I really don’t mind

Jessica Mullen

I really don’t mind

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself sit at your desk. Watch yourself sneeze and listen to the rain fall. Watch yourself feel distracted and attached and know you really need to go within. Watch yourself notice how mind identified you've become. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself notice your mind judging you getting so attached. WAtch yourself want to develop a secure attachment style whatever the fuck that means.

Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself sit here and see your mind ruminating, obsessing. Watch yourself want to get back to that pure awareness! Watch yourself breathe out and feel pretty good even though you are... not depleted... not drained... maybe just tired of the tension. Watch yourself tell yourself to relax your mind. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe out.

Watch yourself breathe in and try to rein in your attention. Watch yourself tell yourself, what notices where your attention is? Stay as that. Watch yourself miss Mooji. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself want to have a good day. WAtch yourself want to stop obsessing. Watch yourself want to let go of awareness of lack. Watch yourself feel mad at yourself for getting too attached!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself relax your shoulders. WAtch yourself try to have compassion. Watch yourself sometimes feel bad that your life is so simple. Watch yourself breathe out. WAtch yourself breathe in. WAtch yourself notice how quickly you get attached. WAtch yourself want to be detached from the ups and downs of this world. Watch yourself remind yourself, YOU ARE THE SOURCE!!!!!

Am I aware? Yes! I am aware!

Thank you god for replacing me with you.

Breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
breathing out i activate my throat chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out i activate my heart chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra
breathing out i activate my root chakra

thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay sober. thank you god for replacing me with you. thank you for helping me stay as i am.

even though i get too attached i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself. even though i make myself sick with overthinking i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself. even though i am mind identified i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself. even though i get too obsessed i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself. even though i am seeking i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself. even though i want to get back to my resting state of knowing i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself.

i am saying yes to what is.

yes i am overthinking. yes i am noticing all the moving parts. yes i am wondering what to bring. yes i am thinking too much. yes i want to stay as i am. yes i want to pull back, to rest as the observer. yes i am annoyed with my mind.

who is it who is annoyed with my mind? who am i who notices being annoyed?

PURE AWARENESS CAN NEITHER GAIN NOR LOSE ANYTHING FROM ANY EXPERIENCE.

I can neither gain not lose anything from this experience. I AM THE SOURCE.

Yes I want to trust the perfect timing. Yes I want my call to go well. Yes I feel uneasy. Yes I want to feel good. Yes I want miracles. Yes I want to stay sober. Yes I want god to replace me with it. Yes I am seeking. Yes I am minding. ok... i am minding.

I DON'T MIND.

I don't mind getting snubbed. I don't mind seeking. My mind is seeking. I don't mind. My tummy is uneasy. I don't mind. I have a lot to do to get ready. I don't mind. I am too attached. I don't mind. I want more time to read and listen to mooji. I don't mind. I am nervous and anxious and afraid of embarrassment. I don't mind. I am overthinking. I don't mind. I am nervous. I don't mind. My attention is scattered. I don't mind. I am lost in the choppy waves of the mind. I don't mind. I don't mind getting lost in the waves of illusion. I don't mind.

I am loving returning to center. I am loving having my techniques.

Saying yes to what is.
I don't mind.
Thank you god for replacing me with you.
Am I aware?
I am loving what is!

I am loving that i have to go within. i am loving that we don't have to work out today. I am loving noticing a change in season. I am loving noticing a change in season in my body. I am loving not minding. I am loving being here now. i am loving being devoted to writing. I am loving letting go of the object of my attention. i am loving letting go. I am loving letting god replace me.

I am loving staying sober. I am loving letting god replace me. I am loving staying as i am. i am loving being pure awareness. I am loving being here now. I am loving getting better at this. I am loving riding the waves.

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.