yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing out. yes i am sitting here. yes i am breathing out. yes i am overwhelmed. yes i am breathing out. yes i am hungry. yes i am wondering what my next meal will be. yes i am breathing out. yes i feel a pain in my side. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am wondering how best to spend my time. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i am wondering what will happen. yes i want to trust it's all happening in my favor. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes my body is sore. yes i am wondering what we're going to eat. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i am sitting in this chair wondering what will happen. yes i am feeling irritable and even more irritated that i feel irritable. yes i am trying to remember i am not the i.

the i feels irritable. the i feels overwhelmed. the i feels sore. the i is wondering what will happen. the i is annoyed. the i is annoyed. the i is annoyed because the i thinks there is nothing to look forward to. the i is frustrated. the i is overwhelmed and disgusted. the i wants to know what will feel better. the i is wondering what will feel better. the i wants more coffee. the i wants to be more alert and ready for anything the i wants to feel good and intrigued and curious. the i is sick of february. the i is worried about money. the i is worried about paying the bills and rent. the i is worried about not feeling passion or interest.

the i is breathing in. the i is breathing out.
i am effortless choiceless pure awareness

the real i is effortless choiceless pure awareness. the real i is effortless choiceless pure awareness.

the i is worried about what other people think. the i is worried about being too pushy or involved. the i is worrying. the i is concerned with what other people think. the i is concerned with not imposing. not being an imposition. the i is worried about being too much. the i is worried about being over the top. too pushy. too much. the i is worried it is too much. the i is worried is is too much.

the i has sore arms. the i has a sore back. the i wants new music to listen to. the i wants to complain. the i thinks nothing will make it feel better. the i is wondering if it gets to drink more coffee before we go. the i is wondering what will happen. the i is wondering if it will make a mistake or be humiliated. the i is wondering what the fuck. the i is concerned. the i is worried. the i is fearful. the i is hungry. the i wants to be comforted. the i wants pleasure and comfort. the i wants to feel stable. the i wants to feel good.

the i is checking emails and bills and still thinking about more coffee. the i is breathing in. the i is breathing out. the i is listening to bad bunny and wishing there was more. the i feels there is not enough.

the real i is effortless, choiceless pure awareness. effortless, choiceless, pure awareness.

the i just wants to be comforted. the i wants to feel better and not feel so depressed. the i feels depressed and doesn't even know why. the i wants to be high. the i wants to escape. the i wants to black out.

the i is breathing out. the i is breathing in. the i is sitting here. the i is sitting here. the i is sitting here wondering if it did the right thing. wondering if it did the right thing. wondering if it did the right thing.

the i is remembering to say thank you because it's all happening in its favor. the i is wondering what it will do today. the i is wondering how it will prove its worth today. the i is wondering how it will make money today. the i is wondering how it will have a good idea when it feels so unwelcome. the i feels unwelcome. the i feels unwelcome. the i feels unwelcome. the i feels unwelcome. the i feels unwelcome and crabby. the i feels unwelcome and crabby. the i wants lunch meat and there isn't any more. the i feels tired and depressed. the i feels empty and hollow. the i feels empty. the i wants to transcend.

the i is sitting here.

to whom do all these thoughts come? they come to me. who is me? i am.
who am i? who am i?
who am i who is noticing these thoughts? who am i who thinks this is hard? who am i who can't stop thinking? who am i who is having trouble? the trouble is coming to who? to who is the trouble coming?
it's coming to me. who is me?
who am i?

who am i?
who am i?
who am I?
who am i ?
who am I?

i am pure choiceless effortless awareness
pure awareness
effortless choiceless pure awareness
effortless choiceless pure awareness
effortless choiceless pure awareness

it's just conditioning playing out
but the i feels so involved in it today
the i just wants to be alone
to disappear

i
am

who am i?
i am

am i aware?
yes i am aware
i am aware of the presence of god
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you