i know writing always works. yes i know writing always works. yes i feel weird. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i feel defeated. yes i feel weird. yes i am sitting in this chair weird. yes i am feeling tired or like i need more coffee. yes i am sitting here. yes i am braething in. yes it is still snowing. yes i am frustrated. yes i am feeling played. yes i am sad and longing and seeking. yes i am forgetting i am the source. yes i know i need to be the source...

REMEMBER IT IS ALL IN YOUR FAVOR, EVERYTHING IS YOUR FRIEND, AND YOU ARE THE SOURCE.

yes i am feeling spent and defeated. yes i am feeling rejected and discarded. yes i am embarrassed i did it to myself again! yes i am feeling weird.

yes i am annoyed. yes i am feeling annoyed. yes i am feeling down. yes i am feeling like crying. yes i am bothered. yes i am letting the world affect me yes i am letting the world affect me yes i am letting the world affect me instead of affecting the world

ok so i want to affect the world instead of the world affecting me

yes i feel powerless against this bad atttitude
yes i have a bad attitude and im irritable and i'm irritated that i'm irritable

yes i am annoyed by everything for no reason! yes i am annoyed. yes i am sickened by the way i feel. yes i feel pissed and sick. yes i am breathing in. yes i am trying to turn the boat. yes i want to turn the boat. yes i am mad at myself for getting attached and eating my feelings and letting something outside me affect my mood

yes i am disappointed i let it happen AGAIN yes i am disappointed yes i am disappointed yes i am disappointed yes i just want to get back to being aware of being aware yes i am disappointed yes i am frustrated yes i am annoyed yes i am having a hard time turning the boat! i am so annoyed!

i know it's all in my favor but i'm so annoyed! because i am lazy thinking yes i am lazy thinking yes i am being a lazy thinker yes i am being a lazy thinker yes i am being lazy with my attention i need to turn it back around

yes i am dragging my feet finishing this yes i feel funky yes i am wondering what to do next yes i am feeling annoyed and discarded, i feel like trash lol ok that explains it i feel like trash

i want to feel like treasure i guess??

my treasure, your treasure
i want to be tu tesoro

ok
i know what i want at least
feel like your treasure
feel like my treasure

let me find the fucking treasure... ok where did i live it
ah yes, i am right here.
yes i am here. yes i am here. this knowledge is the treasure they say.
this is the treasure. i am the treasure. the pure awareness is the treasure.

i am disconnecting from thinking my value is determined by others' opinions of me

i am the treasure

oh of course
i am is the treasure
ok
i can do this

i am the treasure
i am is the treasure
the treasure is that i am
the treasure is that i exist
the treasure is that i am here
the treasure is i am
the treasure is i am

i am
i exist
i am aware
i am here
i

who am i
i am
i exist
i am aware
i am here
i

i am is suppoosed to be it. i am is it. ok i am is the treasure. the treasure i am. the treasure i am. i am the treasure. wow.

wouldn't it be nice to live this epiphany today? Wouldn't it be nice to feel the knowing? wouldn't it be nice to feel the relief of knowing i am?
i am the treasure i know it is true but i want to feel it i want to know it physically viscerally

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me see the treasure i am. thank you for helping me see the treasure i am. thank you for helping me see the treasure i am. thank you for helping me know that I AM is the treasure. thank you for helping me see i am the treasure. i am the treasure. i can do this. i am the treasure. i am the treasure. i am the source!!

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you for helping me remember i am the source thank you for helping me stay sober. thank you for the relief. thank you for the magick. thank you for the good news. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the magick life! thank you god for replacing me with you!

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the relief. thank you for the knowing i am the treasure. i am the treasure. the treasure is i am.
the treasure is i am!
that's really all there is to say.

i am.
i exist.
yes i am here.
i am.
thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you! thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you !