Watch yourself stand at your desk, finally standing again! It must be the new moon. Watch yourself listen to the thunder and the birds call. Beautiful morning! Watch yourself love the weather here. WAtch yourself pause to put on chapstick. Watch yourself go on your phone to input today's weight. Watch yourself feel content enough with it. Watch yourself have cramps still. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself notice the mind coming and coming and coming and coming, running over the thoughts over and over again. Watch yourself want to stay as you are, to keep the miracles flowing! And to feel good obv...

Watch yourself feel itchy eyes. Watch yourself listen to tires on the wet pavement. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself feel so grateful for your friends and family. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself stand here and contemplate all the steps that brought you here. Watch yourself want more and more but know better than to push or force a thing.

Watch yourself tell yourself, you just gotta stay as you are. Am I aware? Yes I am aware. Yes I am burning with the flame of awareness. Yes I am burning AS the flame of awareness. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I am frustrated with my site's slow load time. Yes I am breathing in. Yes I am remembering the past. Yes I am SO GRATEFUL TO LIVE HERE.

Watch yourself take your ponytail out because it's hanging funny on your neck. watch yourself want to focus. Watch yourself remind yourself, it doesn't matter if you're focused or not, pure awareness doesn't change. Am I aware? Yes, I am aware!

Yes I am the flame of pure awareness. Yes the spark of recognition is working. Yes I am resting in my knowing. Yes life keeps getting better and better! Yes I want more so bad. Yes I am grateful for the desire. Yes i am so grateful to have passion pulled through me. Yes i am so grateful for pleasant surprises!!

Breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
breathing out i activate my throat chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out i activate my heart chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra
breathing out i activate my root chakra

thank you for helping me stay sober. thank you for helping me STAY AS I AM. am i aware? yes i am aware!

i am loving what is! i am loving the rain in cle. i am loving having friends. i am loving feeling good in cleveland. i am loving where we live. i am loving my friends and family.

i am loving feeling connected to the flow. i am loving saying yes to what is. i am loving being in a good mood. i am loving feeling good and strong in my body. i am loving feeling connected. i am loving feeling grounded. i am loving feeling welcomed and accepted. i am loving being here now.

am i aware? yes i am aware.

i am saying yes to what is. yes i want more. yes i want to stay as i am. yes i want to stay as pure awareness. yes i am aware.

i am aware of the airplanes and the cars honking. i am aware of this breath out and the ache in my heel. i am aware of a little dread about class but not really. i am aware of standing here. i am aware of relaxing into the now. i am aware of feeling grateful for how far i've come. i am aware of relaxing into the now.

i am aware of the highway noise. i am aware of the birds calling. i am aware of my breath and the thunder. i am aware of wanting to meditate. am i aware? yes i am aware!

i am aware of the cramps. i am aware of standing on the outsides of my feet. i am aware of the chores i have to do before class. i am aware of feeling hungry. i am aware of breathing in. i am aware of breathing out. i am aware of laughing at memories.

i am aware of the breeze. i am aware of how much i LOVE SUMMER HERE. i am aware of how in love i feel. i am aware of intending to do me. i am aware of a magnetic pull. i am aware of it getting better every time.

today i intend to stay as i am. i intend to stay sober. i intend to be flexible and flowing. i intend to get my ducks in a row.

today's list

1. Letter of rec
2. take down walls
3. Orders
4. Grit
5. Record
6. Call mom and dad
7. Do tomorrow's vid
8. 3p books

LLL

9. Fun Show

long term list

1. BMJ zine splinters
2. New zine collection
3. New 15 minute meditation
4. Make minestrone
5. Make macaroons
6. Clean the whole dang house

am i aware? yes i am aware. when i stay as i am, i am rested. i am fulfilled and satisfied. when i stay as i am, everything is perfect and in its place. when i stay as i am, it's all in perfect timing. when i stay as i am, i see the beautiful miracle of it all.

am i aware? yes i am aware. i am awake in the dream. i am connected. i am one with life. i am in the flow. i am doing everything right. i am flexible and flowing. i am focused. i am letting life live me. i am trusting the process of life. i am so in love with life exactly the way it is!