Watch yourself sit at your desk. You haven't written in days... Watch yourself listen to chloe dancer. Watch yourself breathe out and wonder what lint is doing. She is sleeping behind you. Watch yourself pray the coffee works. Watch yourself sit here and feel kinda crabby but not really. Watch yourself feel a little... spent i guess? Watch yourself relax your shoulders. Watch yourself want to cry. Watch yourself feel emotional. Watch yourself breathe out and feel so ... extended. Watch yourself realize you need to call your aura in...

Watch yourself sit here and space out. Watch yourself want to rip your attention away from the world of things. Watch yourself want to be stable again. Watch yourself decide to be stable right now. I am stabilizing right now. I am stable as I am. I am resting as I am. I am that I am.

Watch yourself yawn and try to relax. Remember to relax... watch yourself try to gather your favorite thoughts...

relax...
am i aware? (it's a sacred question)
who am i?
nam myoho renge kyo
thank you god for replacing me with you...

watch yourself feel antsy and want to be centered. watch yourself try to focus but remember pure awareness is what notices focus or lack thereof... it doesn't matter if i'm focused. stay as i am. stay as pure awareness.

watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself listen to this song and love it. watch yourself still want to cry, but not know what about. life is so beautiful and sweet? sad about how much i've tried to control?

watch yourself breathe out and have zero expectations. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself pray. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

watch yourself fill out your bmj. watch yourself feel anxious. watch yourself breathe in and tell yourself to relax. watch yourself breathe out and try to relax. watch yourself clench your teeth. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself remember to look at those books from lulu. watch yourself breathe in and feel the breeze. watch yourself want to just read being aware of being aware. watch yourself ache and long for the relief of being aware of being aware. watch yourself decide to do it right now. am i aware? the mind can't answer. the mind can't know pure awareness. the mind is constriction of pure awareness. relax.

am i aware?

yes i am aware. am i aware?

wouldnt it be nice to stay as i am? Wouldn't it be nice to stbailize as awareness? wouldn't it be nice to lighten up and laugh and have fun and be delighted? wouldn't it be nice to get to give that thing? Wouldn't it be nice to trust the process of life and just relax? Wouldn't it be nice to let life live me? Wouldn't it be nice to surrender? Wouldn't it be nice to be light? Wouldn't it be nice to stay as i am? wouldn't it be nice to just be aware of being aware and stay there? am i aware?

am i aware? yes i am aware!

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for helping me stay sober today. thank you god for helping me stay sober. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for helping me stay sober. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for helping me stay sober today. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for helping me surrender and say yes and relax. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for helping me relax. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for helping me stay as i am. thank you god for helping me stabilize as i am. thank you god for helping me stay sober today. thank you god for the miracles and magick life. thank you god for helping me stay as i am thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for helping me stabilize as i am. thank you god for helping me stay sober today.

thank you god for helping me relax. thank you god for helping me stay as i am. thank you god for the pure awareness i am. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for helping me stay sober today. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. am i aware? yes i am aware! I am aware of the presence of god! i am aware of the presence of god! I surrender! I give up! I let go! I trust the process! I know i am here! when it's time it's time! I am relaxed and leaving it up to chance!

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you.

am i aware? it's a sacred question.
yes i am aware! i am aware of the presence of god! I am aware of the presence of god!

am i aware? yes i am aware! i am aware of being aware! i am being aware of being aware!