watch yourself sit at your desk, relieved to feel 1000x better than the weekend. watch yourself breathe out and feel so relieved your mental health is put back together. watch yourself ponder how insane hormones are. watch yourself breathe in and connect to source. watch yourself remember today's magickal powerful phrase: GOD I AM IN YOUR HANDS.

watch yourself feel such a bright new perspective. watch yourself notice how the contrast is worth it even though when going through it it does not seem that way. watch yourself feel so grateful to be on the other side. watch yourself ponder your resistance to the change from summer to fall. you fucking hate that change!! especially in your body!

watch yourself feel optimistic today! watch yourself steel yourself for the day ahead, knowing that GOD I AM IN YOUR HANDS. the day will be perfect since it is in god's hands.

watch yourself sigh with relief! watch yourself wonder how you will explain this episode situation. watch yourself try to get more comfortable in the chair. watch yourself remember, god i am in your hands!

god, i am in your hands. i will write whatever you tell me to write.

i am in the flow. i am surrendering. i am letting god through. god i am in your hands. god i surrender my personal preferences. god i am desiring drugs and i am surrendering the desire. god, i am in your hands.

watch yourself still seek outside of yourself for stimulation. watch yourself crave coffee and stimulants. watch yourself wonder why you would rather have that craving than sleep. well it's so i can have my morning time obviously.

god i am in your hands. whatever you send me is what i want. god i am in your hands. i completely surrender. i have my wants and i am letting them go because i know getting what i want doesn't even bring happiness. only my connection to you brings happiness. reveals happiness. is happiness. god i am in your hands. i surrender.

god i am in your hands. i surrender. i surrender. god i am in your hands. whatever is here is what i want. i am in your hands.

god i am in your hands. whatever you send me is what i want. whatever happens is what is meant to be. god i am in your hands. i completely let go of my preferences.

god i am in your hands. everything is perfect and in its place when i am in your hands. loved and cared for like in someone who knows more than me's embrace. god i am in your hands. i feel so cared for now. i understand. i am now in the flow.

god i am in your hands. whatever you want me to write, i will write. whatever you want me to say, i will say. whatever you want me to do, i will do. i surrender and i am in your hands. i am letting it play. i surrender and i am in your hands. i understand now to look for you in every moment. i understand now that you are giving me gifts in every moment. i understand now.

god, i am in your hands. i am letting life live me. i am going with the flow. i am surrender and i am at peace with what is. god i am in your hands. i can't believe how easy it is. i don't have to control. i don't have to try. i don't have to struggle and FIGURE OUT. god i am in your hands. i am in bliss. i am in freedom. i don't have to do anything! god i am in your hands. whatever you want for me is what i want. whatever you give me is what i want. i don't mind what happens because i know it is all happening in my favor. god i am in your hands!

mind is resisting, saying, of course you feel good now you transcended so much contrast. but what about next month?? will god be there for you then??

yes god will be there for me then but it is an illusion there is only right now and god is here now. god is now. god, i am in your hands. whatever you want for me is what i want for me. whatever you want for the people around me is what i want for the people around me.

god i am in your hands. god i am your hands. god i am in your hands like a baby bird. i am now an innocent baby animal and i am in your hands. i am an innocent baby in your hands. god i am in your hands. whatever you want for me is what i want.

i surrender my preferences. i surrender caring. i surrender giving a fuck. any time it seems like i am not in god's hands, I DON'T GIVE A FUCK! because i am caring too much. when i care i push it away. when i am in god's hands i have not a care in the world because whatever god sends me is what i want.

god i am in your hands. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for helping me stay sober today. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

god i am in your hands. whatever you want for me is what i want. god i am in your hands.
i surrender.
i trust the process of life. i know life takes care of life. i am life. i am life taking care of life. i surrender. god i am in your hands. whatever you send me is what i want. thank you for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober today. thank you for the magick life and miracles. thank you for the perfection of right now.