Aware

July 30, 2021July 31, 2021
by Jessica Mullen

I am aware. I am aware of awareness. I am witnessing the witness. I am aware. I am staying as I am. I am the watcher. I am letting go of all concepts and identification. I am aware.

I am aware of standing at my desk. I am aware of the deep dream running in the back ground. I am aware of the smudge on my trackpad, oh wait it's just fuzz. I AM Aware of the desire to listen to my grungie playlist. I am aware of hte time. I am aware of typos. I am aware of the sound of the garbage truck. I am aware of linty's footsteps. I am aware of letting go of trying to control her. I am aware of the nervousness in my stomach. I am awawre of the breath out. I am awre of the typos. I am aware of the feeling of my fingertips. I am awre of the desire to play guitar before i lose my callouses again. I am aware of this breath out.

I am aware of the desire to not mind my own business. I am aware of hte desire to identify with the world. I am aware of my obsession. I am aware of the obsessiveness of the mind. I am aware of watching linty climb on a pile of blankets. I am aware of the cold water in my glass. I am aware of this day. I am aware of being distracted by linty going on my chair.

I am aware of the feeling of rushing. I am aware of the desire to smoke. I am aware of linty falling out of my chair, her nail must have gotten stuck. I am aware of the pain in my heart i feel when i imagine her feeling pain. I am aware of the pain. I am aware of closing my eyes. I am awre of hearing her whine in the other room. I am awre of the typos that keep happening because i'm not pressing the a key hard enough? i am awre of slowign down enough to see how i become unaware.

i am aware of this breath in. I am awre that awareness is slow, or at least not rushed. it just is. there is no rushing. that rushing is all from the mind. i am awre of the rushing. i am awre that i was rushing the past couple days to get my stuff done before the mania passed.

i am aware the mania has passed lol.

I am aware of the change of season in my body. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of slowing down. i am aware of needing to slow my mind down to the pace of my breath. I am aware. I am aware. I am aware. I am aware of slowing down. I am aware of slowing down to stillness. I am aware of letting it all slow down. It was slow... then i got caught up in the manifestations. Whirlwind. Attached to concepts. I am aware.

I am aware of feeling better today. I am aware of feeling rested. I am aware of wanting to rush to finish this so i can clean up the cat messes before k gets up. i am aware of the quiet of the morning. i am aware this is my favorite time of day. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of the feeling of gratitude for this quiet time. i am aware of the rushing. i am aware of the feeling in my limbs.

i am aware of the dust on my screen. i am aware of hearing sounds upstairs.

I am aware of the garbage truck getting to our street. I am awre of wanting more coffee. I am aware of standing here crooked. I am awre of the typing fingers. I am awre of the typos i can't stop making. i am aware of remembering my dream about beliefs... i am aware of the breeze on my leg.

i am aware of listening to the cat outside cry. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of this breath out. i am aware of the striving to stay calm and centered. i am awre of hte tring. i am awre of skipping all these ckeys and i am wondering if it is my keyboard.

i am aware of the garbage truck sounds. i am aware of the bird sounds. i am aware of feeling thirsty. i am aware of stanidng up straighter. i am aware of the birds calling. i am aware of the colors and feeling of it getting warmer in here.

i am aware of this day. i am aware of where i am standing. i am aware of rushing. i am aware of wanting to farmers market. i am aware of kelly sayign awww. i am aware of this moment. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of the microwave opening and closing.

i am aware of hte 841 word count. i am awre of feeling calm but rushed. i am aware of this breath out. i am aware of feeling a little too warm. i am aware of wearing a turtle neck in july. i am aware of telling myself to focus. i am aware of this breath in. i am aware of this moment. i am aware of this time. i am aware of this point in life. i am aware of this moment. i am aware of my thoughts and emotions and sensations and observations. i am aware of my mind.

i am awre of my desires. i am aware of the sounds. i am aware. i am staying as i am. i am aware. i am staying as i am. i am aware. i am staying as i am..

i am aware. i am staying as i am.

i am also aware of my to do list