you are the source

Jessica Mullen

you are the source

Jessica Mullen
watch yourself sit here craving, wanting. watch yourself worry. watch yourself seek and stretch your attention across the country. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breathe out and feel anxious. watch yourself breathe in and feel anxious. watch yourself sit here feeling tired and anxious and seeking.

watch yourself sit here craving and wanting and about to cry from seeking. watch yourself want it too bad. watch yourself be mad you desire so strong. watch yourself breathe in and want. watch yourself breathe out and feel lack. watch yourself tell yourself YOU ARE THE SOURCE

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

watch yourself feel hungry. watch yourself like the feeling of typing. watch yourself feel relieved to be writing finally. watch yourself want to relax but that's not coming any time soon.

watch yourself crave and seek and want. watch yourself want and want and want. watch yourself tell yourself to watch the i, what is the source of i?

i am craving i am seeking i am wanting i am feeling incomplete i am wanting i am seeking i am feeling lack i am noticing lack i am wanting i am seeking i am craving i am dissatisfied

i am going with every i thought identifying with every i thought

i am watching the i thought i want to know the source of the i thought i am seeking and craving and seeking and craving and seeking and craving

i am feeling the compulsion to tab away to check other people's business i am seeking and craving and feeling so desperate for attention and love

i am seeking and craving and trying to watch the i i am impatient and craving and seeking i am wanting and wanting and wanting i am disappointed and sad and craving i want it too bad

i am sad and i am lonely and i am wanting someone else to be my source i am scared and lonely and want someone else to fill me up i am so sad and scared i am watching the i what is this i thought that keeps coming
i want root beer

i am seeking and craving
i am seeking and craving

i am wanting someone else to make me feel good i am feeling lack and lonely i am feeling incomplete and projecting

i am calling someone else the source when i know i am the source but i am having a hard time being the source because mind is seeking and looking and seeking and looking

i feel so lonely and overlooked, forgotten
i feel forgotten
i feel forgotten
i feel forgotten
i feel forgotten
i feel discarded cast aside
lonely forgotten
i feel forgotten
i want to feel remembered
i want god to remember me

god please remember me today
god please remember me today
thank you god for remembering me today
thank you god for remembering me today
thank you god for remembering me today
thank you god for remembering me today

it hurts it hurts it hurts

watch yourself feel impatient and forgotten
watch yourself feel tired and hungry
watch yourself seek and crave and desire
watch yourself just want to be comforted
please
just a little please
i could survive on a crumb

watch yourself sit uncomfortably and think about cutting an apple
watch yourself breathe out and let go a little
watch yourself tell yourself to remember to bring advil
at least you already have the cokes

watch yourself breathe out and tell yourself to sit better
watch yourself feel forgotten
watch yourself wonder
watch yourself crave
but it's passing
oh well
oh well
whatever
the motto is whatever
oh well
i'm here what can i do
i'm here
i am here
i am here
i want to read my books
i am here
i am here
i am here i am here i am here i am here stay here and enjoy i am here

i am saying yes to what is
yes i am lonely and sad and craving and seeking and disappointed yes i am disappointed and mad i got too hooked and dependent yes i am craving and wondering why i won't use periods yes i am breathing out and wondering if we will even work out

yes i am sad
yes i am craving
yes i am wanting
yes i am trying to let go
i surrender i quit i give up i let go i surrender i quit i give up i let go i surrender i quit i give up i let go

i notice my disappointment
and chastise myself for expecting something to make me feel better
why wait for something outside of me to be my reason
when i allegedly have god right here

thank you god
thank you god for replacing me with you thank you for guiding my actions i surrender i give up i reject every thought i won't take it personally i won't take it personally i won't cling or grasp i surrender i quit i give up i surrender i quit i give up
i surrender i quit i give up i surrender i quit i give up
i surrender i quit i give up i surrender i quit i give up

thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
i surrender i quit i give up i surrender i quit i give up
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you!
thank you! i know it's all happening in my favor! thank you! thank you !
thank you god for replacing me with you!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.