My whole life ahead of me
Watch yourself force yourself to do your writing instead of the little admin things you've been busying yourself with the past few minutes. Watch yourself have cramps and feel grateful to get your period. Watch yourself breathe in and decide to thumbs down yet another song. Watch yourself stand here. Watch yourself want to take off your shoes and then take them off. Watch yourself feel the breeze and want some new music to listen to. Watch yourself feel a little stressed by everything you have to do but none of it is a big deal.
Watch yourself breathe in and try to be here now. Watch yourself yawn and breathe out and remember your text you sent. Watch yourself unfocus your eyes and remember it doesn't matter if you're focused or unfocused in the position, the true position, of the watcher. Watch yourself tell yourself: I AM IS ENOUGH.
Watch yourself ponder whether "thank you" is the mantra of the person. Does the I AM think thank you or feel gratitude?
Watch yourself breathe out and think about the sense I AM. Watch yourself try to get in the place. Clear the clutter out of the place. I AM. I AM THAT I AM. THAT I AM IS ENOUGH. It worked yesterday... I want to get there again today. Watch yourself feel tired of having to come up with a new mental code every day. Watch yourself notice how muggy it is today. Watch yourself check the weather to see if you're really going to walk to the lake today.
Watch yourself NEED new music! WATch yourself about to open spotify to look for some classics... but what. Watch yourself breathe out and feel pain. Watch yourself want the advil to kick in. Watch yourself try to focus. Watch yourself remember it doesn't matter if you're focused or not if you're the watcher. If you identify with focused, you'll have to identify with unfocused. don't identify with anything. don't pick up anything. stay as you are. i am.
Watch yourself open spotify and put on some lana. Watch yourself stand here and feel too warm. Watch yourself hope you can keep the energy up for all you want to get done today. Watch yourself immediately stop the music bc it has words and it's distracting.
Watch yourself put on some wild dnb... watch yourself just want to get this writing over with so you can move on. Watch yourself want to listen to some good pop. Watch yourself feel nostalgic for 2012. Watch yourself breathe in and stand here. Watch yourself breathe out and think about 2012. Watch yourself want to feel more focused. Ok ! I get it! You want to focus! Do it then!
But I AM is enough. That I am is enough. That i am is enough. I AM. I am that I am. And that I am, is enough. I am is enough. I am is enough. It pulls me back into my body when normally i'm 10 steps ahead of my body planning every step and chore, no wonder i get so drained.
ok wow that music had to stop too.
Watch yourself put on interstate love song by stp. Watch yourself revert to your 12 year old self instead of the year 2012.
Watch yourself breath eout. WAtch yourself rush. Watch yourself want to be the I AM. Watch yourself skip the song to hunger strike. Watch yourself breathe in. WAtch yourself breathe out and feel disbelief about all the heroin ODs and suicides in the grunge scene.
Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in and want to be part of the art and music community again. Watch yourself feel suchhhhh a pull in your heart when you listen to this song. Such possibility. My whole life ahead of me. Just wanting to be a part of a music scene where it's ok to be yourself and feel feelings and be messy and be intoxicated and intoxicating. Watch yourself feel overwhelmed with nostalgia and realllly want some fresh music so you don't have to come back here.
Watch yourself still consider the value of the nostalgia. The feeling of having my whole life ahead of me. Just wanting to be free enough to hang out with friends past 10pm. Be creative and wild and free with other people. Watch yourself want to be around more people. Watch yourself want to be in an old house on original wood flooring damaged by 100 years of living. Watch yourself want to play music with friends. Watch yourself wish the playing music would come naturally. Watch yourself wish you could better express yourself. WAtch yourself wish you could put the meditations to music. Watch yourself wonder what it would take to make a song meditation.......... watch yourself feel overwhelmed by the concept and decide to trust it will happen incrementally like everything else on your channel.
WAtch yourself want to express yourself better creatively!
Watch yourself find tears in your eyes listening to this song chloe dancer/crown of thorns. Wow what a memory. That guy ODed. But it's the feeling i had when listening to it... my whole life ahead of me...............
Watch yourself want to make something of yourself lol. Watch yourself want to help. Watch yourself want to make something beautiful that makes people cry. Watch yourself think about how your meditation vids come close.. but you want it to be more musical, more abstract?, more beautiful, more ... long form? an album? a masterpiece.
Watch yourself still want to be a star. Still striving for success. Still striving. Still yearning and wanting and grasping. Still wanting to travel the world in hotels touring. Watch yourself still wanting love with friends. Watch yourself want more and more and more.
Watch yourself want to make something of yourself. Watch yourself remember you're a late bloomer. Watch yourself relax and remember: I AM IS ENOUGh. that i am is enough. that i am is enough. now if i can get out of the way, what i want will come. that i am is enough. i am is enough. i am is enough!!