what do you care?

Jessica Mullen

what do you care?

Jessica Mullen
watch yourself sit here feeling hungry. watch yourself try to pull it together. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breathe in. time to say yes to what is.

yes i am relaxed for once. yes i am filled with a teeny bit of dread bc monday but feel pretty good. yes i'm backing up my computer. yes i am a little anxious. yes i am breathing out. yes i am sitting here.

yes i am breathing in. yes i am seeking and searching and resisting. yes i want to have a good day. yes i am anxious. yes i am breathing in. yes i am remembering my power.

am i aware?

i am shining as the light of knowing in which this is happening.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts of rushing are happening. i am shining as the light of knowing in which anxiety about money are arising. i am shining as the light of knowing in which breathing is happening. i am shining as the light of knowing in which rested-ness is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which gratitude is arising. i am shining as the light of knowing in which the body is smiling.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts about inadequacy are arising. i am shining as the light of knowing in which uncertainty and fear of the future is arising. i am shining as the light of knowing in which memories of something gross are arising.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which anxiety about a to do list is arising. i am shining as the light of knowing in which feeling overwhelmed is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which desires to work on projects is arising:
my site
sold site
deck
journal

i am shining as the light of knowing in which a time crunch is experienced. i am shining as the light of knowing in which anxiety is noticed in the body correlating to thoughts about "i have to get this done to make money" are arising.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which pressure to create is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which cinnamon gum is smelled. i am shining as the light of knowing in which sadness about mortality is noticed.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which distraction is occuring and worry about "am i doing it right, am i wasting time".

i am shining as the light of knowing in which pressure and overwhelment is still noticed but maybe subsided a litt.e i am shining as the light of knowing in which curiosity may be arising. what is the light of knowing?? what is this stuff arising? how can i stay as the light of knowing more easily?

i am shining as the light of knowing in which the oneness is felt. i am shining as the light of knowing in which cramps are noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which breathing out is noticed.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts about what will happen are occuring. i am shining as the light of knowing in which memories about the past light of knowing working are happening. i am shining as the light of knowing in which the dream feeling is almost accessed.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which uncertainty is experienced. should i do this? what will happen tonight? should i go to this? when will i do this? will i have time for this? will i see ____? will there be enough time? will my obligations get in the way of what i want to do?

i am shining as the light of knowing in which all of this is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts of wanting to be in control of what happens are noticed.

ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN!

i am shining as the light of knowing in which a prickle of hope and relief are noticed.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which trying to let go of control is observed.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which desire to "get it all done right now" is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which feeling not good enough arises.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which thoughts about running out of time are noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which htoughts about other people are noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which anxiety is returning. i am shining as the light of knowing in which drugs are desired to help keep up with the overwhelm and uncertainty.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which rested-ness is noticd. i am shining as the light of knowing in which peaceful birds chirping morning is noticed and appreciated. so appreciated.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which writing is happening. i am shining as the light of knowing in which the big picture is hinted at. i am shining as the light of knowing in which love is craved.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which connection is desired. i am shining as the light of knowing in which dog barking is noticed.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which uncertainty is experienced. i am shining as the light of knowing in which noticing someone else controlling is noticed.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which a deep breath is felt. i am shining as the light of knowing in which patience is noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which spaciousness is noticed. there is room for everything. i am shining as the light of knowing in which a choice between thought stream and I AMness is presented.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which it is noticed that it is much easier to stay as i am when in high contrast. i am shining as the light of knowing in which sawing is noticed.

i am shining as the light of knowing in which legs are falling asleep. i am shining as the light of knowing in whihc htoughts about washing hair are noticed. i am shining as the light of knowing in which zoomed-out-ness is seen. i am shining as the light of knowing in which i remember a line from my book saying "if you're space, what do you care?"

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.

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