today is better

Jessica Mullen

today is better

Jessica Mullen
thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for helping me get out of the way. thank you for helping me give my love to god alone. thank you for inspiration. thank you for good news. thank you for perfect timing and magick life. thank you god for replacing me with you.

thank you for the patience. thank you for the compassion. thank you for the passive income and plenty of money. thank you for the time affluence. thank you for the flow of well being. thank you for the understanding and knowing.

thank you for the teachers who come at the perfect time. thank you for the patience. thank you for the optimism and good attitude. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stabilize as i am, aware of awareness. thank you god for helping me stay in your presence. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me practice the presence of god.

thank you for the change of heart. thank you for the compassion. thank you for the relaxation. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you for the perfect timing. thank you for the optimism and good attitude. thank you for helping me be friendly and loving to all of your creations.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me serve the greater good. thank you for helping me get out of the way and surrender my preferences. thank you for helping me deeply accept what is.

yes i feel a little regret. yes i feel focused today even though i am super groggy. yes i am a little anxious. yes i feel a little sick. yes i feel a little regret. yes i feel self critical. yes i want to get back to my presence of god. yes i want to stay there and not be so up and down.

yes i want to make good work. yes i want epiphanies and solutions. yes i want to record my best video yet. yes i want to have a good day. yes i want to feel more in control of my vibration. yes i want to surrender to the oneness. yes i want to deeply accept what is. yes i want the flow of god through me.

yes mind is still seeking. yes i am still criticizing. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing in. yes i just want to rest in the presence of god and fuck all the rest.

am i aware?
am i aware of the presence of god?
where is the presence of god?
WHERE IS THE PRESENCE OF GOD!?

in the sounds of the neighbors clattering downstairs? in the birds chirping outside the window? in the sound machine noise from upstairs? in the upset feeling in my stomach?

where is the presence of god? in the yucky feeling in my mouth? in the airplane flying by?
where is the presence of god? (im right here)

where is the presence of god? in the resistant thoughts about religion? where is the presence of god? in my arms and breath? where is the presence of god? in the headache and desire for more coffee?

where is the presence of god?in the stretching of muscles and yawning?

am i aware? am i aware of the presence of god?
yes i am aware i am aware i am aware
yes i am aware
i am aware that i am aware
so i am aware of the presence of god
god is awareness
awareness is god
i am aware that i am awareness itself
i am god itself
i am the presence of god...

where though

where is the presence of god, i want to feel it and touch it and taste it
where is the presence of god, i want bliss in my suffering
i want relief

i want perfection. i want peace. i want UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

am i aware? yes i am aware.
i am aware. am i aware of the presence of god?
where is the presence of god? in my hands typing>? in my ring? in the soap on the floor?
how can i know the presence of god sober without my thoughts crowding out god?

how can i stay aware of being aware? how can i return to the bliss of oneness? please take me back god please take me back

am i aware? i am aware of the presence of god.
i surrender. thank you god for replacing me with you.
i surrender my preferences. i thank you for what is. i am saying yes to what is. i surrender to what is.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

thank you for helping me help. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for the awareness of the presence of god. thank you god for the awareness of your presence.

am i aware?
yes i am aware that i am aware
am i aware of the presence of god?
where is the presence of god?
i am the presence of god
i am
is the presence of god
but why doesn't i am hit like that

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me help. thank you for helping me stabilize as i am. thank you for the awareness that i am aware. thank you for the awareness of your presence.

am i aware?
i am aware that i am aware
am i aware of the presence of god?
i am aware that i am aware
i am the presence of god
i am

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.

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