stabilizing as i am

Jessica Mullen

stabilizing as i am

Jessica Mullen
yes i am sitting here and my feet are already asleep. yes i am breathing out and trying to sit comfortably. yes i am hungry. yes i am breathing in and remembering a funny video. yes i am listening to the birds. yes i am thinking about the meals today. yes i am breathing out. yes i am thinking about someone else. yes i am disappointed. yes i am wanting to stay as i am and disentangle from being mixed with experience. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am frustrated about the phone. yes i am overwhelmed by the journal. yes i want to know my next step. yes i am tired. yes i want god to replace me. yes i want to surrender and give up. yes i want to enjoy life. yes i want attention and love.

yes i am wanting to meditate again because it's the only respite. yes i am breathing in. yes i still have a pain in the neck. yes i want more orders and sales and income. yes i want to distract myself by logging into various bank websites. yes i am sitting here. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am anxious. yes i am disappointed. yes i am sitting here. yes i am sitting here. yes i am angry and taking it personally. yes i am offended and in the ego because i am thinking "how dare she"

yes i am resisting what is. yes i am fighting what is. yes i want to change what is, which is not a noble pursuit. yes i want to be happy with what is. yes i want to deeply accept what is. i deeply accept what is. i surrender. i give up.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for helping me see through the illusion of the separate self. thank you for the laughter and fun. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stabilize as i am. thank you for the magick life and miracles and perfect timing. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

thank you for the relief. thank you for the success. thank you for helping me stabilize as i am. thank you god for rreplacing me with you. thank you for helping me trust it's all in my favor. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for hte magick life and miracles. thank you for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you for new clients. thank you for plenty of money. thank you for magick life. thank you for the love and connection. thank you for helping me stabilize as i am. thank you for helping me remember who i am.

thank you for the perfect timing. thank you for helping me see it's all in my favor. thank you for helping me be the source and let it come to me. thank you for helping me be the flame that the moths come to. thank you for helping me burn bright as the flame of awareness. thank you for helping me unmix with experience. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you for good news. thank you for inspiration. thank you for the good mood. thank you for the adventure and fun. thank you for plenty of money. thank you for the magick life. thank you for the love.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the flawless victory phone number transfer. thank you for hte passive income and subscribers. thank you for the youtube subs and comments and fans and fish and friends. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me make my best work. thank you for helping me stabilize as i am. thank you for the inspiration and flow. thank you for making me a channel of your love.

am i aware? when i am aware i have no problems. am i aware? i am aware of the distant sounds of traffic and the birds chirping outside the window. i am aware of the pain in my neck. am i aware? when i am aware that i am aware i have no problems.

am i aware?
i am aware of the presence of god. i am aware of the light of knowing. i am shining as the light of knowing in which this appears.

what do i want???
to stabilize as i am! to remember who i am! to stay as i am! to be my reason for feeling good! to return to my natural state! to rest as i aM! to remember who i am! to be who i am! to BE! to exist! to enjoy! to flow! to say yes and thank you and trust! to let go! to let god do it! to surrender! to stay as i am! to remember who i am! to stabilize as i am!

am i aware?
i am (without words)
am i aware?
i am
am i aware?

am i aware?
i am (without words)
i am (without words)

am i aware?
i am shining as the light of knowing in which this arises
am i aware? i am shining as the light of knowing in which this experience arises
i am without words
i am without words
am i aware?
i am aware of the presence of god
am i aware?
i am aware of the presence of god i am aware of the presence of god i am aware of the presence of god i am aware of the presence of god
thank you god for replacing me with you

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.