STAY AS I AM
Watch yourself sit at your desk, you have 8 minutes to write. Watch yourself try to hurry and think of all your favorite thoughts.
I don't mind.
I am aware.
Am I aware? Yes.
Thank you.
Pure awareness, I am.
I am loving what is.
I am saying yes to what is.
Who am I?
I know i am here.
Your mood is your work.
Love yeah love...
Watch yourself wish you could put those thoughts on a charm bracelet to ward off depression and self hate. Watch yourself listen to linty crying her after breakfast cry. watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out.
Breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
breathing out i activate my throat chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out i activate my heart chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra
breathing out i activate my root chakra
thank you life for helping me stay as i am. thank you for helping me stay aware. thank you for revealing my pure awareness to me. thank you for helping me stay here, reveling in the pure awareness. thank you for helping me keep my awareness rested in its natural position. thank you for helping me stay as i am.
watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself want desperately to stay as pure awareness. watch yourself remember the times you were there before:
the first vaccine: pure awareness i am.
doctor's office: witness the witness.
fungi movie/best weekend mood ever/application flow: i am aware.
atx flow and salad/uber/hotel miracles: thank you.
during class yesterday: i don't mind.
having friends over: pure awareness i am.
Watch yourself enjoy that you've at least been there 6 times since april. Watch yourself breathe out. I know I can stabilize! I know I can stabilize as I am!!
Watch yourself want so bad to stay there! Even though you know you are there, it just gets clouded! Watch yourself breathe in and wish for miracles. Watch yourself breathe out and ask yourself, what do i really want??
It's to stay as i am! To stay as pure awareness! For the freedom of the observer, watching the ups and downs, not minding what happens! I don't give a fuck about worldly success (usually), I just want the relief and freedom of pure awareness I am! I want to stay there! I want to live there! I know I am here, i want to have the stunning realization, i want to be byron katie and eckhart tolle and mooji! I want what they know! I know i have it in me, i just want to stay there!
STAY AS I AM
Watch yourself see the minutes ticking by and you've only done half your writing. Watch yourself wonder how you will fill your time today. Watch yourself tell yourself to make a plan for post-ovulation next month. Watch yourself wonder what helped:
sudafed
reading
napping
writing
mooji
Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself sit here and notice the played tired old ways of seeking for substances. Watch yourself get startled by lint in her box. Watch yourself feel uneasy in your stomach. Watch yourself feel so grateful you got enough sleep. WAtch yourself start trying to plot what to bring for the party again. Watch yourself want to throw all these thoughts off like shackles or a net. Watch yourself want to uproot it all!
Am I aware?
Yes I am aware.
What thought can i keep returning to? How can i stabilize? pure awareness I am? I am aware? Am I aware? Who am I?
Watch yourself breathe out and pray for a good day. Watch yourself pray to stay in control of your vibration. Watch yourself really hate the moodiness and lack of energy post ovulation. Watch yourself want to fix that next month, be better prepared. be prepared to read and nap. Be prepared to deal with your feelings instead of eat them. Be prepared to be aware.
Breathing in i know i am breathing in
breathing out i know i am breathing out
am i aware?
watch yourself ask am i aware? ok so the point is to stay in meditation... everything becomes meditation. the mind doesn't want everything to slow down to meditative pace. the mind wants fast paced, rushing. watch yourself remember how the rushing took you out last week. stay as you are. stay in the meditation. stay in the meditation. stay in the meditation.
am i aware? i know i am in there. i know i can surrender. i know i can see through the thought stream. i know i can conquer. i know i can stay as i am. i know who i am. i know i am pure awareness.
pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.
watch yourself notice the rushing. watch yourself notice all the little things you have to take care of. watch yourself notice it's the mind not trusting the process of life. it's all the mind clouding and distracting. watch yourself breathe in and feel a little better. watch yourself breathe out and just sit here, staring, looking for the awareness. i know that which i seek is where i am seeking from. am i aware?
am i aware? yes i am aware. it's so slow. i need to slow down to the pace of the body, the pace of awareness. awareness is just present, timeless. that's why it feels so slow. there is no time here. time is stopped here. time does not exist here. stay as i am. stay as i am.
am i aware? i am.
am i aware? yes i am aware.
am i aware? yes I am aware.
i don't mind.
