watch yourself still feel on edge
watch yourself want to make art and
watch yourself feel seeking and lacking and
remember you are the source
you are the source
are you aware? aware you are? are you aware?

am i aware?
who am i who is sitting here? who am i who is constantly projecting lack? who am i who is feeling lack? Who am i who is lacking?

there is a version of me that is pure awareness
that is the version i am
it isn't a version
it's the base??

am i aware?
can i please have am i aware back?

thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for replacing me with you
thank you god for helping me trust the process of life
thank you god for helping me stay sober today
thank you god for the good feeling for the magick life for the connection for the knowing
i know i am here
i know i exist
i am here
i surrender to the field of knowing
i surrender to the field of knowing
i surrender to the field of knowing
please
thank you for helping me stay present today
thank you for helping me stay present today
thank you for helping me stay present today

thank you for helping me stay present today
thankyou for helpiong me stay prsent today

thank you god thank you god for replacing me with you thank you for helping me let go
i surrender my thoughts about that!
i surrender my thinking about that! i surrender thinking about that! i surrender control! i surrender control! i surrender control! i surrender control! i surrender control! i surrender control!

i surrender my awareness of time

and messages

i surrender my need for attention
i surrender my need for validation
i surrender i surrender i surrender i surrender i surrender
when i get mad
i surrender
when i resist what someone is doing
i surrender
when i get mad
i surrender
when i get sad
i surrender

yes i am feeling lack
yes i am aware i am feeling lack that i am seeking
yes i am aware i am aware that i want to feel better
i am aware that i am unfocused
i am aware that i am the thing aware of being unfocused

i am knowing

knowing

i suurrender
i surrender

i am without words
am i aware?
yes i am aware of the presence of god
am i aware?
god i want it to be spring
but it is winter
it is not even the first day of winter but it is the first day of my winter
apprendi a caminar sin mapa

i surrender
i surrender
i surrender i surrender i surrender i surrender i let go i surrender i let go i surrender i let go i surrender i let go i am letting go of my seeking
i am letting go of my resisting
i am letting go of my awareness of lack
i am letting go of neediness
i am thinking others are needy
it's just a mirror! i am the needy one! i am the needy one! i am the needy one!

ok so feeling needy = projecting lack
what is the opposite of needy?
havey
i'm very havey

i'm rich bitch

and if i'm feeling clingy
i'm nonadhesive bitch

wow i'm nonadhesive bitch

i surrender is the same as i let go
i let go forever
i let go forever
i let go forever
i let go forever

if i'm needy
i'm rich bitch
if i'm clingy
i'm not attached bitch

i don't mind
remember i don't mind
remember i don't mind
remember i don't mind

i don't mind

i'm rich
i don't mind
i'm unattached
i'm rich
i'm fucking rich

rich and unattached
unattached = rich
nothing to lose
everything is here
aware of the miracle/gift of the moment

UNATTACHED EQUALS RICH

wow

ok

writing is fun

wouldn't it be nice to have the best day of my life? Wouldn't it be nice to make art? Wouldn't it be nice to feel the best i've ever felt?

wouldn't it be nice to record the fun show in the flow but still weekly somehow?
wouldn't it be nice to be enthusiastic about my own art and work?
wouldn't it be nice to be enthusiastic about me and being on my own team?

am i on my own team??
I AM ON TEAM JESSICA

go team

i am rich
i am unattached
i have everything i need right here
i let go, i surrender, i have it all

am i aware?
yes i am aware of the presence of god
who am i?
knowing (the mind sends this answer because it thinks it's right, this was not a direct knowing answer ha)

nam myoho renge kyo nam myoho renge kyo nam myoho renge kyo nam myoho renge kyo nam myoho renge kyo nam myoho renge kyo

i love this day i love writing i love making art i love having epiphanies i love being here now i love surrendering i love knowing i love being knowing i love presence i love being here now i love when i wake up from the dream of thought i love when i am aware i love when i am unattached i love when i remember i am teh source

I AM THE FUCKING SOURCE
i surrender to the field of knowing
letting the dust storm settle
o that's the mind storm oh ok

i surrender
i surrender
i surrender to the field of knowing
the awareness
it's all just awareness
what the fuck is knowing
knowing is knowing but what the fuck is knowing wow what a trip

i love learning espanol

thank you
thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you

am i aware?
yes i am aware of the presence of god
am i aware?
no i wasn't just then i was thinking about someone else again

am i aware?
ok you have to really be CURIOUS ABOUT THE QUESTION AND REALLY ANSWER IT
listen to the question

am i aware?
i surrender to the field of knowing
pure awareness i am
nam myoho renge kyo
thank you love for replacing me with you thank you god for replacing me with you

who am i?
knowing