Why Am I Here

Jessica Mullen

Why Am I Here

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself peel your eyes off of facebook. Watch yourself have a little headache, probably from the three cups of coffee and bottle of mtn dew at 8pm... Watch yourself breathe in and feel low energy today. Watch yourself breathe out and try to be nice to yourself. It's day 2. Chill. Watch yourself breathe out and stand here. Watch yourself listen to pandora. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself stand here. WAtch yourself want to get back to
consciousness is
watch yourself turn around to look at linty in the bed. watch yourself remember your dreams. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself breathe out. watch yourself feel a little sad. watch yourself stand here. watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself run through your to do list.

  • Clean flawcet
  • orders/mailbox
  • store
  • record
  • post vid
  • movie nite

WAtch yourself see it's really not that much to do... Watch yourself breathe out and try to relax. WAtch yourself want to have the patience and compassion of yesterday. watch yourself feel annoyed that you aren't as high energy but at the same time not have enough energy to be that annoyed. Watch yourself tell yourself to take it easy, be kind to yourself. Lean into it. Enjoy it. Let it happen. Let life live you. Trust the process. and on and on.

Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself stand up straighter. WAtch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself look at linty splayed out on the blanket looking cute.

I am saying yes to what is. Yes I am standing here. Yes i am shifting on my feet. Yes I am typing. Yes I am feeling some tension in my body. Yes I like my new morning handstand and backbend routine. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I am breathing in. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I am standing here. Yes I am letting go of my resistance.

Yes I am thinking about how bad is it really to buy factory farm eggs. pretty bad. let it go. watch yourself want to get some fucking eggs! but you have to wait til saturday.

watch yourself breathe in. watch yourself breathe out.

yes i am standing here hungry. yes i am overwhelmed a little. yes i just want to slow down and be conscious and present. consciousness is.

yes i am wanting more caffeine. yes i am breathing in. yes i am just dancing on the surface. yes i want to get to the root. why am i here/
to feel the feeling. consciousness is. to feel the feeling of god, of presence. to feel The Feeling. consciousness is.

Yes I am feeling pain in my calf. consciousness is.
pure awareness i am.

i consciousness am. consciousness is.

i am here to feel the feeling. consciousness is. pure awareness i am. i consciousness am. pure awareness i am. i am here to feel the feeling. to choose The Feeling.

breathing in i bring energy into my crown chakra
breathing out i activate my crown chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my third eye chakra
breathing out i activate my third eye chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my throat chakra
breathing out i activate my throat chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my heart chakra
breathing out i activate my heart chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my solar plexus chakra
breathing out i activate my solar plexus chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my navel chakra
breathing out i activate my navel chakra

breathing in i bring energy into my root chakra
breathing out i activate my root chakra

thank you for the pure awareness i am. thank you for the stabilization in consciousness is. thank you for establishing me in pure awareness. thank you for absorbing me. thank you thank you thank you

watch yourself not know what to write. you want to feel the feeling but how to get there with writing? gratitude? wouldn't it be nice? i am? i am loving? let's try that

i am loving spring. i am loving wearing a tank top in the morning. i am loving that we get to eat breakfast on the porch. i am loving that we got invited. i am loving having friends. i am loving remembering to smile. i am loving having plenty of money. i am loving having no problems. i am loving getting rid of the one who has trouble. who am i who notices the headache? consciousness is.

i am loving listening to pandora. i am loving being here now. i am loving breathing out. i am loving dancing to the music. i am loving practicing backbends. i am loving that i am standing here. i am loving lulu replacing books. i am loving breathing in. i am loving breathing out. i am loving that we get to eat soon. that will help the headache. i am loving that i am feeling better. i think i just got up a little too early. i am loving that i am bleeding. i am loving having my period. i am loving having my life the way it is. i am loving living in cleveland. i am loving feeling better already.

i am loving collecting my favorite thoughts even though the sky doesn't have favorite clouds.

i am loving that i am feeling better. i am loving being here now. i am loving lulu being our printer. i am loving breathing out.

i am loving being here now. i am loving breathing in. i am loving breathing out. i am loving that i can stay as consciousness is. consciousness is.

i am loving that i can just practice that feeling. i am loving that we get to go grocery shopping. i am loving being here now.

i am loving having mooji to teach me. i am loving the work i do. i am loving being consciousness. i am loving being pure awareness. i am loving relaxing away from my person. i am loving being here now. i am loving consciousness is. i am loving being pure awareness. i am loving being. i am loving relaxing. i am loving trusting. consciousness is. i am focused. i am in the flow. i am saying yes to what is. i am loving what is!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.

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