watch yourself sit at your desk. i am saying yes to what is.

yes i want to spend my energy wisely. yes i want to work on the new journal but dont know where to start. yes i am feeling a little anxious. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes my mind is seeking.

yes my computer is lagging from the updates. yes i am breathing in. yes i am a little anxious. yes i am breathing out. yes i am kind of dreading class. yes i am breathing in. yes i just want to walk around cleveland and eat ice cream again. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes mind is SEEKINGGGGG.

yes i just want to be aware of being aware. yes i am aware. am i aware?
keep it simple.
am i aware?

yes i am aware that i am aware.

yes i am annoyed because my website is so bloated and runs so slow and crashes all the time. yes i wannt to make my new website. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am anxious. yes i am now wondering what i am going to do with my old site when i make a new one. yes i am braething in. yes i am breathing out.

yes i am thinking about my parents. yes i am thinking about my weight. yes i am wondering when k will get up. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am anxious. yes i am seeking. yes mind is seekign. yes mind wants more more more. yes i am reminding myself to be aware of being aware.

am i aware?
it's simple. am i aware?
yes i am aware that i am aware.

yes i am tabbing away to the bank to distract myself from presence.

yes i am distracted by an internet speed test. yes my bank is still loading.

yes i hear my mind screaming "I WANT MORE MONEY!"

yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i am a little anxious. yes i am dreading class. yes i am breathing out. yes i am just wanting to stay as i am. yes i am braething in. yes i am brething out. yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i am anxious. yes i am uncertain. yes i am wanting wishing needing grasping. yes i am trying to escape the now.

am i aware?
this is it! this is the beloved!
this is the same!
this is unconditional love! this is god!

am i aware? i am aware of awareness.
i am aware that i am aware.
am i aware?
when i am aware there is no lack or agitation or separation.
this tree bears immediate fruit!
am i aware?
yes i am aware.
i am aware of the presence of god when i am aware that i am aware.

am i aware?
yes i am aware.
yes i am.

am i aware?
am i aware?
am i aware of the presence of god?
am i aware this is the beloved?
am i aware that i am aware?
am i aware that i am awareness itself?
am i aware?

am i aware? this is the beloved!
thank you god for replacing me with you1

am i aware?
am i aware?
am i aware?
when i am aware the fog lifts. my vision becomes clearer. the web of thoughts is removed.
am i aware?

am i aware?
i am aware of the sameness
this is the beloved
this is god
thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me wtih you.

thank you for helping me help. thank you for helping me stay sober. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the perfect timign!