am i aware?

Jessica Mullen

am i aware?

Jessica Mullen
yes i am trying to start working on this journal but don't know where to start. yes i am breathing out. yes i am listening to the coffee pot click. yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i am sore. yes i am anxious. yes i am uncertain about the future. yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i am frustrated with my website. yes i want to make a new website and this new journal and oracle deck. yes i feel overwhelmed with the work i want to do and not sure how to start. yes i am waiting for k so we can start class. yes i am time mastering. yes i am anxious. yes i am annoyed. yes i am furious. yes i am disappointed. yes i am struggling. yes i am aware that i am aware. yes i am listening to the birds chirp and a dog bark. yes i am listening to a bus drive by.

yes i am sitting in this chair breathing in. yes i am anxious. yes i am wishing to be somewhere else. yes i am frustrated. yes i want peace. yes i want relief. yes i want attention. yes i want to feel good. yes i want to feel in control of my vibration. yes i want to feel good about myself. yes i want to make my best work. yes i am frustrated. yes i am wanting change. yes i am so mad! yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am disappointed. yes i feel used. yes i feel discarded. yes i feel excluded. yes i feel cast away.

thank you god for replacing me with you. what does your intuition say?
relax. trust. it's happening in your favor. trust!!!

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you for making me a channel of your love. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for getting the separate self out of the way. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

am i aware? yes i am aware that i am aware. i am aware of the presence of god. i am shining as the light of knowing in which this appears. i am shining as the light of knowing. am i aware?

am i aware? yes i am. am i aware? yes i am. i wish there were more words to go with this one but there are no words here in the placeless place.

am i aware? i am aware of observing the sounds. i am aware that i am listening for footsteps. i am aware i am longing and seeking and feel like i have something to lose.

am i aware? i am aware that i am aware. am i aware? i am aware that i am aware. am i aware? i am aware that typing stirs it up. am i aware?

this is the sacred question. am i aware? turn round on yourself. am i aware? when i am aware i have no problems, no lack, no agitation, no separation.

am i aware? i am aware of the presence of god. am i aware?

am i aware? i am aware i am thinking about someone else's problems.
am i aware? when i am aware i have no problems.

clean them up yourself life! i'm getting out of the way!

am i aware? when i am aware i have no problems. i have no lack, no agitation, no separation.

i am surrendering control. i give up. i surrender. i give up trying to control my reality. i give up trying to control myself and others. i am aware. i am aware of awareness. i am aware that i am aware. that is it and that is all.

am i aware?
i surrender
am i aware? yes i am aware of the presence of god. i am the presence of god. am i aware? yes i am aware of anxious thoughts pressing me to get things done, you gotta post your video and work on the journal and the deck and redesign your site and fix other people's problems!!

am i aware? yes i am aware i want to listen to mooji, i want help, please help me.

am i aware? yes i am aware. when i am aware i have no problems. am i aware?

breathing in i love myself!
Breathing out i don't give a fuck! i don't give a fuck! i am aware and that's it and that's all!

am i aware?
i am aware that i am aware. i am aware of the presence of god. i am aware that this is the main event. i am aware of feeling sad. i am aware of feeling rejected.

i am aware of wanting to feel welcomed and accepted.
i am aware of wanting to work on my work.
i am aware of wanting it to be other than it is.
i am aware of wanting to change.
i am aware that i am aware and that i'm resisting what is.
i am aware i am resisting. i am aware i am seeking.

am i aware?

i am aware that my feelings are hurt. i am aware that i am mixed with experience. i am aware that i am still identified as the separate self. i am aware that i want things to change. i am aware that i am resisting and seeking. i am now aware. i am now in the flow.

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.

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