Watch yourself feel frustrated about linty shitting everywhere. Watch yourself feel irritated about having to clean up shit. Watch yourself feel guilty for not wanting to deal with it. Watch yourself think about aryuvedic body types. Watch yourself wonder if you spelled that right. Watch yourself feel a little pessimistic and want to feel cheerful and good. Watch yourself want to blame everything outside of you for your bad attitude. Watch yourself want to be around other humans. Watch yourself feel nervous about the vax. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself remember your WHY: PRESENCE.

Watch yourself breathe in and try to be here now. Watch yourself breathe out and remember saying yes always brings you back.

Yes I am annoyed at people who don't reply to me on the gram. Yes I am annoyed at dishes left in the sink. Yes I am annoyed at having to clean up shitty pawprints. Yes I am annoyed that I don't have drugs like kratom or addy. Yes I am trying to remember my why is PRESENCE. Yes I want to be present. Yes I want to be the sense I AM. Yes I want to have a good attitude and have a fun day. Yes I am getting hungry. Yes I want to lose 7 pounds. Yes I am listening to linty cry in the other room like she does every morning.

Yes I am irritable. Yes I want to feel better. Yes I want kratom. Yes I want some sort of buffer between me and the world. Yes I feel like a raw irritated nerve. Yes I want to feel better. Yes I want to eat lighter. Yes I want to feel better. Yes I want to eat chicken lmao. Yes I want to relax. Yes I want less fatty sources of protein than nuts. Yes I want to have a good day. Yes I want to feel successful. Yes I just WANT TO BE PRESENT. Yes I want my thoughts to stfu. Yes I want to be here now. Yes I want to feel grateful. Yes I want to be here now.

I am grateful linty is alive. I am grateful for my wife who takes care of me and pets my hair while i process photos. I am grateful for plenty of money and to be able bodied so we can walk 2 mi to the grocery store. I am grateful for spring and better weather. I am grateful for the birds singing. I am grateful for my health. I am grateful to be invited to a wedding. I am grateful it's the weekend and i don't have any calls other than movie night. I am grateful we get to go on a walk. I am grateful for the humidifiers. I am grateful for time to write. I am grateful for amazon. I am grateful for class actions against amazon. I am grateful to feel better already. I am grateful for my computer and backup drive. I am grateful for my lighting and studio for my videos and photos.

I am grateful to be breathing and feel good in my body today. I am grateful to sreed for the birthday pizza. I am grateful to remember my why is presence. I am grateful I can stand at my desk to type. I am grateful we made the BMJ bc it always helps. I am grateful we get to travel this summer. I am grateful to always have plenty. I am grateful for my friends and family. I am grateful for my office.

Yes I am wanting to eat lighter. Yes I am wanting to be present. Yes I am wanting to feel better. Yes I am standing here at my desk. Yes I am listening to trucks outside. Yes I am annoyed with thinking. Yes I am trying to watch my thoughts. Yes I am wanting to feel the sense of I AM. Yes I want to do that meditation again. Yes I am breathing in. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I hope to feel better so i can record a good video of how i got out of this funk. Yes I need to leave the house today. Yes I want to feel better. Yes I want to have a good day. Yes I am annoyed that my mornings are always so irritating. Yes I am beating myself up for feeling irritated in the morning when I have such a good life. Yes I want to start having better mornings. Yes I want to start waking up in a good mood. Yes I want to be my reason for feeling good. Yes I want to feel good. Yes I just want to be present.

Yes I want to feel the sense I AM. Yes I want to be conscious of consciousness. Yes I want to enjoy being. Yes I want to cap the dirty angels. Yes I want to feel better. Yes I want to let go of trying to control so much.

yes I want to have the best day of my life. Yes I want to feel inspired to do the taxes. Yes I want the wild horses to do the taxes for me. Yes I want to have a good day. Yes I want to enjoy the walk. Yes I want to follow through on our walk plan. Yes I want to just be present. Yes I want the success of presence. Yes I want to feel better. Yes I know saying yes always helps.

Yes I am thinking about my parents. Yes I am thinking about my health. Yes I am thinking about if i'm almost done with my word count. Yes I want to feel better in my body. Yes I want to eat the bare minimum. Yes I want to remember to focus on stillness and silence and fasting. Yes I want to feel lighter. Yes I want to feel in control of my vibration. Yes I want to enjoy the day. Yes I want to surrender. Yes I want my shorts to fit me in the summer. Yes I want to feel in control. Yes I want to feel good. Yes I want to just be present. Yes I want to remember my why is presence!