the boat is turned

Jessica Mullen

the boat is turned

Jessica Mullen
watch yourself sit here feeling yucky. watch yourself sit here listening to the buddies and trying to choose an affirmation or something to get you through the day.
thank you?
thank you god for replacing me with you?
am i aware?
i am here?
trust?
I?
I i i i i i i

watch yourself want to read. watch yourself want to do anything but what you're supposed to be doing. watch yourself miss m. watch yourself worry. watch yourself want to have a good day. watch yourself pray for a good day. watch yourself pray you start acting right. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself have a headache. watch yourself miss m. watch yourself breathe in.

watch yourself feel uncomfortable. watch yourself want to feel better. watch yourself notice how you lost your balance/dropped the ball. watch yourself want to feel better. watch yourself want to feel good. watch yourself want to know what to give and do. watch yourself want to get it over with. watch yourself want to feel better.

watch yourself remind yourself to say yes to what is

yes i feel shame. yes i feel regret. yes i feel anxious. yes i am wondering if i made the right choice. yes i am noticing a headache coming. yes i am wondering what will happen. yes i want to give. yes i want to feel rich and abundant. yes i want to feel better. yes i want to be aware that i am aware. yes i want to step away from the thoughts making me suffer.

yes i am annoyed with myself. yes i want to have a good day. yes i want to have a good attitude. yes i want to make good work. yes i want to make fun shows and printables and cook good meals for d. yes i feel overwhelmed and don't know where to direct my energy. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i have a headache. yes i want to feel better.

yes i want to know where to direct my energy. yes i want to know what to do. am i aware? am i aware? am i aware?

yes i am aware.
i am here. i am here. i am here. i am here.
i. i. i. i. i. i.

i am feeling for my sense of being. i am noticing the thoughts passing. i am wondering. i am feeling uncertain. i want to feel better. i want to feel good. i want to do the right thing. i want to trust the process of life. i want to know it's all happening in my favor.

to whom are these thoughts arising?
to whom are these thoughts arising?

am i aware?
i am here. i am here. i i i i i i i i i .
what is the source of i?

yes.
thank you.
am i aware?
i am here.
what is the source of i?
to whom are these thoughts arising?
i i i i i i i .
who am i?
who whom are these thoughts arising?
what is the source of i?
i i i i i i i .
thank GOD
thank you god for replacing me with you. thank GOD.
thank god!

yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am trying to focus. yes i am trying to choose my singular focus. yes i feel scattered and disconnected. yes i want to feel good about myself and life again. yes i want to feel motivated and inspired and secure. yes i want to have a good day. yes i want to have fun. yes i want to feel good. yes i want to feel patient. yes i want to feel good about life. yes i want to enjoy life.

wouldn't it be nice to have the best day ever? wouldn't it be nice to get the perfect things at the store? wouldn't it be nice to help and give? wouldn't it be nice to know what to do and where to put my energy? Wouldn't it be nice to stabilize as i am?

wouldn't it be nice to trust the timing? Wouldn't it be nice to feel good in my body? wouldn't it be nice to surrender? Wouldn't it be nice to identify as the i behind the thoughts? wouldn't it be nice to feel good? Wouldn't it be nice to feel happy? wouldn't it be nice to feel secure? wouldn't it be nice to surrender the struggle? Wouldn't it be nice to enjoy being? Wouldn't it be nice to identify as the i? wouldn't it be nice to feel light and free? Wouldn't it be nice to feel relieved?

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the miracles and magick life. thank you for the love and connection. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me identify as the i behind the thoughts. thank you for helping me stabilize as i am. thank you for helping me help. thank you for making me a channel of your love. thank you for making me a channel of your peace .thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. am i aware? yes i am aware i am here.

i am here. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the fresh start and new beginning. thank you for the singular focus on presence .thank you for the presence of god. thank you god for helping me practice the presence of god. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

am i aware?
i am here.
thank god.
thank you god for replacing me with you.
am i aware?
yes i am here.
i am here. i am here. i am here.
thank you. thank you. thank you! thank you! the boat is turned! thank you!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.

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