last night

Jessica Mullen

last night

watch yourself sit at your desk so tired but not ready to go up. watch yourself feel a little crabby and feel crabby that you're crabby. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself feel crabby. watch yourself feel needy. watch yourself want to pass out. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself remind yourself

god i'm in your hands.

watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself relax your shoulders. watch yourself hope you pull it together soon.

even this is seen. being tired is seen. yawning is seen. the desk that needs to be tightened is seen. the tiredness in my eyes is seen. the memory of that photo on her phone is seen. closing my eyes is seen. indigestion is seen. breathing out is seen.

watch yourself want to feel better and feel annoyed that you don't feel better. watch yourself want to be more of yourself... watch yourself love how things are but feel left out...

outsider...

occupational hazard

watch yourself breathe in and want to let go of seeking. watch yourself feel like you have something to gain and lose. watch yourself tell yourself

pure awareness has nothing to gain or lose
time to zoom out
time to surrender
time to let god do it
let life take care of life

watch yourself breathe out and try to surrender and feel kind of mad at yourself. watch yourself feel annoyed that you're annoyed. watch yourself realize you're probably just tired... just go to bed.

thank you. i'm supposed to remember thank you. wow that's probably what slipped...

thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god i am in your hands. thank you. thank you thank you thank you thank you

thank you for the perfect timing. thank you for the good dreams. thank you for the relief. thank you for the love and connection. thank you for the time to shine. thank you for my turn in the sun. thank you for the relief. thank you for the relief. thank you for the relief. thank you for the ...

thank you. thank you for the relief. thank you for the love and connection. thank you for the shared understanding. thank you for the communication. thank you for the

i am letting go of seeking
i can't believe it
i am focused on this lack
this need
this desire
of not enough

i'm about to cry over this??

wow i have issues

am i aware?
when i am aware i have no problems
i'm not going to suffer this anymore.
am i aware?
yes i am aware of the presence of god
god i am in your hands
thank you god i am in your hands
thank you god for replacing me with you

is it because thank you feels like cheating? haha
it always works. THANK YOU.
thank you. thank you.
thank you. thank you. thank you.

thank you always works. thank you. thank you. thank you. whatever happens, thank you. thank you. thank you. whatever happens, thank you. i don't mind. DON'T MIND. whatever happens, i don't mind. i got mixed with experience. i forgot i was the source!
omg
i'm the source it turns out. wow ok...

so
i'm the source
am i aware?

wouldn't it be nice to wake up feeling good? Wouldn't it be nice to trust the process of life?

wouldn't it be nice to surrender?

woulnd't it be nice to let go and trust the proess of life/ wouldn't ti be nice to let go? Wouldn't it be nice to get back to that placeless place? Wouldn't it be nice to get back there.

thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you ! thank you! thank you!

ok thank you it is. thank you. thank you thank you thank you thank you

thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for replacing me with you. thank you for the magick life. thank you for the miracles. thank you for the perfect meal and for the perfect timing. thank you for the magick lif.e thank you for the good news. thank you for the flawless victory cooking. thank you for the magick life. thank you for perfect timing. thank you for helping me nto give a fucK!K

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me relax. thank you for helping me surrender. god i am in your hands. thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you.

thank you god i am in your hands. thank you god i am in your hands. thank you god i am in your hands. god i am in your hands. thank you. thank you god i am in your hands. thank you god i am in your hands.

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. am i aware?

thank you
am i aware?
let it play
thank you
god i am in your hands
god i am in your hands
god i am in your hands
god i am in your hands
god i am in your hands

god i am in your hands
i am in your hands

thank you for the perfec tiiming. thank you for the lovely day. thank you for the perfect life. thank you for plenty of everything. thank you for living off the ice cream money. thank you for passive income. thank you for good news. thank you for replacing me with you. thank you for replacing me with you. thank yo ufor replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

god what do i need to know

grateful;
heart
perfect timing
all a part flow start
free to be gratefu l bc
its perfect i think it is thank you
thank you

ready
ready
ready
no matter what is up or down
thankl you
god im in your hands
am i aware?
being here is enough

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.