watch yourself sit here
feeling better but still seeking
still resisting
when i am aware i have no problems
today i am aware
i am the source
today i am the source
when i am aware i have no problems. today i am aware. am i aware? i am aware of the presence of god. i am letting it be easy. i am trusting the process. i am saying yes and thank you.

yes i am anxious. yes i am nervous. yes i am overthinking. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i want all the ducks in a row NOW. yes i want to relax. yes i am choosing to relax now. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am anxious. yes i am breathing in.

--hours later--

yes im wasting time and feeling weird. yes i dont feel like doing anything. yes i am breathing out. yes i am anxious. yes i am tired. yes i am overwhelmed. yes i dont know what to do with myself. yes i am anxious. yes my stomach is upset. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am anxious. yes i am sitting here. yes i am breathing out. yes i want to be sweet and feel good. yes i want to be my reason. yes i am breathing in.

yes i am anxious and irritable. yes i am breathing out. yes i am wanting more coffee already. yes i am feeling tired and depressed. yes i just want to go to sleep. yes i am annoyed because i am kind of crabby. yes i am seeking while i know nothing sought will help me. yes i know i am the sought... but ...

yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am anxious. yes i am waiting for the dryer to be done. yes i am wondering what to do with myself. yes i am anxious. yes i am wondering if i should record.

yes i am letting myself be distracted by twitter and facebook. yes i am annoyed with myself for feeling like this. yes i am resisting the way i feel. i feel empty like nothing can fill me or make me feel better. i feel tired and bloated from my period and want to be catered to, when there's nothing i really want.

yes i know i have a bad attitude. yes i want to feel better. yes i want to relax and feel relieved. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i just want to be in a good mood.

yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am anxious. yes i am sitting here. yes i am tired. yes i am worn out. yes i am feeling on edge. yes i am feeling uncomfortable. yes i am wanting to have fun but nothing sounds fun. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathign in. yes i am anxious and want to take a nap. yes i am breathing out. yes i am wanting a massage and chemical relief. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out.

yes i am disappointed in myself for repeating cycles. yes i am wanting to get ahead on my work but i'm too tired. yes i am wondering where my good feeling went.

-- another hour later --

yes i am feeling better. yes i am still feeling anxious. yes i still want coffee. yes i am wondering what will happen in the future. yes i am breathing out. yes i am anxious. yes i am wondering. yes i am remembering i never have to wonder.

yes i have forgotten i am the source.
am i aware?

am i aware? when i am aware i have no problems.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the magick life and miracles. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for helping me help. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the magick life. thank you for the patience. thank you for the miracles. thank you for the garden. thank you for the best adventure ever. thank you for the patience. thank you for the compassion. thank you for the awareness. when i am aware i have no problems.

am i aware?
when i am aware i have no problems. no lack, no agitation, no separation.

am i aware?
when i am aware i have no problems.

only thoughts make me feel bad.

i am choosing yes and thank you. i am choosing to be aware that i am aware. am i aware?
yes i am aware my water smells like fish.

am i aware?
i am aware that i exist. i exist. i am here. i am present. i am here. i am present. present. i cant not be here. am i aware?

i am aware. i am aware that i am aware. yes i am aware. i am