watch yourself sit at your desk worrying. watch yourself breathe out and remember, am i aware? when i am aware i have no problems.

watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breahte in and feel creative and inspired. watch yourself feel out of practice typing. watch yourself try to surrender. I SURRENDER. i surrender to the mystery. i am trusting the mystery. i am letting the mystery do it.

watch yourself tab away to obsessively check a site. watch yourself log in. watch yourself go on facebook and like a like. watch yourself breathe and almost remember your dream. watch yourself wish you could remember your dreams better. watch yourself listen to the demo outside. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself try to relax. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself wonder if you should... i forgot.

watch yourself want more coffee. watch yourself be the awareness that watches wanting more coffee. watch yourself feel hungry for mooji and spira and chopra and whatever else nonduality teachers there are. watch yourself stop typing to listen to the sounds. watch yourself breathe in and miss her. watch yourself breathe out and want more coffee. watch yourself wonder if you turned the heat up.

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4 hours later
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watch yourself sit here exhausted from class. watch yourself breathe out and remember am i aware? watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself feel tired even though you just chugged a cup of coffee. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself wonder what to do. watchc yourself try to relax. watch yourself sit here.watch yourself try to get mad but you don't even have the energy for that. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself breathe out.

watch yourself sit here. watch yourself sit here and think about what other people are doing. watch yourself listen. watch yourself feel uneasy. watch yourself breathe out.