Happy Spring!

Jessica Mullen

Happy Spring!

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself stand here. Watch yourself try to slow down and be here now. Watch yourself feel soooo groggy for whatever reason. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in and grasp at control. Watch yourself breathe out and remember you never had control.

WAtch yourself try to let go. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in and want to have a good day. Watch yourself breathe out and feel grateful it's spring!

Watch yourself breathe in and lighten up! Watch yourself breathe out and surrender. Stop beating yourself up.

Yes I am beating myself up. Yes I am feeling guilty or ashamed. Yess I am hearing things in this song I've never heard before. Yes I am breathing in. Yes i am breathing out. Yes I am letting go of my resistance. Yes I want to feel better. Yes I want to never do that again! Yes I am breathing out. Yes I am stressing myself out. Yes I am trying to let go and love what is. Yes I am trying to love what is. Yes I want to love what is. Yes I want to love what is can someone help me love what iss??

I am loving standing at my desk. I am loving that it's the weekend. I am loving breathing out. I am loving being here now. I am loving that I can be in control of my vibration. I am loving breathing out.

I am loving saying yes to what is. I am loving my actions and behaviors and habits. I am loving feeling groggy. I am loving being here now. I am loving remembering that we have to go to the mailbox. I am loving trying to distill down to the present granule of now. Yes I am trying to get to the motionless now, absolute zero. yes i am breathing out. yes i am breathing out. yes i am so happy it is spring.

yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am hoping to pull it together. yes i am breathing out. yes i am so groggy. yes i want to remember my power. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am hoping it all works out. yes i am wanting to switch the music but not interrupt the writing flow. yes i skipped the song. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out.

yes i am hoping to have a good day. yes i am intending to have a good day. yes i am wanting to be in control of my vibration. yes i am trying to slow down to the present where i can accept and say yes and flow and love. yes i just want to love. yes i just want to love. i want to slow down enough to love. yes i want to slow down enough to love.

yes i am realizing/remembering why i lost control of my vibration... didn't finish my numbers but more importantly yet again realized that i am reaching outside of myself for things to feel good and it runs out, it dries up, it stops working...

yes i am wanting to be my reason for feeling good i've wanted this for 11 years can i just be my reason for feeling good and stop reaching outside of myself!??!? yes i just want to love what is and let that be enough! can loving what is please be enough! can i love what is? can i slow down to love what is, all day every day? i feel like i am fucking up! i just want to slow down to say yes to what is and love what is.

i am loving what is. i am loving listening to this song. i am loving standing at my desk. i am loving trying to pull it together to have a good attitude. i am loving being here now. i am loving battling the usual mental demons. i am loving that i reach outside of myself to feel good and get burned every single time. i am loving that i am always reaching outside of myself to feel good. i am loving that i am mad at myself for doing it yet again. i am loving that it's getting easier to bounce back i guess?? at least it's not alcohol. or whatever.

i am loving that i have my call today. i am loving trying to be a good person. i am loving getting lost in mental battles about should i or shouldn't i. i am loving being here now. i am loving feeling groggy. i am loving breathing in. i am loving feeling more successful every day. i am loving breathing in. i am loving breathing out. i am loving relaxing into the now. i am loving getting interrupted and distracted. i am loving saying yes to what is. i am loving wanting to get an old attitude back. i am loving that we'll be vaxxed soon.

i am loving stnading here and trying to focus. i am loving trying to decide if i should focus on yes or love or i am loving or love yeah love. i am loving trying to decide where to incorporate thank you.

i am loving remembering that daytime is for saying yes to what is and nighttime is for loving what is. i am loving that i can always bounce back. i am loving that i can always pick myself back up. i am loving learning new things every time. i am loving getting better at letting go of things that don't serve me. i am loving trusting the process of life. i am loving surrendering. i am loving lightening up! i am loving that i can say yes to what is and that will help...

yes i am groggy. yes i am beating myself up. yes i am mentally running over the sore spot with my mental attention tongue. yes i am breathing in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am clearing my mind. yes i am finding clarity. yes i am breathing in. yes my mind is becoming clear. yes i am saying yes to what is today. yes i am waking up in the dream. i am slowing my thoughts to the pace of my body. i am saying yes to what is. i am loving what is. thank you!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.