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Daily Meditation – Rest in Gratitude and Knowing


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Rest in Gratitude and Knowing (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Welcome back to the present moment, where all of your power lies. Where everything is fun and there’s nothing to worry about.

Breathe in and say yes to what is.
Breathe out and relax your body.

Let yourself just enjoy this moment, right here, right now. Let the flow through you. Let what you want come to you.

Breathe in and lighten up! It’s not serious!
Breathe out and surrender. It’s not serious!

Everything is ok. Everything is as it should be. When you can step outside of your mind, into the present moment, you see life already is the way you want it to be.

Breathe in and step outside of your mind.
Breathe out and see the perfection of life as it is.

But how do we step out of our minds? How do we see the perfection? I know logically, intellectually, that life takes care of life. That life really is perfect, that everything is working out for everyone. But how do we embody that feeling, that knowing?

Breathe in and say yes to what is!
Breathe out and say thank you for what is.

The easiest way to embody that knowing, is to say thank you. To practice the feeling of gratitude, to reveal that true natural feeling of gratitude in our hearts, for the way things already are. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Breathe in and feel that genuine gratitude. Thank you!
Breathe out and feel how it could really work for you! Thank you!

Get yourself in that feeling. Remember a time when you really did get what you wanted. Or you really were surprised by something you didn’t know you wanted yet. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Breathe in and rest in your knowing that everything is perfect.
Breathe out and practice that feeling of knowing.

Say to yourself, “I know I am here.” That’s your first knowing. That’s the thing that you know above all else. The first thing you knew when you came into your human body—you knew that you are. I know that I am.

Breathing in I know I am here.
Breathing out I know I am here.

Let yourself rest in that feeling of knowing. I know I am here. When you feel these feelings of gratitude, and knowing, everything is blessed in your life. The things you want come to you. You’re a magnet for the perfect unfolding. Just let yourself relax and enjoy life the way it is. That’s all you have to do, is just enjoy it the way it is! And you can take two routes, sometimes simultaneously.

Breathing in I know I am here.
Breathing out thank you.

Thank you. I know I am here. Thank you. I know I am here. Thank you. I know I am here. Thank you.

Breathe in and celebrate how far you’ve come.
Breathe out and feel your power as the creator, as consciousness itself.

You have the power to live life any way you want, to receive anything you want. All it takes is stepping outside of your psychological mind, stepping aside from those thoughts that push the things you want away from you. Allow yourself to rest in gratitude and knowing today.

Breathing in I know I am here.
Breathing out, thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Jessica Mullen

STAY AS I AM

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself sit at your desk, you have 8 minutes to write. Watch yourself try to hurry and think of all your favorite thoughts.

I don't mind.
I am aware.
Am I aware? Yes.
Thank you.
Pure awareness, I am.
I am loving what is.
I am saying yes to what is.
Who am I?
I know i am here.
Your mood is your work.
Love yeah love...

Watch yourself wish you could put those thoughts on a charm bracelet to ward off depression and self hate. Watch yourself listen to linty crying her after breakfast cry. watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out.

Breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
breathing out i activate my throat chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out i activate my heart chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra
breathing out i activate my root chakra

thank you life for helping me stay as i am. thank you for helping me stay aware. thank you for revealing my pure awareness to me. thank you for helping me stay here, reveling in the pure awareness. thank you for helping me keep my awareness rested in its natural position. thank you for helping me stay as i am.

watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself want desperately to stay as pure awareness. watch yourself remember the times you were there before:

the first vaccine: pure awareness i am.
doctor's office: witness the witness.
fungi movie/best weekend mood ever/application flow: i am aware.
atx flow and salad/uber/hotel miracles: thank you.
during class yesterday: i don't mind.
having friends over: pure awareness i am.

Watch yourself enjoy that you've at least been there 6 times since april. Watch yourself breathe out. I know I can stabilize! I know I can stabilize as I am!!

Watch yourself want so bad to stay there! Even though you know you are there, it just gets clouded! Watch yourself breathe in and wish for miracles. Watch yourself breathe out and ask yourself, what do i really want??

It's to stay as i am! To stay as pure awareness! For the freedom of the observer, watching the ups and downs, not minding what happens! I don't give a fuck about worldly success (usually), I just want the relief and freedom of pure awareness I am! I want to stay there! I want to live there! I know I am here, i want to have the stunning realization, i want to be byron katie and eckhart tolle and mooji! I want what they know! I know i have it in me, i just want to stay there!

STAY AS I AM

Watch yourself see the minutes ticking by and you've only done half your writing. Watch yourself wonder how you will fill your time today. Watch yourself tell yourself to make a plan for post-ovulation next month. Watch yourself wonder what helped:

sudafed
reading
napping
writing
mooji

Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself sit here and notice the played tired old ways of seeking for substances. Watch yourself get startled by lint in her box. Watch yourself feel uneasy in your stomach. Watch yourself feel so grateful you got enough sleep. WAtch yourself start trying to plot what to bring for the party again. Watch yourself want to throw all these thoughts off like shackles or a net. Watch yourself want to uproot it all!

Am I aware?
Yes I am aware.

What thought can i keep returning to? How can i stabilize? pure awareness I am? I am aware? Am I aware? Who am I?

Watch yourself breathe out and pray for a good day. Watch yourself pray to stay in control of your vibration. Watch yourself really hate the moodiness and lack of energy post ovulation. Watch yourself want to fix that next month, be better prepared. be prepared to read and nap. Be prepared to deal with your feelings instead of eat them. Be prepared to be aware.

Breathing in i know i am breathing in
breathing out i know i am breathing out

am i aware?

watch yourself ask am i aware? ok so the point is to stay in meditation... everything becomes meditation. the mind doesn't want everything to slow down to meditative pace. the mind wants fast paced, rushing. watch yourself remember how the rushing took you out last week. stay as you are. stay in the meditation. stay in the meditation. stay in the meditation.

am i aware? i know i am in there. i know i can surrender. i know i can see through the thought stream. i know i can conquer. i know i can stay as i am. i know who i am. i know i am pure awareness.

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

watch yourself notice the rushing. watch yourself notice all the little things you have to take care of. watch yourself notice it's the mind not trusting the process of life. it's all the mind clouding and distracting. watch yourself breathe in and feel a little better. watch yourself breathe out and just sit here, staring, looking for the awareness. i know that which i seek is where i am seeking from. am i aware?

am i aware? yes i am aware. it's so slow. i need to slow down to the pace of the body, the pace of awareness. awareness is just present, timeless. that's why it feels so slow. there is no time here. time is stopped here. time does not exist here. stay as i am. stay as i am.

am i aware? i am.

am i aware? yes i am aware.
am i aware? yes I am aware.
i don't mind.

Jessica Mullen

I Don’t Mind

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself be struck by the epiphany, I don't mind. Watch yourself notice the recognition: I have been minding quite a bit! Watch yourself realize how much you really have been minding: your appetite, how your clothes fit, what you eat, cleaning up cat shit, having to work, having to work out, shifting energy levels. You've been minding it all! You've been minding everything! Family emails, trip anxiety. Whether or not you interact with certain people. You've been minding it all!

Today: I DON'T MIND!

Watch yourself realize that's what kratom did for you: it helped you NOT MIND. It helped you not mind working out. It helped you not mind being hungry. It helped you not mind bitchwork. It helped you not mind dramatic relationships. It helped you not mind not drinking. It helped you not mind cleaning up messes. It helped you not mind socializing. It helped you not mind saying yes to whatever. It helped you not mind all the little annoyances and grievances. It helped you not mind cooking. It helped you not mind not sleeping enough.

But since being off the kratom: I mind having to cook. I mind cleaning up messes. I mind feeling hungry. I mind having to work out. I mind feeling tired. I mind having low energy. I mind feeling sad.

ALl this minding! That's all it's been! THe kratom helped me not mind, and without it I've been minding everything!

Well today that is all changing. I don't mind.

I don't mind the way my clothes fit.
I don't mind feeling hungry. I don't mind having to work out. I don't mind linty crying like a baby. I don't mind having the clean up her messes. I don't mind not getting what i want. I don't mind feeling insecure. I don't mind. Because it all passes! It's all so temporary! It's all coming and going!

I don't mind waking up too early. I don't mind linty shitting outside her box. I don't mind having a ravenous day once or twice a month. I don't mind not having kratom. I don't mind being sober. I don't mind getting older. I don't mind feeling like shit. I don't mind feeling regret. I don't mind having to cook tonight.

I don't mind linty getting cat litter everywhere. I don't mind having client work. I don't mind that i haven't heard back about that app yet. I don't mind feeling annoyed. And I've been feeling so annoyed because I have been MINDING!

I don't mind my morning time getting cut short. I don't mind sneezing. I don't mind listening to the buses drive by. I don't mind all that it took to get here to this much needed epiphany.

All these addiction issues are all because I MINDED. I minded feeling bad. I minded feeling emotions. I minded feeling overwhelmed. I minded having to do. I minded having to work. I minded having to work out. I minded having to maintain my body.

ALl of this minding! No more! I don't mind anything anymore! I don't mind! I don't mind!

Finally a knuckle tattoo! DONT MIND
DONT MIND
DONT MIND
DONT MIND

I Don't mind! I don't mind. I don't mind that i have to clean up the shit next. I don't mind that the incense came crushed. I don't mind that i just ordered 135 tootsie pops. I don't. mind that i gained 8 pounds since jan 2020. i don't mind that my size 5 shorts are tight. i don't mind that i feel unsuccessful. i don't mind that i feel like a loser. I don't mind! It's total trip mindset! You can't mind anything while tripping or you'll suffer greatly!

I guess that's what saying yes to what is is all about... not minding. Or choosing love, then you're not minding. Or saying thank you, because you're not minding.

I don't mind! I don't mind! I don't mind suffering. I don't mind being human. I don't mind having a few bad days so i can have this breakthrough. I don't mind getting up early so i can write and meditate alone.

I don't mind getting distracted by emails. I don't mind having clients. i don't mind having work to do. i don't mind! when i mind, i suffer! of course. then the i is the mind instead of the pure awareness. the pure awareness doesn't mind shit! the pure awareness embraces and says yes and loves it all! THe pure awareness welcomes it all! I don't mind! When I mind, I am mind! NO MORE!

I don't mind my legs falling asleep. I don't mind not having any numbing agents because i'm finally figuring out how to do it myself! I don't mind gaining weight. I don't mind working out. I don't mind feeling a little tired.

I don't mind rude youtube comments. I don't mind getting my feelings hurt. I don't mind trolls. I don't mind resistance. I don't mind negative feelings. I mean uncomfortable feelings. I don't mind.

I don't mind not having a vehicle. I don't mind renting. I don't mind not knowing what to give. I don't mind a little obsession/crush. I don't mind a bad dream. It's all temporary! It all comes and goes!

I don't mind that i'm almost done writing and it's time to do the chores. I don't mind breathing out. I don't mind breathing in. I don't mind having to do things on a list. I don't mind having to report damaged orders. I don't mind feeling hungry. I don't mind getting older. I don't mind looking older. I don't mind being human. I don't mind being in a time space body. I don't mind feeling scared. I don't mind worrying. I don't mind!

I don't mind feeling unfocused. I don't mind that i don't mind might not always work. I don't mind the grasping and seeking and resisting. I don't mind feeling low energy. I don't mind thinking about the future. I don't mind feeling overwhelmed. I don't mind feeling hungry. I don't mind at all!

Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – Tune to the Channel of Receiving


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Tune to the Channel of Receiving (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Welcome back to the right place and the right time! You’re doing everything right. Let yourself relax into this moment, and enjoy life exactly the way it is.

Breathe in and say yes to what is.
Breathe out and let go of your worries.

Let go of your thoughts. Bring your attention back to this moment. Remember who you really are: pure awareness.

Breathe in and let what you want come to you today.
Breathe out and say thank you.

Always remember that thank you is the most powerful phrase you can utter. It is the most effective prayer. Gratitude in advance is so effective, so quick. Just let yourself ease into that feeling of gratitude and forget about all the rest.

Breathe in and say thank you.
Breathe out and say thank you.

You don’t have to think about things to be grateful for, but if that helps, go for it—but what really matters is the feeling of gratitude. And you can always pull up that one memory when you were just so grateful to get what you wanted. Get into that feeling, right now!

Breathe in and say thank you!
Breathe out and say thank you!

Thank you! Thank you! Sometimes gratitude might bring up feelings of being undeserving, or unworthy. And to those feelings, you can say, thank you. Thank you, thank you! To all of life today, say thank you. And then you’ll see why it’s there and why it’s a gift for you and it’s not something happening TO you.

Breathing in thank you.
Breathing out thank you. Thank you!

Let yourself feel that excitement, that surge of energy and appreciation for life the way it is! When you get something you really want, or when you’re surprised with something you didn’t even know you really wanted—

Breathe in and say thank you, wow, thank you!
Breathe out and stay in that feeling.

Thank you! Thank you!

Now who are you thanking? It’s consciousness, or god, or whatever higher power you want to call it. Your higher self, infinite intelligence, whatever you want to call it. You’re thanking that thing that put you here. And when you feel that feeling of gratitude in your heart, you tune to the channel of receiving! That’s all of you have to do! Just say thank you and you’re tuned to receive.

Breathe in and feel so relieved! You’re tuned!
Breathe out and keep thank you on repeat in your mind today.

Thank you! Thank you! It really works. It really will bring what you want to you, but it doesn’t matter what you receive as a result, because you already feel like life is on your side. You already feel safe. You already feel content with what you have. Because you already feel gratitude just for existing. Thank you for this moment.

Breathe in and say thank you!
Breathe out and get ready to receive!

Jessica Mullen

Am I Aware?

Jessica Mullen
I am aware. I am aware of standing here after deliberating over an email for 20 minutes. I am aware of the breeze on my legs. I am aware that i feel like i need to start cleaning up these cat messes asap. I am aware of a little case of the lack mindset. I am aware of this breath out. I am aware of this breath in. I am aware of my obsessive thoughts. I am aware of the pain in my neck. I am aware of feeling a tiny bit of regret but not really. I am aware i want to shower today. I am aware my neck is achy.

I am aware of my mind scheming. I am aware of the sound of the neighbor sweeping. I am aware of car doors slamming. I am aware of the quiet of the morning. I am aware of how much I love this time to write. I am aware of this deep breath in. I am aware of this deep breath out. I am aware of feeling pretty good today even though I got up too early again.

I am aware of the smell. I am aware of my harddrive flashing. I am aware of going in the other room to spray some spray in preparation of this chore. I am aware of wanting to rush to finish this now. I am aware of car doors slamming.

I am aware of feeling hungry. I am aware of wanting more coffee. I am aware of feeling fit in my body. I am aware of the cycle that is starting again today. I am aware of this 17th day of my cycle. I am aware of the concept of weekend. I am aware of feeling excited to listen to the rest of this hamilton PE podcast.

I am aware of breathing out. I am aware of feeling achy. I am aware of remembering i took advil. I am aware of wanting more coffee. I am aware of breathing in. I am aware of wanting a different prompt!

I am saying yes to what is. Yes I am feeling achy. Yes i am kind of dreading cleaning up this mess. Yes i am frustrated with my cat. Yes i am embarrassed by her haha. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I am feeling attachment. Yes I am frustrated with my obsessive mind. Yes i just want to be aware.

I am aware of the obsession. I am aware of the mind scheming all the time! I am aware of my mind trying to force and make things happen. I am aware of wanting to tell myself, stop thinking about that! you're ruining it!!

I am aware of wanting a massage! I am aware of wanting my neck and feet rubbed. I am aware of how much we worked out this week. I am aware of this breath out. I am aware of this quiet time. I am aware of how happy i am we get to eat breakfast on the porch. I am aware of wanting to force and try. I am aware of wanting to give for an excuse to scheme. I am aware of the obsession.

I am aware of this breath in. I am aware of wishing the messes would clean themselves. i am aware of feeling excited about this day. I am aware of this breath out. I am aware of feeling excited to see my friends. I am aware of wanting to give. I am aware of being here now. I am aware of wanting to be aware all day. I am aware of that thought out of the present. I am aware of wanting to get back into hemisync. I am aware of craving kratom.

I am aware of wanting to see more people. I am aware of wanting to hang out with friends. I am aware of wanting to go back to last week's extreme friendliness. i am aware of breathing out. i am aware of rushing this. I am aware of thinking about that application. I am aware of needing to get my videos from K's computer.

I am aware of how short my list is! Thank the lort! I am aware of breathing out. I am aware of breathing in. I am aware of wanting attention and good news. I am aware of grasping and seeking. I am aware that i need to turn my awareness back in on itself.

Am I aware?

I am aware of wanting connection. I am aware that i keep forgetting it's my staying as i am that attracts the manifestations, not the mind striving!!

I am aware that the unconditional love comes with the pure awareness. i am aware of remembering to stay as i am, stay as awareness. I am aware. I am aware. Am I aware? I am aware.

I am aware of remembering i need to take a photo for this. i am aware of wanting to lose weight for photographic purposes. i am aware of wanting to take pictures with other people. i am aware of the chore time drawing closer. i am aware of the mind resisting. i am aware of telling myself to be aware.

Breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra

braething in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
breathing out i activate my throat chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out i activate my heart chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra
braething out i activate my root chakra

thank you for the pure awareness i am! thank you for helping me stay as i am! thank you for helping me remember: I AM AWARE!

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Jessica Mullen

Daily Meditation – You Know You Are Here!


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You Know You Are Here! (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Breathe in and raise your vibration!
Breathe out and release your resistance!

Relax your body. Let yourself enjoy the next few minutes. There’s no need to worry about what you’ve produced or accomplished in this life. All that matters is that you are here.

Breathe in and be kind to yourself today.
Breathe out and celebrate how far you’ve come!

Even if it feels like you have so far to go! Of course the journey is the destination, but really, you have come so far!

Breathe in and keep slowing down.
Breathe out and keep relaxing your body.

It’s the right time and the right place, and you’re doing everything right. Let yourself relax. Let yourself step outside of the world of normal things, just for a few minutes. Take the time to remember who you really are, and why you’re really here.

Breathe in and lighten up! It’s not serious!
Breathe out and say fuck it!

Even if you’re judging yourself, even if you wish things were different, you can still feel good right here, right now. You can come back to center. You can step outside of your mind, into the present moment, where everything is fun and there’s nothing to worry about.

Breathe in and stand up to your thoughts today.
Breathe out and just let yourself exist. No need to produce. No need to accomplish. No need to strive.

Breathe in and just be here.
Breathe out and let your insides untwist.

Let your body relax. Let your mind relax.

Breathe in and be easy on yourself today!
Breathe out and really take a moment to be kind to yourself.

You deserve love. You deserve kindness. You deserve respect. And you deserve to get what you want.

Breathe in and keep slowing down.
Breathe out and just be here.

Your mind wants to resist the slowing down. Your mind wants to resist being nice to you. Because once you step outside of your mind, once you see through the thought stream, you return to your natural state of joy and contentment and love. And that is where the miracles happen. When you feel better, when you feel your feelings and let them go and decide to just be present, just remember who you are for a minutes—when you make that choice, the universe conspires in your favor. Molecules rearrange themselves in reality. And what you want comes to you! But you have to take the first step. You have to make the choice to feel good before anything changes. You have to make the choice to be here now. To take the leap and trust that the net will appear.

Breathe in and take the leap!
Breathe out and trust in the magick life!

The world, capitalism, these things—they tie up our minds and we get obsessed and hyper-focused on what we’ve achieved and accomplished and what we’re striving for next. But that’s not the meaning of life. Striving is not the meaning of life. The meaning of life is just to exist, it’s just to be here. Do plants think about striving? Do plants think about what they’re achieving? What they’re producing? Whether they’re going to fruit? Probably not. They just exist. And they just enjoy existing.

Breathe in and decide to enjoy existing today.
Breathe out and trust the process of life!

It works for the plants and the animals, it can work for you too! Now to practice presence today, I have a new phrase that may help you snap into presence and get out of your mind!

Breathe in and say, “I know I am here!”
Breathe out and feel what it feel likes when you say, “I know I am here.”

That first knowing that you ARE, that you exist—the knowledge that you have that you are here—that’s presence. That’s your presence. Thats how you feel it. Thats how you feel your sense of being. Just say, “I know I am here! I know I am here.” That’s all you have to do to be present. That’s all you have to do today. Just know you are here. Be in your body. Observe what’s around you. Know that you are here. You are here! You know you are here!

Breathe in and feel relieved! You know you’re here!
Breathe out and rest in that knowing!

You know how practicing the feeling creates? You know how when you feel a certain way, that’s what draws things that feel like that to you? Knowing that you’re here, that’s how you feel the feeling of knowing on purpose. And when you rest in a state of knowing, what you want comes to you. Life works out for you. The molecules rearrange for you. And none of this matters because you know you’re here. And that’s enough! And your mind is not going to stop talking, but you don’t have to listen to it. You can just know that you are here. You can relax into the knowing.

Breathe in and know you are here!
Breathe out and say it: I know I am here!

Rest in that knowledge that you are here today! And that knowing—that feeling that you have when you pay attention to your sense of being—that feeling generates miracles. And it makes you a match to having the best day of your life!

Breathe in and say, “I know I am here!”
Breathe out and rest in that knowing. You know you are here! And that’s all you have to know!

Jessica Mullen

Aware

Jessica Mullen
I am aware. I am aware of awareness. I am witnessing the witness. I am aware. I am staying as I am. I am the watcher. I am letting go of all concepts and identification. I am aware.

I am aware of standing at my desk. I am aware of the deep dream running in the back ground. I am aware of the smudge on my trackpad, oh wait it's just fuzz. I AM Aware of the desire to listen to my grungie playlist. I am aware of hte time. I am aware of typos. I am aware of the sound of the garbage truck. I am aware of linty's footsteps. I am aware of letting go of trying to control her. I am aware of the nervousness in my stomach. I am awawre of the breath out. I am awre of the typos. I am aware of the feeling of my fingertips. I am awre of the desire to play guitar before i lose my callouses again. I am aware of this breath out.

I am aware of the desire to not mind my own business. I am aware of hte desire to identify with the world. I am aware of my obsession. I am aware of the obsessiveness of the mind. I am aware of watching linty climb on a pile of blankets. I am aware of the cold water in my glass. I am aware of this day. I am aware of being distracted by linty going on my chair.

I am aware of the feeling of rushing. I am aware of the desire to smoke. I am aware of linty falling out of my chair, her nail must have gotten stuck. I am aware of the pain in my heart i feel when i imagine her feeling pain. I am aware of the pain. I am aware of closing my eyes. I am awre of hearing her whine in the other room. I am awre of the typos that keep happening because i'm not pressing the a key hard enough? i am awre of slowign down enough to see how i become unaware.

i am aware of this breath in. I am awre that awareness is slow, or at least not rushed. it just is. there is no rushing. that rushing is all from the mind. i am awre of the rushing. i am awre that i was rushing the past couple days to get my stuff done before the mania passed.

i am aware the mania has passed lol.

I am aware of the change of season in my body. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of slowing down. i am aware of needing to slow my mind down to the pace of my breath. I am aware. I am aware. I am aware. I am aware of slowing down. I am aware of slowing down to stillness. I am aware of letting it all slow down. It was slow... then i got caught up in the manifestations. Whirlwind. Attached to concepts. I am aware.

I am aware of feeling better today. I am aware of feeling rested. I am aware of wanting to rush to finish this so i can clean up the cat messes before k gets up. i am aware of the quiet of the morning. i am aware this is my favorite time of day. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of the feeling of gratitude for this quiet time. i am aware of the rushing. i am aware of the feeling in my limbs.

i am aware of the dust on my screen. i am aware of hearing sounds upstairs.

I am aware of the garbage truck getting to our street. I am awre of wanting more coffee. I am aware of standing here crooked. I am awre of the typing fingers. I am awre of the typos i can't stop making. i am aware of remembering my dream about beliefs... i am aware of the breeze on my leg.

i am aware of listening to the cat outside cry. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of this breath out. i am aware of the striving to stay calm and centered. i am awre of hte tring. i am awre of skipping all these ckeys and i am wondering if it is my keyboard.

i am aware of the garbage truck sounds. i am aware of the bird sounds. i am aware of feeling thirsty. i am aware of stanidng up straighter. i am aware of the birds calling. i am aware of the colors and feeling of it getting warmer in here.

i am aware of this day. i am aware of where i am standing. i am aware of rushing. i am aware of wanting to farmers market. i am aware of kelly sayign awww. i am aware of this moment. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of the microwave opening and closing.

i am aware of hte 841 word count. i am awre of feeling calm but rushed. i am aware of this breath out. i am aware of feeling a little too warm. i am aware of wearing a turtle neck in july. i am aware of telling myself to focus. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of this moment. i am aware of this time. i am aware of this point in life. i am aware of this moment. i am aware of my thoughts and emotions and sensations and observations. i am aware of my mind.

i am awre of my desires. i am aware of the sounds. i am aware. i am staying as i am. i am aware. i am staying as i am. i am aware. i am staying as i am..

i am aware. i am staying as i am.

i am also aware of my to do list

  1. Post vid
  2. HOG/date
  3. New BMJ
  4. medicaid form
  5. Finish dreaming covers
  6. Wedding gift
  7. Zine interior page
  8. Jansport return
Jessica Mullen

What is true of the whole is true of…

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself sit at your desk. WAtch yourself not want to put the standing desk together bc you probably won't use it later after class. Watch yourself enjoy the cloudy early morning. WAtch yourself feel like you got up to early but you can't help what your body wants. Watch yourself feel a little anxious in the tummy. WAtch yourself wonder if you should email the school. Watch yourself remind yourself you never have to wonder.

Watch yourself remind yourself, "I am aware."

  1. Pump
  2. Record
  3. Fun Show
  4. Vote
  5. Molina coups
  6. Dream covers
  7. K computer shop
  8. Wedding gift
  9. Zine interior page
  10. Jansport return

I am aware of tension in my back. I am aware of a cool breeze even though the door is closed. I am aware of the birds calling. I am aware of shifting around in my chair trying to get comfortable. I am aware of distant traffic sounds. I am aware that it feels like fall but it's still july.

i am aware of the mind seeking and seeking and seeking. I am aware of feeling focused. I am aware of the back to school feeling which i love SO FUCKING MUCH. i am aware of how this is the best time of year, leo season to halloween. i am aware of feeling creative and focused. i am aware of feeling good in my body even if i'm a little tired. i am aware of the chores i still have to do.

i am aware of the alien activity. i am aware of feeling like i still need to write my mom back. i am aware of feeling a little overwhelmed. i am aware of tightening my abs. I am aware that it's body pump day and i have to psych myself up for this workout. I am aware of wishing my body would sleep a little longer in the morning or fall asleep easier. I am aware of this weird energy that's been keeping me from sleeping a lot.

I am aware of the rain starting now. I am aware of the desire to check the bank accounts. I am aware of tension in my upper back and hip flexor. i am aware of a desire to get a new kneeling chair. i am aware of breathing in. i am awre of anxiety.

I am aware of remembering my dream, tiny bits of it anyway. i am aware of feeling a little fuzzy and groggy. i am aware of my computer telling me to back up. i am aware of thinking about what happens if i am chosen.

i am aware of checking my email and feeling like i really need to write that person back. i am aware of my nervousness about what's being asked of me. i am aware that i know i will say yes so i might as well write back and say yes.

i am aware of wanting to DO! I am aware of this period of energy! I am aware of feeling excited about life. I am aware of the power of this crush to get me up and acting, doing, moving, leaving. I am aware of the newfound confidence. i am aware of the stillness of the morning. i am aware of thinking about other people. i am aware of my fingers on the keyboard.

i am aware of my stomach gurgling. i am aware of the fruit in the fridge we need to eat. i am aware of pineapple, grapes, strawberries. I am aware of apples. i am aware of feeling sneezy again. i am aware of the chickens squaking from the house behind us.

i am aware of the desire to bottle up this environment and hope it doesn't ever change. i am aware of my desire to spend time with a person. i am aware of how powerful my dream was in changing my attitude and energy. i am aware of wanting to give! i am aware of wanting to share and invite and welcome! I am aware of my desire to reciprocate!

I am loving what is. i am LOVING the birds calling outside my window. crows? idk. i don't think so. something smaller. i am aware of really liking birds. i am aware of a memory of a cardinal in galesburg. i am aware of being relieved i'm not addicted to any drug because it makes traveling way easier. i am aware of feeling excited about life.

i am loving forgetting my prompt and the "i am aware" is naturally there. I am loving that i feel good in my body. i am loving that we get to work out. i am loving that life is taking care of me. i am loving feeling energized and inspired. i am loving feeling good about life. i am loving feeling good about. how i spend my time. i am loving feeling light and strong. i am loving the summer so much i want to bottle it up and keep it this way forever. i am loving feeling connected to the people here.

i am loving feeling connected. i am loving feeling interested in other people's lives. i am loving feeling inspired by my friends. i am loving the new opportunities in my life. i am loving feeling excited about life. i am loving feeling good about where i am. i am loving living in cleveland. i am loving feeling focused and determined about my own school. i am loving feeling light and free. i am loving feeling good about this day!

breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra

braething in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
breathing out i activate my throat chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out i activate my heart chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra
breathing out i activate my root chakra

THANK YOU FOR THE serendipity, the coincidence, the synchronicity, the magick life, the ability to STAY AS I AM and let the flow live me!