FLIP THE SWITCH JESSICA

Jessica Mullen

FLIP THE SWITCH JESSICA

Jessica Mullen
watch yourself want to control. watch yourself want more coffee. watch yourself listen to the neighbors laugh. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself feel muddy and slow and tired. watch yourself be in your feelings. watch yourself feel closed off and protective. watch yourself start to cry again. watch yourself feel so hurt. watch yourself feel so mad. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself feel depressed. watch yourself tell yourself to snap out of it. FLIP THE SWITCH JESSICA.

watch yourself give up. watch yourself surrender. it's too hard. it's too hard.

watch yourself feel so sad and depressed and depleted and just want to get back to feeling good...

--the next day--

yes i am tired. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am a little irritable. yes i am about to get my period in 3 days. yes i am kind of dreading this class. yes i am tired. yes i am annoying myself. yes i want solutions. yes i want to feel good and not care. yes i want to not give a fuck. yes i want to have a fun day. yes i want to eel better. yes i want to complete this journal. yes i want to feel better. yes i want to make my best work. yes i am annoyed i got up too early or something. yes i am braething out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am remembering i wanted to deal with the chicken. yes i am annoyed my ear is infected. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out.

yes i am frustrated. yes i am in disbelief that those people are being so loud so early in the morning.

yes i am distracting myself logging into the bank. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am so grateful to be car free.

yes i am distracting myself. yes i am tired. yes i am wanting. yes i am seeking. yes i am resisting. yes i am sitting here. yes i am trying to accept what is. yes i am a littel hungry even though i already ate breakfast. yes i am breathing out. yes i am tired. yes my eyes feel tired. yes i am frustrated. yes i want and i seek. yes i am wanting attention. yes i am seeking.

yes i am frustrated. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am anxious. yes i am seeking. yes i just want to be aware of being aware and stop being so mixed with experience.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for helping me be a channel for you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me trust the process of life. thank you for the magick life. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the quiet morning. thank you for the love and connection. thank you for the passive income and fans and subs and fish. thank you god for replacing me with you.

thank you for the perfect timing. thank you for helping me remember i am the source. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you for helping me get my separate self out of the way. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you for the magick life and miracles. thank you for helping me be a channel for you. thank you for helping me be a channel of love. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

am i aware?
i can stay as i am
stabilize as i am
stay as the knowing
stay as the known

am i aware?
i am aware of the presence of god. i am the presence of god.

thank you god for replacing me with you. am i aware?
i am shining as the light of knowing in which this is appearing. i am shining as the light of knowing in which these thoughts arise. i am shining as the light of knowing.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you for helping me feel better. thank yo ufor the magick life and miracles. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank yo ufor the love and connection. thank you for helping me get out of the way!!!!

am i aware?
i am aware that i am aware. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of the breath out. i am aware of the people's voices. i am aware of the feeling on my tongue. i am aware of a feeling in my stomach. i am aware of the tiredness in my eyes. i am aware of wanting to write poetry i am aware of wanting my site to be better i am aware of wanting to work on my work i am aware of SO MUCH SEEKING AND WANTING

i want:
to make this journal
redesign my site
fix her problems
feel love and connection
figure out the new energy exchange
let what i want come to me
feel loved
be a channel of love
give what i have to give

am i aware?
i am aware of the presence of god.
thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.

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