldn't it be nice to let it come to me? Wouldn't it be nice to just relax and BE HERE NOW?

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – It Takes Courage to Relax


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It Takes Courage to Relax (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body.

Breathe in and make peace with what is.
Breathe out and let go of your seeking.

In my mind, I’m constantly looking for something else, the next thing to make me feel better. Should I go eat something? Should I go drink something? Should I go take something? Should I go smoke something? What can I do to escape the moment?

Breathe in and just let yourself be here now.
Breathe out and stop trying to escape the moment.

Decide to make peace with where you are and what you’re doing. Decide to be full with what you have. Decide you don’t need anything outside of you to feel better!

Breathe in and say yes!
Breathe out and say thank you!

Step outside of your thoughts right now, into the present moment where everything is fun and there’s nothing to worry about.

Breathe in and open to receiving!
Breathe out and just let yourself be here now.

Pull your attention away from your fantasies. Pull your attention away from your thoughts. Let yourself just be here now.

Breathe in and lighten up because it’s not serious!
Breathe out and surrender your preferences!

Sure, you might like to eat something or drink something or take something or smoke something to feel better, but what if you let go of all of those desires and just let yourself be?

Breathe in and relax.
Breathe out and relax.

When all we want to do is escape the moment, the easiest way to go back to the on and off, the in and out, the yes and no, the formula of life, the black and white, is to go back to your breath. Focusing your attention on your breath can keep your mind off of your compulsive, addictive thinking.

Breathing in I know I’m breathing in.
Breathing out I know I’m breathing out.

Breathing in I know I’m breathing in.
Breathing out I know I’m breathing out.

You don’t have to think about what you’re going to do next or say next. You can let yourself relax. It takes courage to relax!

Breathe in and relax!
Breathe out and smile! It’s really not serious!

You’re letting yourself relax. You’re letting yourself just be here now. Now let yourself think about what you want, so that when you take your attention and put it fully on the present moment, you open up the space for what you want to come.

Breathe in and think about what you want.
Breathe out and name it: “What do I want?”

I want to feel energized and playful! What do you want?

Breathe in and imagine how it would feel to get what you want.
Breathe out and don’t think about the how of how you’re going to get what you want.

All that matters is practicing the feeling of what you want. And when you can practice the feeling, you’re getting what you ultimately want. You just want it because it will make you feel a certain way. If you can choose to feel that way first, you don’t need the manifestation. And when you don’t need the manifestation, it comes to you.

Breathe in and open up to having fun today!
Breathe out and let go of those worries!

You can and you will have fun today because you have taken the time to center yourself and be present. You’ve taken the time to focus on your breath just a little bit, and take some time away from thinking.

Breathe in and celebrate! This is the best day of your life!
Breathe out and relax! You don’t have to do anything for things to keep getting better and better and better!

Breathe in and say yes!
Breathe out and say thank you!

Everything you want is on its way. Devote yourself to your breath and you’ll see life already is the way you want it to be!

Breathing in I know I’m breathing in
Breathing out I know I’m breathing out

Jessica Mullen

My Mood Is My Work!

Jessica Mullen

So happy and grateful I can just shut down the world and go do my writing and I know I will feel better. So happy and grateful to feel connected and in the flow. So happy and grateful I can choose to feel better. So happy and grateful I can let go of my worries and just be here now. SO happy and grateful to always have plenty. So happy and grateful to have my parents. So happy and grateful to have my wife and kitties and home and health. So happy and grateful I always have enough. So happy and grateful to be making my best work.

So happy and grateful I can lighten up and have fun! So happy and grateful to be here now! SO happy and grateful it's working out for me! So happy and grateful to have perfect timing.

So happy and grateful to feel connected already. So happy and grateful to have the answers. SO happy and grateful I don't have to care!

So happy and grateful to LET GO! So happy and grateful to lighten up! So happy and grateful to remember my mood is my work! So happy and grateful it's all working out! So happy and grateful dinner is already made! So happy and grateful to feel good in my body! SO happy and grateful to surrender my preferences! So happy and grateful to be here now! SO happy and grateful to remember who I am! SO happy and grateful to be the creator! So happy and grateful to let go!

So happy and grateful to have the best wife in the world. SO happy and grateful to have such a happy peaceful life. So happy and grateful to surrender. So happy and grateful to let go! So happy and grateful to just relax and breathe!

BReathing in I know I'm breathing in!
Breathing out I know I'm breathing out!

Breathing in I know I'm breathing in
Breathing out I know I'm breathing out

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I don't give a fuck!

I am connected! I am in the flow! I am smiling! It's already working! It's already working out for me! Life already is the way I want it to be!

Wouldn't it be nice to have the best night of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my worries? Wouldn't it be nice to drop that thought? Wouldn't it be nice to celebrate and have fun? WOuldn't it be nice to lighten up? Wouldn't it be nice to enjoy being? Wouldn't it be nice to let go of my fears? Wouldn't it be nice to get that residency? Wouldn't it be nice to play and have fun? Wouldn't it be nice to feel better about getting around town? Wouldn't it be nice to feel brave? Wouldn't it be nice to trust the process of life?

Wouldn't it be nice to play and enjoy and have fun? Wouldn't it be nice to get stronger? WOuldn't it be nice to get better at handstands? Wouldn't it be nice to practice handstands more? Wouldn't it be nice to have more room for handstands? Wouldn't it be nice to be 110? Wouldn't it be nice to do something really nice for my parents? Wouldn't it be nice to feel better and better as the night goes On??

Wouldn't it be nice to go back to my singular focus of counting?? 7300 and counting!!

Wouldn't it be nice to record my best video yet? Wouldn't it be nice to get everything on my list done? Wouldn't it be nice to find something to watch while I cap? Wouldn't it be nice to record the fun show? Wouldn't it be nice to make the butter? Wouldn't it be nice to fix the ajax on sold? Wouldn't it be nice to have FUN? Wouldn't it be nice to get into acro???/

I intend to have the best night of my life. I intend to take care of myself. I intend to enjoy being. I intend to enjoy life the way it is. I intend to love myself and not give a fuck!

I intend to live the magick life! I intend to make my best work! I intend to let go! I intend to enjoy life! I intend to eat light and be fit! I intend to take care of myself! I intend to be kind! I intend to be generous! I intend to GIVE! I intend to let go of my resistance! I intend to surrender! I intend to let life live me!

I am allowing well being to flow. I am connected to source. I am connected to my higher self. I am choosing to focus on my singular focus! I am choosing to focus! I am choosing to be friendly! I am choosing to be light and smile! I am choosing to live the magick life! I live the magick life! Life is supposed to be fun!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I don't give a fuck!

Life already is the way I want it to be!

I intend to have the best night of my life!
I intend to make my best work!
I intend to fly!
I intend to take care of myself!
I intend to read and enjoy!
I intend to play!
I intend to record my best video!
I intend to DO THE WORK!
I intend to remember my MOOD IS MY WORK!
I intend to love myself and not give a fuck!
I intend to live the magick life!

I love it when I do my writing. I love it wheN I feel better. I love it wheN I play and enjoy life. I love it when I feel connected to other people. I love it when I let go of my preferences. I love it wheN I make peace with what is. I love it when I read. I love it when I feel focused. I love it when I lighten up! I love it when it all works out!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Mindset Is Everything!


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Mindset Is Everything! (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Welcome back to the present moment, where everything is fun and there’s nothing to worry about.

Breathe in and be here now!
Breathe out and let go of your thoughts.

Surrender your preferences. Let your body relax. Let your mind slow down.

Breathe in and feel a little bit of energy come into you!
Breathe out and start feeling excited about your life!

Right now marks the point where you take control back from your thoughts! And you become the conscious creator you were born to be!

Breathe in and say yes!
Breathe out and say thank you!

Mindset is everything! If you can put your mind to it, you can have it. But! Traditionally that means if you can focus on your goals and check things off lists, and never give up, you’ll get your goal. But what mindset being everything actually means is whatever you put your mind to—your singular focus, your affirmation or your counting or your breath—that mindset, that devotion to your mindset to having a peaceful mental rhythm—that is what brings you to your goals, that focus on ONE THING. It can be on a goal, but usually in practice, it’s on a single thought, or a single thought pattern. So today, remember mindset is everything and decide: what are you going to put your mind to today?

Breathe in and feel so excited you have your power back!
Breathe out and let go of all of those worries!

You don’t need them. They don’t help anything. It’s time to focus your attention on ONE SINGLE POINT. That is what “mindset is everything” means—to keep your attention on a single point. When you do that, you feel so much better, because you’re not dragged down by your thoughts!

Breathe in and feel so relieved!
Breathe out and smile! Life loves you and wants to help you!

Right now, this moment is so magickal. You are receiving the guidance that you need to have whatever you want, to be whatever you want, do whatever you want. Just remember: mindset is everything!

Breathe in and choose your singular focus.
Breathe out and decide right now: what is your singular focus?

It can be silent counting. It can be chanting “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo”. It can be focusing on your breath like,

Breathing in I know I’m breathing in.
Breathing out I know I’m breathing out.

It can be an affirmation like, “I love myself.” Or, “Yes! Thank you!” Or it can be an embodied practice like feeling the air on your skin or feeling your inner body. Whatever works best for you—numbers, breath, affirmations, chanting, feeling your inner body—make that your singular focus today. And you will be succeeding in the concept of “mindset is everything.”

Breathe in and feel confident. Mindset is everything!
Breathe out and be confident. You now have the mindset that it takes to get what you want!

It’s so simple. It’s deceptively simple,. It’s just choosing one thing and not wavering. Stand up to your thoughts today. And relax. Mindset is everything but it doesn’t have to be hard. Any time you notice yourself worrying or thinking, just remind yourself, mindset is everything. And go right back to your singular focus.

Breathe in and connect to that singular focus.
Breathe out and take some time right now to listen to your higher self. Ask your higher self, “What should my singular focus be today?”

Mine is the affirmation, “I live the magick life!”

Breathe in and live the magick life today!
Breathe out and feel so confident. Mindset is everything, and you have unlocked your singular focus, that allows you to be as focused as you need to be to get what you want.

Breathing in, yes!
Breathing out, I live the magick life!

Jessica Mullen

Return to center

Jessica Mullen
So grateful I can come back. So happy and grateful to feel focused and connected. So happy and grateful to remember I am in the business of being. So happy and grateful to have new friends. So happy and grateful I can bring my attention back to this present moment. So happy and grateful I can choose to lighten up and enjoy life. SO happy and grateful I can choose to enjoy life and let go. SO happy and grateful to feel connected!

So happy and grateful to relax and enjoy life. SO happy and grateful to surrender my preferences and feel better. So happy and grateful to let go of my obsessive thoughts! So happy and grateful I can go back to counting! So happy and grateful to have a video to post! So happy and grateful to be making my best work!

So happy and grateful to let go of my worries.

Dear Diary,
Today I had a call with Lee Blue to see if I was a good fit for his wordpress coaching program. It sounds like a really great opportunity, but afterwards Keke and I realized we REALLY need to focus our energy on SoLD instead of landing new clients. There will never be enough money or enough time, and right now I have the time. I believe in myself and my business and I know that with a little more patience it will more than cover our monthly expenses. So the money that I considered spending on coaching will really come through in other ways, perhaps in a SoLD app or some new product photos or backdrops or other business supplies. Grateful for the conversation that helped me focus and remember what I want: TO DO SOLD FULL TIME.

I'm giving myself a headache. I need to go record.

AFter my call with Lee we packed up our orders and dropped them off at the mailbox. Then Keke drove me to the library to pick up a book I had on hold. We went to return our rental car and got a ride home. Shout out enterprise, they hook us up every time! ALways a pleasure!

When we got home I called my parents and put away the merch from the show this weekend. Boiled some water and got the humidity up to 41% :-D

I did some other SoLD stuff like request replacements for some damaged books and a printer drum. Then we ate veg pot pie for dinner and now we have the whole night ahead of us... free to do anything.

I intend to take advantage of my free time. I intend to free myself from worrying. I intend to enjoy my time. I intend to remember everything always works out. I intend to enjoy my life. I intend to enjoy being.

I intend to love myself and not give a fuck! I intend to relax on those thoughts! I intend to enjoy life the way it is! I intend to let go of my obsessions! I intend to play and celebrate and enjoy life! I intend to let go of my worries. I intend to be here now. I intend to record my best video yet!

I know it won't come until I let go so I'm just going to go ahead and
LET
GO.

I am letting go of thinking about that...
I am letting go of thinking about that....
I am letting go!

I intend to have the best night of my life. I intend to love myself! I intend to not give a fuck! I intend to stop looking for problems! I intend to stop upper limiting! I intend to love myself! I intend to enjoy life! I intend to play and have fun! I intend to enjoy life! I intend to let go of my obsessions

Go back to my life
working out
writing
recording and posting
making sold content
working on my websites
playing music
listening to music and podcasts
meditating
going within
with a singular focus
and with the addition of being
FRIENDLY!

I am letting myself lighten up and enjoy life! I am breathing consciously! I am making my best work! I am connected to the flow! I am focused on what I want! Oh I intend to take some glorious new photos of myself! I intend to celebrate life!

I am so grateful to have money for whole foods and new panties! I am so grateful to have money to rent cars and vend at markets! I am so grateful to always have plenty. I am so grateful to connect to the flow. I am so grateful to be making my best work. I am so grateful for good music! I am so grateful to feel good in my body! I am so grateful to have energy! I am so grateful to have my ducks in a row! I am so grateful to have friends!

I AM SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE FRIENDS!!!!!

I am so grateful it's getting easier to follow through. I am so grateful to let go of my worries and breathe consciously.

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I don't give a fuck!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I don't give a fuck!

Breathing in I love myself!
Breathing out I don't give a fuck!

I am allowing well being to flow! I am also attracting good new music! I am letting life live me! I am in the now! I am dragging my attention away from those obsessive thoughts! I trust the process of life! I love myself and I don't give a fuck! I love myself and I Don't give a fuck! I love myself and i don't give a fuck! I love myself and I don't give a fuck!

I AM MY REASON FOR FEELING GOOD I AM MY REASON FOR FEELING GOOD I LIKE BEING ME I LIKE BEING IN MY BODY I LIKE MOVING MY BODY I LIKE FEELING STRONG

I love being me I love being in this body. I love leveling up. I love opening up. I love exploring my mind. I love mastering my mind. I love finding good music. I love feeling excited about things.

I love having time to myself. I love making my best work. I love feeling focused. I love having a singular focus. I love being excited about life! I love being on some new shit! I love being connected! I love being here now! I love letting go of those obsessive thoughts! I've decided to feel good about that! It's working itself out!!

Jessica Mullen

Singular Focus of the Magician

Jessica Mullen
WHAT I WANT FOR 2020
The singular focus of the magician!

This means keeping my mind trained on a single point. It's not the mantra that matters, it's the devotion. This year I intend to embody the singular focus of the magician. It can be with counting, NMRK, conscious breathing or affirmations. In the past I've made the mistake of choosing a specific affirmation to be my theme for the year. But invariably I grow tired of the particular mental code, and move onto something else. That makes me feel like a bit of a failure in the context of my yearly theme! So this year I am getting to the point of why I choose a yearly mental code in the first place--to train my mind! To feel better! To manifest the life I want! To become worry-free right now!

And I intend to practice and synthesize my magical singular focus with WRITING. Other than of course directing my attention to a certain practice each day, I intend to WRITE and JOURNAL and really process my experiences as often as I can.


So grateful to have the best weekend of my life! So grateful to always have plenty! So grateful to feel SO DUMMY RICH! So grateful to be here now! So grateful to be upgrading my handstands!

So happy and grateful to feel good about myself! So happy and grateful to be at the top of my field! So happy and grateful to be making my best work! SO happy and grateful to love myself and not give a fuck!

So happy and grateful to feel light and connected! So happy and grateful to remember what I want!!

A BIT ON WEIGHTLOSS
Yes I want to lose weight, but for a little bit I forgot WHY.
I lost about 10lbs this year. I have to buy clothes a size smaller. I've been working out regularly as well, so I'm guessing I've lost a bit of fat and gained some muscle.

After we got home from Texas, I lost my focus on my diet a little bit. Having a place to go to see family and friends made me better able to focus on my lighter diet, because I wanted to show up looking and feeling great.

But when we got home I felt like I had nothing to look forward to. No upcoming travel plans or big events to dress up for. Just a long, cold winter ahead.

Then I started watching some of Brittany's videos and came across one about how to do a handstand. A lightbulb went off! I forgot I was trying to lose weight to be lighter for acrobatics! THAT is something to look forward to!

I want to be able to do unassisted handstands and walk on my hands. I want to do back walkovers. I want to do flips on the trampoline and maybe even on the ground! I want to do pullups and climb silks and ropes and lyras. I want to be able to PLAY in my body as much as possible! Physical body play like acrobatics is one of my biggest passions in life! ANd it is MUCH harder to do with extra weight on my body.

I think my weight has been part of the reason I never got back into acrobatics because I've never had the upper body strength to do much other than some backbends and cartwheels. I tried climbing silks in Austin once--what a JOKE! I could hardly lift myself an inch off the ground!

The lighter my body is, the easier acrobatics are, period. ANd THEN I really want to get into partner acrobatics too! ANd it is way easier for a base to flip me around if I'm lighter and stronger!

I am so grateful to Brittany for helping me remember the WHY of changing my diet. It is much easier to not overindulge or eat emotionally when I remember my WHY and my why is fun!

I am so happy and grateful to remember who I am and what I want in life.

I want to CREATE my best work! Journals and zines and books and art and videos and audios and music!
I want to PLAY in my body! Acrobatics and flow toys and weights and dance and FUN!
I want to LOVE the people I am around! I connect and am open and play and love yeah love!
I want to RELEASE worry and master my mind! I practice the singular focus of the magician!

I am choosing to be more focused every day. I am choosing to create my best work every day. My work is getting better every day! I am choosing to be PLAYFUL more every day! I am choosing to love my life and the people in it! I am choosing compassion more and more! I am choosing to remember who I am!

I intend to have the best market ever tomorrow. I intend to love myself and not give a fuck. I intend to play and have fun and be FRIENDLY. I intend to be friendly! I intend to love yeah love! I intend to enjoy! I intend to focus my mind! I intend to have the singular focus of the magician!!

I intend to uplift and inspire! I intend to be uplifted and inspired!

I intend to CHOOSE TO FEEL GOOD! I intend to play and have fun! I intend to appreciate all I have! I intend to enjoy life the way it is! I intend to record my best video yet! I intend to make beautiful art! I intend to draw and enjoy life! I intend to trust the process of life! I intend to surrender! I Intend to have the focus on the magician!

I intend to love myself and not give a fuck. I intend to love my life the way it is! I intend to trust the process of life. I intend to enjoy life. I intend to PLAY. I intend to be myself!

Jessica Mullen

I Intend to Practice Handstands

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful to be awake and alive! So happy and grateful to enjoy life and let go. So happy and grateful to learn how to take care of myself. So happy and grateful to become more conscious every day. So happy and grateful to be making less trash. So happy and grateful to be composting. So happy and grateful to be making my best work. So happy and grateful to feel connected to source. SO happy and grateful I know I can choose to feel good right now. So happy and grateful I can choose right now to be present.

So happy and grateful I can choose to focus and have fun! I can choose fun! I can choose fun! I am choosing fun! I am choosing to focus on what I want! I am choosing to focus on what I want! I am choosing to be more mindful and intentional! I am choosing to be conscious! I am choosing to be more conscious! I am choosing to lead by example! I am choosing to focus my energy and be who I want to be! I am choosing to be who I want to be! I am choosing to be the version of myself I want to be!

Dancing playing JUMPING trampolineing flying space blacklight head unzipped
fun and free and flow and wow is this really real?! is this really the way it can be!

So happy and grateful to learn new things!

So happy and grateful to remember it's just so fun to be upside down!

So happy and grateful to REMEMBER WHY I WANT THE THINGS I WANT

LIGHTNESS
FREEDOM TO BE MYSELF
STRENGTH
PASSION FLOW
F U N

I am so grateful to remember the magick life!

I LIVE THE MAGICK LIFE!

I want fun and to be light and to remember who I am
I want to be strong and healthy and in love with life!
I want to be brave and courageous!

I want to do handstands! I want to be an acrobat! I want to play with friends! I want to play! I want to be healthy and free! I want to be free of my attachments! I want to be free! I want to be playful! I want to be fun!

So grateful for so many clues!
THANK YOU FOR THE CLUES!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Your Darkness Is A Source of Power


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Your Darkness Is A Source of Power (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Welcome back to the present moment, where everything is fun and there’s nothing to worry about!

Breathe in and say yes to this moment!
Breathe out and say thank you for this moment!

There is no where else you need to be. No where you need to go. The only place to go from here is deeper and deeper into this moment.

Breathe in and wake up in the dream!
Breathe out and relax.

No matter how deep life gets, you can handle it. In fact, you’ll love it, the deeper it gets.

Breathe in and say yes!
Breathe out and say thank you!

This is the best day of your life! Everything is working out for you! It’s time to just relax and let your thoughts go. And manifest whatever it is you want!

Breathe in and think about what you want.
Breathe out and really imagine it, “What do I want?”

I want to be so busy with my own fun work that I don’t have time to feel like I’m missing out on anything. What do you want?

Breathe in and imagine what it would feel like to get what you want.
Breathe out and imagine it right now: what would it feel like to get what I want?

To me it feels like flow and, “But of course this would happen!” and it feels like I am my reason for feeling good. Like I just like being me. I just like being alive.

Breathe in and decide: I like being alive!
Breathe out and decide: I like being me!

When you like being alive and you like being yourself, you can handle anything. You can handle any challenge, any contrast.

Breathing in I like being alive!
Breathing out I like being me!

Whatever your problems are, or whatever the things are about yourself you wish you would change, decide to embrace those today. You like those parts of yourself, the dark parts!

Breathing in I love being alive!
Breathing out I love being me!

Everyone has their own little problems and it might look, from the outside, like they don’t. You might want to be like them. But everyone has contrast. Everyone has problems. That’s part of what makes us unique. So if you decide to embrace your problems and your little character defects as you may see them—if you decide to embrace these and celebrate them—liking being you will be so much easier and life will be so much more fun!

Breathing in I love being alive!
Breathing out I love being me!

I love the part of myself that gets addicted to things. I love that I get to attached to things. I love that I’m kind of timid. I love that I’m kind of shy. I love that I don’t always pay attention. I love all these little darks of myself, because they make me who I am. They make my life interesting. And now they’re sources of power.

Breathe in and decide to like those parts of yourself!
Breathe out and claim your source of power!

Wouldn’t it be nice if the dark parts of you were your source of power? Just try today, to like all the little things about yourself you wish you could change. Embrace them and love them. Own them and you will see life already is the way you want it to be!

Breathing in I love being alive!
Breathing out I love being me!

Jessica Mullen

MINDSET IS EVERYTHING

Jessica Mullen
so
grateful
for health
so grateful for laughter
so grateful it's working out
so grateful i can relax
so grateful i can surrender and enjoy life
so grateful i trust the process of life
so grateful it's working out for me

even though i am so incredibly down
i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself

even though i am depressed and feel attacked
i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself

even though i am pissed off i still
totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself

even though i feel like total shit i still
totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself

even though i am SO FUCKING DEPRESSED i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself

even though i feel like i have no control i still;
totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself

even though i am pissing my life away scrolling
i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself

even though i am crushed i still totally and
completely love and accept and forgive myself

even though i feel alone i still
totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself.

even though i am so fucking addicted i
still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself

even though i am pissed off
i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself

even though i FEEL JEALOUS
i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself

it's really working it's really unfolding for me perfectly i know it's all working out and i know i can trust the process i know it's working out for me! i know it's working! i know it's working! i know i live the magick life! I know i am a powerful witch! I know it's all working out for me!

i know i can transmute my problems i know i can leave the house more i know i can conquer my fears i know it's working out for me i know i live the magick life i know it's all working out. i know i can choose the mindset i want. i know mindset is everything.

i know it's working out i know i am feeling better

i know MINDSET IS EVERYTHING I KNOW MINDSET IS EVERYTHING i know it's just a perspective shift to see life already is the way i want it to be!

I intend to have the best night of my life!
I am having the best night of my life!

Wouldn't it be nice to laugh more tonight?
I intend to laugh more tonight!
I am laughing more tonight!

Wouldn't it be nice to connect with more people?
I intend to connect with more people!
I am connecting with more people already!

Wouldn't it be nice to focus more?
I intend to focus more!
I am focusing right now!

I dream

A dream of mine is
to travel abroad more
a dream of mine is
to play with other people more
a dream of mine is
to be an acrobat
a dream of mine is
to try ketamine
a dream of mine is
to feel brave enough to trip again
a dream of mine is
to always act with love yeah love
a dream of mine is
for this phone call to be magickal and synchronous!!

It's really working out. I know it's really working. I know it's really working. I trust the process of life. I know I can do this. I know I can do this. I know I can live the magick life! I know I am living the magick life! I know it's working out for me!

I am connected right now. I am connected right now. I am allowing well being right now. I know it's getting better. I know it's getting better! I know it's working out! I know life loves me. I know I can trust the flow. I know I can relax and enjoy. I know I can master my mind. I know I can master my mindset!

I am mastering my mindset. I am mastering my mindset right now.
MiNDSET IS EVERYTHING
I know it's working out for me! I know it's working out for me!

I am allowing well being

choosing to write always helps
it's all working it's all working out for me i trust the process of life i know it's working out for me
i am choosing to feel good and i know i can feel better and better
i can choose to feel better and i know i will

i know i will feel better. i know i am taking back my control, my focus, my attitude and perception

i can wrangle my attention! i can choose the flow! i can choose to focus on my breath!

breathing in i know i'm breathing in
breathing out i know i'm breathing out

breathing in i know i'm breathing in
breathing out i know i'm breathing out

breathing in i know i'm breathing in
breathing out i know i'm breathing out

i trust the process of life i know it's working out i know i'm in the right place at the right time

I KNOW that PERFECT TIMING is the THEME

I know that I AM WHO I AM
I know that I AM
I know that it's WORKING
I KNOW IT'S WORKING
I know i'm feeling better!
i know i am connected!

i know i am not my body!

i know i am more focused than before!

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