Watch yourself sit at your desk and feel groggy but good. Watch yourself kind of struggle to wake up today... did not sleep much. maybe 4.5 hours?? Watch yourself feel sort of proud of your lack of sleep. the moon is going crazy in the background.

watch yourself feel so weird. watch yourself breathe out and relax your shoulders. watch yourself feel so excited for this day! watch yourself feel excited to go to the dispo. WAtch yourself LOVE YOUR CITY. watch yourself breathe out and feel that familiar anxiety/excitement.

Watch yourself notice the way your hands feel. watch yourself feel like you're still dreaming. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself relax your shoulders some more. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself notice your attention pulling taut. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself decide to have the best day of your life!

watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself sit here typing. watch yourself think about when you;re going to do that thing. watch yourself notice the tension in your body. watch yourself feel so fucking excited about life!

watch yourself feel so grateful to k for finishing the orders last night. watch yourself feel like you don't even need sleep. watch yourself feel so excited for your upcoming adventures. watch yourself enjoy life the way it is.

watch yourself feel a little scattered and foggy but it just doesn't matter. watch yourself ask, am i aware? am i aware? yes i am aware! watch yourself love how effective that question is every time!

watch yourself feel so excited about life! watch yourself breathe out and remember delicious things. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself tell yourself to focus but it just doesn't matter.

am i aware? yes i am aware! i am aware of my xmas lights. i am aware of sitting in this chair. i am aware of street noise from the construction. i am aware of feeling ON. i am aware of feeling on fire. i am aware of sneezing.

i am aware of feeling shivery. i am aware of needing to return an email. i am aware of breathing in. i am aware of breathing out. i am aware of needing to make this list now...

today

• Grit
• Dispo
• Post vid
• Write A
• Promo fun show (tomorrow)
• Quest post (by 22nd!)

later

• Beyond Gratitude zine
• Linty instructions
• D gift
• Card
• Clean more and more and more
• Find a pet safe air freshener

watch yourself work on your vid upload. watch yourself feel the kerfee kicking in. watch yourself feel pretty ducks in a rowy. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself sit here. watch yourself try to relax. watch yourself sit here.

am i aware? yes i am aware! i am aware of the mind! i am aware of the worries! i am aware of awareness. i am aware of sitting here. i am aware of being here now. i am aware of seeking. i am aware that i am the source. must remember i am the source! i am the source! i am the source!

breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
breathing out i activate my throat chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out i activate my heart chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra
breathing out i activate my root chakra

thank you for helping me stay as i am. thank you for helping me stay sober. thank you for helping me stay aware. thank you for helping me remember I AM THE SOURCE OF THE WAVE!!!

am i aware? yes i am aware! i am aware of feeling like i'm floating. i am aware of feeling so grateful i kicked kratom again. i am aware of breathing in. i am aware of breathing out. i am aware of sitting here. i am aware of breathing out. i am aware of being here now. i am aware of relaxing into the now. i am aware of trusting the process of life .i am aware of loving life exactly the way it is. i am aware of wanting more coffee. i am aware of wanting!

i am aware of magick life! i am aware of being here now. i am aware of letting go of my resistance. i am aware of feeling good about life today. i am aware of being here now. i am aware of k coming downstairs. i am aware of breathing in. i am aware of breathing out. i am aware of letting go of my worries. fuck it! it's all unfolding perfectly.

am i aware? yes i am aware! i am aware of having the best day of mylife. i am aware of feeling so excited about this day. i am aware of feeling connected and in the flow. i am aware of making my best work. i am aware of feeling focused. i am aware of feeling light. i am aware of trusting the process. i am aware of feeling hungry.

i am aware of feeling so grateful and optimistic and hopeful and excited. i am aware of breathing out. i am aware of letting it be easy. am i aware? yes i am aware!

am i aware? yes i am aware! i am aware of the truck sounds. i am aware of feeling wound up. i am aware of feeling energized. i am aware of feeling fun and flowing. i am aware of breathing out. i am aware of attachment. i am aware of telling myself, YOU ARE THE SOURCE!