Watch yourself stand at your desk in a weird way. WAtch yourself ope the moon phase tab. 81% full. Watch yourself write "asana" on your to not give a fuck about list. Watch yourself feel anxious in your stomach. WAtch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself stand here and wonder. Watch yourself remember yesterday's magickal library reading: you never have to wonder.

Watch yourself breathe out and remember you have to make that loaf of bread. WAtch yourself stand here and think about other people. Watch yourself stand here and listen to the keyboard typing sounds that sound so much better on the computer than the bluetooth keyboard. Watch yourself want to listen to music. Watch yourself breathe out.

Watch yourself wish you remembered your dream from last night. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself adjust your screen. Watch yourself stand here. Watch yourself wish and wish and wish for perfect timing. Watch yourself remember, STAY AS YOU ARE!

Am I aware? Yes I am aware! I know i am aware when my eyes focus on an object and i feel like i'm dreaming. I am aware of feeling like I'm dreaming. I am aware of wishing wishing wishing. I am aware of strong desires. What do you want?

Perfect timing.
Let the flow do it.
Stop trying/don't force.
Allow it to come to me.
To stop trying to figure it out and let it unfold.
To keep my attention on my beingness. To stay as I AM!!
To stay as awareness. To stay in my knowing.
To visit once more before friday.
To help! To give! That thing. Soon.
To have time to clean, post my video, go to the store, update asana, do the bookkeeping, and feel more on top of SoLD!

Watch yourself look at the time 8:47am. Watch yourself absolutely love how your body makes you get up at 8 now. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself feel good about life today. WAtch yourself feel your attention stretched taut. Time to relax! Watch yourself try to relax.

Am I aware? Yes I am aware. I am aware it's garbage day tomorrow. I am aware of desiring. I am aware of feeling stretched and tense. I am aware of wanting to relax and trust the flow. I am aware of feeling like my ass is hanging out online but i have to own that shit. I am aware of being here now.

Am i aware? Yes i am aware. I am aware of the weight of my arms. I am aware of the still air in here. i am aware of the cloudy sky. I am aware of august september and october being my favorite months. I am aware of wanting to give give give. I am aware of wanting more and more attention. I am aware of feeling so grateful i'm not at a job interview.

I am aware of wanting to check the bank. I am aware of wanting to share. I am aware of standing here. I am aware of being here now. I am aware of relaxing into the moment.

I am aware of standing here. i am aware of wanting to have time to meditate. i am aware of rocking back and forth on my feet because i'm kind of nervous and energized! I am excited and i am a little anxious... and the anxious is covering up vulnerability.

I am aware. Am I aware? Yes I am aware! I can be here now. I can stay as i am. i can keep asking genuinely, am i aware? i can keep listening for the answer. I can stay here now. I can relax into the now. I can trust the process of life. I can let it be fun and easy. I can let life live me!

Breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra!
Breathing out i activate my crown chakra!

Breathing in i bring energy into my third eye chakra!
Breathing out i activate my third eye chakra!

breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra!
Breathing out i activate my throat chakra!

breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra!
Breathing out i activate my heart chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra!
Breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra!

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra!
Breathing out i activate my navel chakra!

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra!
breathing out i activate my root chakra!

thank you for helping me stay as i am! thank you for helping me be pure awareness! thank you for helping me stay sober!!!!

am i aware? yes i am aware! i am aware of attachment. i am aware of wanting to read my natal chart analysis again. i am aware of breathing out. i am aware of my taut stretched attention. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of breathing out. i am aware of wanting to do my journaling. i am aware of wanting more magick today. i am aware that i am the source! I AM THE SOURCE OMG I AM THE SOURCE PLEASE REMEMBER THAT TODAY!!!

I AM AWARE I AM THE SOURCE

I AM THE SOURCE
I AM THE SOURCE
I can stay as i am! I am the source!

Am I aware? Yes I am aware!

I am the source. i am remembering I AM THE SOURCE.

Am I aware? Yes I am aware! And when i ask myself am i aware, and listen for the answer, i return to my source. i return to pure awareness. i can stay in my source all day. i can stay as i am. i can surrender and trust the process. i am trusting the process of life! i don't have to interfere or get in the way. i can let it be fun and easy. i trust the process of life. am i aware? yes i am aware! am i aware? yes i am aware! i am aware i am the source!