watch yourself sit at your desk, wondering if k can hear you typing from upstairs. watch yourself breathe out and try to be present. watch yourself breathe in and feel a pain in your back. watch yourself yawn. watch yourself breathe out and feel hungry. watch yourself sit here and want to have a good day. watch yourself want to get a good night's sleep. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself feel hungry. watch yourself breathe in and notice your feet are falling asleep. watch yourself sit here and think about other people. watch yourself feel a little anxious. watch yourself want to make good work. watch yourself want to feel better. watch yourself want more more more. watch yourself remind yourself pure awareness has nothing to gain or lose. am i aware?

yes i am aware of the presence of god!

watch yourself want to tab over and look at the bank. watch yourself want to distract yourself. watch yourself think about the workout you want to do today. watch yourself want to feel inspired. watch yourself think about your muse. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself notice your inspiration knitting itself back together. i want to make my best work!

watch yourself notice the writing working .i'm feeling better! i'm feeling more focused. i'm feeling inspired and creative. i'm feeling the flow.

who am i who is sitting in this chair? who am i who is thinking about the busses? who am i who is breathing in and feeling tired? who am i who wants an apple but doesn't want to make a sound to wake up k? Who am i who is sitting here? WHo am i who is anxious?

who am i who is tired???? a body? life? cells? a thought?? i know i can transcend tiredness...

who am i who is thinking about a project? Who am i who is breathing in? Who am i who is reliving a moment?
who am i who just opened twitter and instantly felt repulsed?

who am i who wants? who am i who is tired? who am i who got up too early? Who am i who thinks it was too early? Who am i who is not trusting the process of life?

who am i who is breathing in and coughing? who am i who wants to be aware of being aware? who am i who is listening for sounds of motion?

who am i who wants to make a new journal?
someone who wants to have fun making something

who am i who is feeling more energized from the writing?
awareness

who am i who wants to slow down and be present?
a body, a mind, ?

who am i who. is sitting in this chair? who am i who is racing to finsih this now?
an ego threatened

who am i who is feeling better from writing?
more presence, mind is sinking back into source

who am i who is breathing out?
presence

who am who is listening to the buddies?
presence

it's really working!

i just have to do it slow... really take the time to ask and listen. that's it. slow down. ask for real. who am i? just knowing. just it.

who am i who is thinking about what to cook?
a caretaker
a thought

who am i who is so in love?
a mushroom
a hand of god

who am i who is distracted and wants to escape this writing?
an ego. someone who is always on WHAT NEXT NOW WHAT WHAT NEXT. GOTTA GET TO THE NEXT THING
always one foot in the future, racing, time mastering

time to stay here

who am i who cares about my weight?
conditioning
a thought

who am i who cares what other people think? who am i who just went on my phone hoping to gain something?
an ego
a thought

pure awareness has nothing to gain or lose. am i aware?
just ask who am i until it's cleaned up and you see it's all just a thought
then stay aware of awareness with am i aware?

if you can't get there go to thank you

thank you for my health and wife and mama and home. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. god i'm in your hands!

god i'm in your hands.
who am i who resists?
am i aware?

pure awareness never rushes. pure awareness has nothing to gain or lose. pure awareness is just here, enjoying.

who am i who is hungry and rushing? who am i who is remembering her dreams?
just a thought
just a thought

who am i who is caring what someone thinks? a hurt child protecting herself from criticism

who am i who is sitting in this chair?
awareness

who am i who is listening?
awareness

who am i who is sitting here?
a human

am i aware?
yes i am aware. i am waking up and feeling lighter. i am feeling the flow. i am aware. am i aware? yes i am aware of the presence of god!

god i'm in your hands
who am i?
am i aware?
thank you !
thank you god for replacing me with you
god i'm in your hands!

who am i who is breathing in?
just a body covering awareness
an illusion
i am just watching i am just here
aware
watching with detachment
watching
observing with detachment

who am i
just here