be the observer. observe the thoughts.
go into the body. observe the i am-ness.
how to observe the i am-ness?

I am. What does the being feel like? There are so many thoughts and words when i just want to sit still but i have this habit of having to write now...

Be the observer.
Who am i? WHo am i who is noticing the body standing here?
Who am i who is noticing the music? Who am I who is noticing memories and associations?
Who am i who is noticing the humidifiers? Who am I who is noticing the need to find this observer?

I know that the observer is seeking for itself.. how to rest the attention on the awareness itself?
I am awareness. I am aware of awareness. I am pure awareness.

how to feel my sense of being? my sense I AM?

i am trapped in the mind, looking for hows. i just want to be.
i want to just be. i want to just be. i want to be pure awareness. i want to stay as consciousness is.

it's the feeling of consciousness is. consciousness is here. i consciousness am here. never fear, i consciousness am here. consciousness is here. consciousness is here now. i am here now.

who is noticing hte breathing in? Who is noticing the urge for stimulation?
Who is noticing the little urges coming up? The little needs to controL? "No i should eat breakfast later so we don't get hungry at our haircuts"

"what should i eat for lunch. oh i already solved that. where is better music. what can i listen to that's as good as mooji but has no words. i am hungry. i am wanting to feel more awake. i wish i had time to meditate more this morning. what is this song."

i want to rest my attention on awareness. i want to rest attention on attention. i want to rest awareness on awareness. what is this awareness? who the fuck am i??

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

i am staying as consciousness is. consciousness is here.
i am waking up in the dream. i am here live judge.

i consciousness am here. consciousness is here. i consciousness is here. there is something, awareness, that is here before the thoughts. what is here before the i am??

awareness.

i / eye

i am here

who am i who is here? who am i who is noticing the anxiety about having to leave the house twice in a day?

who am i who is remembering a bad memory and getting angered by it? who is it who is angered? who am i who notices the anger? who am i who notices the memory?

how can i get there without words? how can i remember to do the self inquiry without words, without constant mental code repetition?

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

who is who notices being annoyed that linty just shit on the floor? who am i who notices the urge to interfere and take over on the clean up? who am i who notices the judgement? who am i who notices the anger? Who am i who notices the guilt? Who am I who notices the attention listening to K cleaning up the mess?

Who am i who notices the desire for liberation> Who am i who notices the desire for peace and space/ who am i who notices the desire for more meditation? who am i who has to get her money's worth of the deep dream service?

who am i who notices the attention seeking to see if there is enough coffee? who am i who notices the impatience? who am i who notices the need to control everything?

who am i who notices the anxiety? Who am i who notices the desire to find this fucking presence? Who am i who notices the paradox that i can't find presence when i'm looking for it??

Pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

who am i going through the motions? who am i who is seeking? the attention is seeking. who am i who watches the attention seek>? who am i who wants to stay as the watcher?

who am i who notices the mind almost solving the puzzle, but then finding something else to grab hold of? Who am i who knows this is not a puzzle?

who am i who notices the body? Who am i who notices being here? consciousness is here. i consciousness am here.

who am i who notices the desire to wake up in the dream? who am i who notices my hands typing? Who am i who notices the thinking about the attention?

who am i who notices the mind thinking about the appointment?
who am i who notices the anxiety that comes from the attention stretching out?
who am i who desires to keep the attention here now?
who am i who is here now?
who am i who has attention?
who am i who possesses the attention?

who am i who notices the beat on this song and doesn't like it?

who am i who notices frustration, that i can't quite get there? who am i who notices the body breathing in? who am i who notices the body breathing out.

who am i who notices this moment? who am i who tries to tell myself "stay as consciousness is"? Who am i who notices that it isn't a thought that is going to work forever? Who am i who notices????

WHO THE FUCK AM I!?

I know I am it but i want to FEEL IT/

Consciousness is here. I consciousness am here. consciousness is here. i consciousness am here. who am i who notices consciousness is here? who am i who notices the mind seeking? Who am i who notices the mind sending attention out? who am i who notices the breathing in? Who am i who notices the breathing out?

who am i who notices the mind just wanting to get the writing over with?

pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. pure awareness, i am. om.

stay as consciousness is.

consciousness is here. stay as consciousness is.

i consciousness am here now.
who am i who notices the mind wanting to hold onto these thoughts and make sure they work forever?? these thoughts are just pacifiers!!