Watch yourself stand at your desk, sweating and irritable. Watch yourself breathe out and put on pandora and try to calm down. This period really needs to get here.
Watch yourself breathe in and think about everything you need to get done today. Mainly just post your video... but there are plenty of other things you "should" do. LIke find a new petsitter. Pay the irs. Do the lulu report. Meditate.
Watch yourself breathe in and stand here. WAtch yourself breathe out and pray for perfect timing when you know you always have perfect timing. Watch yourself wonder about when you should use "thank you" for a mental code and when "I am is enough" is going to work. I am is enough.
Watch yourself feel like you're lost in your mind and you're not sure which route to take back to the present. When you really don't need a route, you're already here. Watch yourself wonder if this is cramps or what. Watch yourself breathe out and hope you have enough time to do everything before your call.
Watch yourself feel impatient especially with this song. Good thing it just ended. Watch yourself feel so irritable. Watch yourself want to feel better. Ok I feel irritable. What do I really feel? Any of these? sadness, shame, helplessness, anger, embarrassment, disappointment, frustration, and vulnerability.
I guess I feel vulnerable, because I have these calls in the air that may or may not happen. Waiting for someone else. Putting myself out there and waiting for a response. I don't know what the response will be. I don't know when the call will come. I guess I often feel vulnerable when I think i'm really just generally irritable. I feel vulnerable.
Feeling vulnerable feels like having my attention scattered MILES away, to new york and texas. Like I have sensors out, taut and vibrating and waiting to be tripped. Like I have to be ON at any second. Like I can't relax. Like I'm caring what someone thinks. In my body, it feels like being small, at the center of the koosh, and someone could come make fun of me or rip off my sensors. Someone could look down on me. Someone could make fun of me. Someone could hurt my feelings. Like I have all these feelers out and someone could hurt them.
Feeling vulnerable feels like being on edge. Like there is an edge in me, separating my front facing from my interior. And the front facing is getting tired, sunburnt, crumbling as the day goes on.
Like I could cry at any moment. Like there's something above me that's going to drop on me. I'm waiting for something to get dropped on me. Like I'm cringing. Recoiling, shrinking. Feeling not good enough? I guess that's why "I am is enough" is working when i feel vulnerable.
Watch yourself thumbs down 2 songs on pandora because you've been listening to them for 9 years. Watch yourself tell yourself you need to focus so you can get to your transcript so you can get most of your vid done before the call. Ok I feel vulnerable, and when i feel vulnerable, i can feel how that feels in my body, and then remember I AM IS ENOUGH.
I am that i am and that I am is enough.
Watch yourself feel so grateful for mooji. Mooji realllly helps. I wonder what my 19 year old self would think about mooji. wow.
Watch yourself breathe in and stand here. Watch yourself move a round on your feet.
Ok so being vulnerable is caring about what other people think. If I stop caring, will I no longer feel vulnerable? When I say I am is enough, i know that to be true, and i don't really worry anymore. for a few minutes.
I am is enough. The fact that i am is enough. That I am is enough. I am. And I am that I am. And that I am is enough.
Watch yourself go on your phone to post some insta stories. Watch yourself notice the ego driven behavior. watch yourself breathe out and try to get back into the writing flow. writing makes me feel better, then i go on the gram... then im back to ... meh
watch yourself wonder if you should quit insta but you really don't want to bc you like a lot abou tit. watch yourself keep noticing movement out of the corner of your eye. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself stand here. watch yourself stand here. watch yourself wonder what time k will want to eat. watch yourself hope you get your transcript done before then. watch yourself wonder why you're not hungrier. watch yourself want to take a break from thinking about food for a while.
Watch yourself shift on your feet and wonder when you'll get this call. Watch yourself stand here and wonder when you'll get a text back. Watch yourself breathe in and consider all the moving parts and feel so grateful for your wife who helps so much with planning.
Watch yourself feel better now that you've done you're writing. Watch yourself laugh at the incorrect your. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself feel weird. WAtch yourself listen to teh chat sound.
Watch yourself really like this watch yourself format. No trying or forcing. Watch yourself feel excited about the concept of never trying or forcing again. I've let that shit go.
Breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
braething out i activate my throat chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out i activate my heart chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra
breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra
braething in i bring energy into my root chakra
breathing out i activate my root chakra
THANK YOU FOR THE MAGICK LIFE THANK YOU FOR THAT I AM IS ENOUGH!!!! THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME STAY AS I AM.