Who Am I??

Jessica Mullen

Who Am I??

Jessica Mullen
Who am I who notices me standing at the desk? Who am I who notices the pressure of "to do"?

To do:

  • Mailbox
  • Order dave's
  • Order kit
  • Pump
  • Apply for grant
  • Post vid
  • Custom (progress made!)
  • Record

Watch yourself feel annoyed. Who am I who notices feeling annoyed? Who am I who notices feeling tired at asking all the who am Is? Who am I who is noticing a feeling of defeat? Who am I who is breathing in? Who am I who is breathing out?

Who am I who notices feeling deflated? Who am I who notices feeling disappointed in myself? Who am I who notices feeling heavy? Who am I who notices the pressure of time? Who am I who notices feeling dread? Who am I who notices the feeling of not wanting to do something? Who am I who notices a feeling of depression/sadness?

Who am I who notices a feeling of lack, of wanting to hoard, of wanting to consume? Who am I who notices the desperate need to consume? Who am I who notices the feeling of wanting everything to be DONE? So I can relax? Who am I who notices the desire to relax?

Who am I who notices breathing in? Who am I who notices breathing out? Who am I who notices the feeling of annoyance? WHo am I who feels tired by all the noticing? Who am I who notices the feeling of tiredness?

Who am I who notices the desire to listen to Mooji explain it all to me? Who am I who notices the feeling of irritation? Who am I who notices the desire for stimulation? Who am I who notices the desires? Who am I who has the desires? Who am I who feels the imperfection? Who am I who notices the things I want to change?

Who am I who notices the attachment to how the body looks? Who am I who notices a feeling in the body? Who am I who notices the clinging to youth?

Who am I who notices the fear about the vax? Who am I who notices the urge to shop? Who am I who notices the irritation with my mind? Who am I who notices the mind scrambling to tell me what to do, what I Did wrong, what is wrong in reality?

Who am I who notices the thoughts? Who am I who notices the feeling of "ugh i have to do that still"?

Who am I who notices the feeling of obligation? Who am I who notices the feeling of anxiety? Who am I who notices that this writing isn't answering the question??

Who am I who notices the feeling of frustration? Who am I who notices the desire to be smaller, lighter, emptier?

Who am I who notices the feeling of nausea? Who am I who notices the desire for more kerfee? Who am I who notices the birds flying outside the windoW? Who am I who notices the hunger? Who am I who notices the desire to listen to Mooji? Who am I who notices the urge to hurry and check things off a list? Who am I who is so irritated? Who am i who notices the feeling of disgust, irritation, repulsion? Who am I who notices being repelled?

Who am I who notices the urge to redesign my website? Who am I who notices the urge to present myself as perfect, as beautiful, as brilliant? Who am I who notices the urge to present myself? Who am I who notices the caring what other people think? Who am I who notices the thoughts about my family? Who am I who notices the judging of others? Who am I who notices the pressure to eat less? Who am I who notices the rigid structures and plans in the brain?

Who am who notices the compulsion to input myfitnesspal food? Who am I who notices the desire to pick up my phone? Who am I who notices the desire to come up with good tweets? Who am I who notices the desire to LOOK GOOD to people online? Who am I who notices linty walking out of the room?

Who am I who notices a feeling of sadness when Linty leaves? Who am I who notices the awareness of mortality in everything i look at? Who am I who notices the desire to become numb? Who am I who notices the desire to FUCK IT ALL UP??

Who am I who notices the feeling of rebellion? Who am I who notices I like this music? Who am I who notices the deep breath in? Who am I who notices the knots my mind is turning in, asking this question over and over? Who am I who notices the desire to just be present without trying so hard?

Who am I??

Who am I who notices the ache in my body? Who am I who notices the dread of tasks piling up for a monday? Who am I who notices the discomfort of my weight? Who am I who notices a dissatisfaction with my weight? Who am I who notices the shame and guilt and regret and anger about my body? Who am I who notices the feeling of being out of control and wanting to say FUCK IT??

Who am I who notices the constant desire to control? Who am I who notices the constant judging of myself and others? Who am I who notices the anger of the mind? Who am I who notices the desire to sip water?

Who am I who notices the desire to simplify? Who am I who notices the caring what other people think? Who am I who notices the feeling of unfairness? Who am I who notices the crabbiness? Who am I who notices the blaming of other people for my mood? Who am I who notices the embarrassment of gaining weight?

Who am I who notices the music playing? Who am I who notices the dependence on coffee? Who am I who notices the tension in my head? Who am I who notices the desire for this day to be over so I don't have to suffer through the work of it? Who am I who notices the association with work and suffering? Who am I who notices the desire to avoid suffering? Who am I who notices the wanting to escape??

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.

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