Watch yourself be struck by the epiphany, I don't mind. Watch yourself notice the recognition: I have been minding quite a bit! Watch yourself realize how much you really have been minding: your appetite, how your clothes fit, what you eat, cleaning up cat shit, having to work, having to work out, shifting energy levels. You've been minding it all! You've been minding everything! Family emails, trip anxiety. Whether or not you interact with certain people. You've been minding it all!

Today: I DON'T MIND!

Watch yourself realize that's what kratom did for you: it helped you NOT MIND. It helped you not mind working out. It helped you not mind being hungry. It helped you not mind bitchwork. It helped you not mind dramatic relationships. It helped you not mind not drinking. It helped you not mind cleaning up messes. It helped you not mind socializing. It helped you not mind saying yes to whatever. It helped you not mind all the little annoyances and grievances. It helped you not mind cooking. It helped you not mind not sleeping enough.

But since being off the kratom: I mind having to cook. I mind cleaning up messes. I mind feeling hungry. I mind having to work out. I mind feeling tired. I mind having low energy. I mind feeling sad.

ALl this minding! That's all it's been! THe kratom helped me not mind, and without it I've been minding everything!

Well today that is all changing. I don't mind.

I don't mind the way my clothes fit.
I don't mind feeling hungry. I don't mind having to work out. I don't mind linty crying like a baby. I don't mind having the clean up her messes. I don't mind not getting what i want. I don't mind feeling insecure. I don't mind. Because it all passes! It's all so temporary! It's all coming and going!

I don't mind waking up too early. I don't mind linty shitting outside her box. I don't mind having a ravenous day once or twice a month. I don't mind not having kratom. I don't mind being sober. I don't mind getting older. I don't mind feeling like shit. I don't mind feeling regret. I don't mind having to cook tonight.

I don't mind linty getting cat litter everywhere. I don't mind having client work. I don't mind that i haven't heard back about that app yet. I don't mind feeling annoyed. And I've been feeling so annoyed because I have been MINDING!

I don't mind my morning time getting cut short. I don't mind sneezing. I don't mind listening to the buses drive by. I don't mind all that it took to get here to this much needed epiphany.

All these addiction issues are all because I MINDED. I minded feeling bad. I minded feeling emotions. I minded feeling overwhelmed. I minded having to do. I minded having to work. I minded having to work out. I minded having to maintain my body.

ALl of this minding! No more! I don't mind anything anymore! I don't mind! I don't mind!

Finally a knuckle tattoo! DONT MIND
DONT MIND
DONT MIND
DONT MIND

I Don't mind! I don't mind. I don't mind that i have to clean up the shit next. I don't mind that the incense came crushed. I don't mind that i just ordered 135 tootsie pops. I don't. mind that i gained 8 pounds since jan 2020. i don't mind that my size 5 shorts are tight. i don't mind that i feel unsuccessful. i don't mind that i feel like a loser. I don't mind! It's total trip mindset! You can't mind anything while tripping or you'll suffer greatly!

I guess that's what saying yes to what is is all about... not minding. Or choosing love, then you're not minding. Or saying thank you, because you're not minding.

I don't mind! I don't mind! I don't mind suffering. I don't mind being human. I don't mind having a few bad days so i can have this breakthrough. I don't mind getting up early so i can write and meditate alone.

I don't mind getting distracted by emails. I don't mind having clients. i don't mind having work to do. i don't mind! when i mind, i suffer! of course. then the i is the mind instead of the pure awareness. the pure awareness doesn't mind shit! the pure awareness embraces and says yes and loves it all! THe pure awareness welcomes it all! I don't mind! When I mind, I am mind! NO MORE!

I don't mind my legs falling asleep. I don't mind not having any numbing agents because i'm finally figuring out how to do it myself! I don't mind gaining weight. I don't mind working out. I don't mind feeling a little tired.

I don't mind rude youtube comments. I don't mind getting my feelings hurt. I don't mind trolls. I don't mind resistance. I don't mind negative feelings. I mean uncomfortable feelings. I don't mind.

I don't mind not having a vehicle. I don't mind renting. I don't mind not knowing what to give. I don't mind a little obsession/crush. I don't mind a bad dream. It's all temporary! It all comes and goes!

I don't mind that i'm almost done writing and it's time to do the chores. I don't mind breathing out. I don't mind breathing in. I don't mind having to do things on a list. I don't mind having to report damaged orders. I don't mind feeling hungry. I don't mind getting older. I don't mind looking older. I don't mind being human. I don't mind being in a time space body. I don't mind feeling scared. I don't mind worrying. I don't mind!

I don't mind feeling unfocused. I don't mind that i don't mind might not always work. I don't mind the grasping and seeking and resisting. I don't mind feeling low energy. I don't mind thinking about the future. I don't mind feeling overwhelmed. I don't mind feeling hungry. I don't mind at all!