Plug The God-Sized Hole (transcript)
Breathe in and raise your vibration.
Breathe out and release your resistance.

Breathe in and raise your vibration.
Breathe out and release your resistance.

Relax your body.

Breathe in and notice what you’re seeking for.
Breathe out and notice what it is you want.

I want attention, I wanna feel loved. I wanna feel like my presence is wanted. Ugh, and every time I feel like I want my presence to be wanted, I know that my presence is wanted, and that’s all I have to do is practice the presence of god. It’s the same answer every time.

Breathe in and practice the presence of god.
Breathe out and do that in a few different ways.

Am I aware? Who am I? Am I having the experience of simply being?

Breathe in and remember the portal I am.
Breathe out and notice if you have a bad attitude about this practicing the presence of god.

I don’t wanna practice the presence of god, I want attention. I want love. And I feel like it’s being held away from me. I feel like it’s being withheld. It feels like attention and love are lacking, even though I know the only thing missing is god. The mind doesn’t trust that.

Breathe in and ask yourself, am I aware?
Breathe out and notice, yes, I am aware.

When I am aware, I have no problems. But my mind is agitated, so it’s not at peace. And my mind is noticing lack, so it’s not happy. And my mind is really noticing separation, and so I don’t feel love. And I’m having a hard time trusting the holy question, am I aware? It’s not working.

Breathe in and stand up to your thoughts.
Breathe out and do that by saying thank you.

Thank you for the contrast that’s making me create what I want. Thank you for the lack of attention and love so that I’m forced to go within and practice the presence of god. Thank you for those circumstances that make me take my power back. Oh, I’m so tired of taking my power back. So tired of losing my power.

Breathe in and take your power back.
Breathe out and shut that hole, plug the hole, plug the god-sized hole.

Even if you’ve got the love and attention you wanted, it wouldn’t be enough and you’d still find a problem.

Breathe in and plug the god-sized hole today.
Breathe out and do that by practicing the presence of god.

Then you’re as big as god and there is no more hole.

Breathing in am I having the experience of simply being?Breathing out, I guess.

Breathe in and acknowledge where you are.
Breathe out and just welcome where you are.

Yes, I can’t get there. Yes, I can’t let go of my need. Yes, I can’t let go of the seeking.

Breathe in and surrender to the seeking.
Breathe out and surrender to the seeking.

Yes, I am seeking for love and affection and validation outside of me. And I don’t feel like I can get it myself.

Breathe in and try to take your power back.
Breathe out and maybe try, Jessica, I love and accept you exactly the way you are.

I miss my fucking parents. I miss my mom, I miss my dad. I miss comfort in this world that isn’t made up in some intangible god concept. Can I get something real?

Breathe in and welcome the pain.
Breathe out and welcome the pain.

Who am I who is suffering? Who am I who is so sad? Who am I who’s seeking so hard for love?

Breathe in and even if you can’t get it from yourself, look for it.
Breathe out and acknowledge that you’ve gotten it from yourself before and you can do it again.

Jessica, I love and accept you exactly the way you are. I love and accept you exactly the way you are. I love and accept you exactly the way you are.

Breathe in and get some space from the thoughts.
Breathe out. Get some space from the thoughts.

When nothing else is working, you can still flip the switch with thank you. Get a breath, trust it’s in your favor and know it’ll be revealed soon why the pain was in your favor. You’ll get your power back even if it’s not instant.

Breathe in and say thank you for the contrast.
Breathe out and say thank you and really feel it.

Thank you. I don’t know why it’s in my favor, but I do know that it is. I know from life experience it is. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.