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Jessica Mullen

watch

Jessica Mullen
watch yourself sit here wondering about this journal
i am shining as the light of knowing in which these thoughts appear
watch yourself notice pain in your back. watch yourself listen to the airplanes flyign by. watch yourself breathe out and want chapstick so you put some on.

watch yourself listen to the girls downstairs. watch yourself feel a little out of control. watch yoruself feel anxious and overwhelmed. watch yourself want to know what will make this journal daily page hit. watch yourself wonder how to make the process better. watch yourself want to feel better.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which ____ appears

i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts about the journal appear. i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts of neighbors appear. i am shining as the light of knowing in which anxiety about family and obligations are arrising.i am shining as the light of knowing in which anxiety is arising.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which discomfort in the body is seen. i am shining as the light of knowing in which wondering is present. i am shining as the light of knowing in which love and connection is desired. i am shining as the light of knowing in which memories of a few minutes ago are arising.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts about "this isn't working well enough" are coming. i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts about "should i write about something else" are arising.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts about wondering what to record are arising. i am shining as the light of knowing in which dread about the future is experienced.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which desire to control is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which it is seen that desire is causing suffering. surrender the preferences. thank you. thank you god for replacing me wiht you.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the perfect timing and flow. thank you for the love and magick life. thank you god for replacing me wtih you. thank you for the magick life. thank you for the miracles. thank you for helping me stay sober today and thank you for helping me stabilize as i am.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay as i am.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which these things are seen. i am shining as the light of knowing in which disappointment is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which curiosity is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which desire to work is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which chainsaws are heard at 8:52am.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which birds are chirping. i am shining as the light of knowing in which desire for the thought to be less needed is seen. i am shining as the light o fknowing in which desire for euphoria is noticed. i am shining ast he light of knowing in which desire to trust is noticed.

TRUST. hurrem.

trust.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which toast is smelled. i am shining as the light of knowing in which a to do list is looming. i am shining as the light of knowing in which anxiety about travel is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which wanting to control is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which desire for a good day is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which this toast smells so good.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which control is desired. i am shining as the light of knowing in which lightening up is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which energy is desired. ia m shining as the light of knowing in which to do list items are flying around my head.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which increased energy is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which relief is felt. i am shining as the light of knowing in which back pain is still noticed but the advil should be kicking in soon.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts about wanting to be perfect and high energy and optimistic are seen. i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts are seen and the desire to see thoughts more clearly is seen.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which overwhelm is noticed but it's really more excitement with the brakes on. i am shining as the light of knowing in which i can choose to be in control of my vibration.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which irritation is noticed. another thing to have to take care of! i am shining as the light of knowing in which the thought stream is presenting thoughts about being swayed by the ups and downs of life.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which i am stabilizing as i am. i am shining as the light of knowing in which stabilizing as i am is desired, preferred, and appropriate. i am shining as the light of knowing in which i am stabilizing as i am.

i am always i am. i am always i am.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which yawning is happening. i am shining as the light of knowing in which a good day is possible. i am shining as the light of knowing in which i am letting thoughts and irritations go. i am shining as the light of knowing in which the thought comes: i am space so what do i care?

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.