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Jessica Mullen

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Jessica Mullen
watch yourself sit at your desk and wonder if you should start with who am i.
who am i who is sitting at this desk wanting to move the computer?
yesterday was a tumultuous day but i stayed so calm with who am i?
who am i who is resisting? who am i who judges so harshly?

who am i who is thinking about someone else? who am i who is wanting more coffee?

i can rattle off all the who am is but i need to slow down and look for the answer... watch!

who am i who is coughing? Who am i who is excited for this day? Who am i who has something to gain or lose?

who am i who wants more coffee?
a tired body

who am i who is breathing in?
life

who am i who is yawning?
a human being

who am i who is sitting here. who am i who is tired but digging for presence. who am i who feels the need to dig?? a whirlwind.

who am i who is thinking about someone else? Who am i who is thinking about money?
lack. fear. separate ego.

who am i who is listening? who am i who is resisting change?
an attached ego. adhesive.

who am i who is hungry? who am i who is observing with detachment?

who am i who is so excited for the future?
someone with something to gain. an ego.

who am i who is sitting here? who am i who is so excited to think who am i all day because it's working?!
god
god's here!

who am i who is feeling more excited because there is more space?
natural childlike
innocent
i came here to have fun! i came here to chill and record! I came here to hang out with my friends!

who am i who is drafting tweets and not sending them?
someone with something to lose

who am i who is sitting here typing? god

who am i who is sitting here waiting? an ego

who am i who is sitting here listening to the buddies? awareness, space

who am i who is thinking about the future? a robot, a machine, a loop, a program

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me wtih you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for replacing me with you. thank you for the magick life and miracles. thank you for the power of who am i! thank you for the power of watch! Thank you for the power of thank you!

thank you god for replacing me with you. god i am in your hands! nam myoho renge kyo. who am i who is praying? a conduit. thank you god for replacing me with you. god i am in your hands. thank you! am i aware? who am i?

who am i who is collecting all the favorite thoughts? a mind looking for a job
who am i who is concerned about a package delivery? someone with soemthing to lose
who am i who is caring what someone thinks about me? someone with something to lose

who am i who is breathing out? life
who am i who is thinking about what's going on here? the observer?

who am i who is watching? god
who am i who is hungry? life

who am i who is feeling excited to work? a singular perspective eager to flow

who am i who is wondering what someone else is doing? someone with something to gain or lose

am i aware?
yes i am aware of the presence of god!
who am i?
who am i who is asking?
ego asks, mind asks,
self sinks into the moment
deeper and deeper, buffer and buffered
more space between the experience and the witness
more space

who am i?
it's working! i'm sinking into source!
who am i who is sinking?
attention
awareness

who am i who is sitting here?
who am i who is thinking about impermanence?
who am i who is thinking about youtube comments?
someone with something to gain or lose

who am i who is hungry?
a body, life

who am i who is so excited to witness?
a student
an innocent child

who am i who is watching?
awareness
knowing

here's what's going to happen: the morning will be fun and blissful and we're in a great mood. class is fun and easy. good news all around. good news in the emails. orders and sales. hyphy, enjoying life. vroop vroopin it. perfect timing excursion. flying high. high energy. laughing. connected. love. PLAY. playful. innocence and play and love and connection and flow and perfect timing and magick life and synchronicity. WATCH.

who am i who is so excited to play today?
someone getting free from an ego with who am i!

who am i who is thinking in circles about who am i?
a mind trying not to dissolve into the infinite

who am i who is scrolling to see the word count?
an impatient mind, separate, not trusting the timing

who am i who is listening? awareness!

who am i who is watching? awareness!

who am i who is resisting? separation, ego, illusion, a thought!

thank you god for replacing me with you.

who am i who is trying to rush?
someone with something to gain or lose/

who am i who is thinking about php? a curious mind
who am i who is thinking about another person again? a separate ego

who am i who is tired? a resisting mind

who am i who is sitting here? who am i who is listening? a mind with something to gain or lose?

who am i who is waiting? someone with something to gain or lose

who am i who is still here?
just watching.
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Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.