you know you’re dreaming

Jessica Mullen

you know you’re dreaming

Jessica Mullen

watch yourself sit here and feel a little overwhelmed, wanting everything taken care of right now:
- passport
- acu
- moths
- printable
- salsa gifts
- call home
- order
- post vid
- record
- pump

Watch yourself take a quicktime selfie and start the deepdream. watch yourself breathe out and feel anxious. watch yourself remember you can TRUST it's all happening in your favor. watch yourself feel wound up! watch yourself feel uptight! watch yourself breathe out and out and out and out and out. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself remember when you are aware, you know you're dreaming.

watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself wonder about other people's states of mind. watch yourself feel irritated about that stupid bank transfer. watch yourself tell yourself TRUST. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself breathe out.

watch yourself do a bunch of shit to find phone numbers to try to resolve this banking thing and then give up because it is too maddening. watch yourself want to be in a good mood. watch yourself tell yourself there will always be more problems and messes to clean up, so you might as well remember to be aware of being aware since you're looking to the world to be your source.

watch yourself remember the neighbor's dryer not auto switching off.

watch yourself feel like you have to CONTROL. watch yourself wonder what to do. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself feel a little frustrated. watch yourself tell yourself to TRUST. watch yourself wonder if k is going to get up now. watch yourself breathe out and feel disappointed you missed an encounter. watch yourself remember you want to write michael... watch yourself sit here. watch yourself breathe in and try to relax. watch yourself yawn and breathe out.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for replacing my frustration and seeking and resistance with curiosity and beginners mind. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

thank you for helping me help. thank you for helping me wake up in the dream and be a present. thank you for helping me serve. thank you for helping me have a good attitude. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the breath in . thank you for the breath out. thank you for helping me trust. thank you god for replacing me wih tyou. thank you for helping me make my best work. thank you for helping me get my ducks in a row.

watch yourself get anxious again and google things about travel.

thank you god for replacing me wtih you. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you for helping me trust that GOD DOES EVERYTHING PERFECTLY. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

watch yourself feel controlling again and go make some screengrabs to send later. watch yourself get prickled by the thought of the bank again. watch yourself feel frustrated. watch yourself want everything smooth. watch yourself notice how much you want things to be smooooth.

watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself sit uncomfortably. watch yourself want to eat breakfast. watch yourself want to feel good and be in a good moodo. watch yourself think about the future. watch yourself spin the yes or no wheel again.

watch yourself wonder when k will get here. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself breathe out and feel a little frustrated. what do you want?
mostly for the bank thing to resolve itself

watch yourself google this bank thing again and feel HEATED!!! watch yourself feel so frustrated!!!

so i guess it's supposed to be happening in my favor... do i really want to call today?! how can i trust this is happening in my favor...

watch yourself breathe in and try to relax. watch yourself breathe out and sit here. watch yourself want to do something productive, i guess the writing is.

am i aware?

i am saying yes to what is. yes i am frustrated. yes i am watching myself feel frustrated. yes i am trying to zoom out and be the observer. yes i am frustrated every time i think about that money. yes i want to make that phone call but they're not open for hours. yes i am frustrated. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am sitting here. yes i am pissed! yes i am mad at myself for inserting myself. yes i am mad at myself for trying to control and get involved.

yes i want to stop trying to control! yes i am going to GIVE UP for today. yes i am frustrated. yes i am breathing in. yes i am frustrated. yes i want that money to go through! yes i am frustrated. yes i am annoyed! yes i am pissed! yes the feeling is in my body... pressure in my chest, like a rising feeling of a balloon that could burst if i don't let it out. yes i feel like there is a fist clenched around my sternum. yes i am so mad! yes i am braething out. yes i am sitting here. yes i am trying to say yes to what is. yes i am braething out. yes i am just wanting the ducks in a row. yes i am frustrated. yes i am breathing in. yes i am braething out.

yes i am anxious. yes i want this resolveed.

thank you! thank you! thank you! thank you god for replacing me with you! thank you for reminding me i am the source! thank you ! thank you god for replacing me wtih you! i can just practice the feeling! thank you!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.