Watch yourself sit in the chair. Yesterday you took the standing desk down after doing body pump class and walking 4 miles. Watch yourself wonder if you'll go on a walk today. Watch yourself breathe in and wonder if you got enough sleep. Watch yourself breathe out and try to relax your body and get comfortable. Watch yourself feel excited about birthday week! Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out.

Watch yourself remember you're floating in an infinite abyss of space. Watch yourself remember to not take it too seriously. Watch yourself want to feel appreciated. WAtch yourself want to feel loved. Watch yourself want everything you want to come to you. What do you want?

Attention from my family lol, for them to be proud of me, appreciative of me, approve of me, ugh. I want to be in a good mood naturally without chemical assistance. I want to do an ibogaine thing. I want more hamilton to listen to. I want to feel inspired to create something new. I want to feel a mechanical wind compelling me to finish all the admin and maintenance tasks on our SoLD list. I want to breathe fresh life into SoLD. I want to have epiphanies and feel the best I've ever felt. I want to the euphoria of finding a new way to transcend thought. I want one way of transcending thought to work forever. I want to be in a good mood all day every day. I want to feel good regardless of my circumstances. I want to know if i should eat my peanut butter cup for breakfast. I want to know the calories in the peanut butter cup.

I want to have the best birthday ever. I want to have a drug that always works. I want sold to make a drug that always works. i want to be a mind pharmaceutical company. I want to create materials that generate the drugs in the mind. I Want to find a new way to energize myself. I want the energy food to work better and better. I want to want to do the hemisync tapes more. I want to be cheerful and chipper and upbeat. I want to record my best video yet. I want my youtube channel to gain 7k subs overnight. I want to be an overnight success 10 yrs in the making. I want to be in demand. I want to be loved and respected and admired and desired by millions.

I want to make my best work. I want to stop suffering. I want to help other people stop suffering. I want to provide an alternative to drugs. I want to create mental drugs. I want to reduce my dependence on coffee and weed. I want to reduce my dependence on caffeine and cannabis. I want to stop wanting kratom. I want to help.

I want to feel successful. I want to never resist working out again. I want a massage. I want to feel the most energized i've ever felt, naturally. I want to get better at managing my thoughts and mind.

I want to be naturally loving and allowing. I want to be at peace with what is. i want to feel really good about myself. I want to be totally in love with myself! I want to have fun and not give a fuck. I want to feel excited and ready for this long bike ride. I want to feel fearless. I want to not care if i live or die. I want to feel safe on my bike. I want to remember i'm in an abyss. I want to remember the big picture.

Yes I'm sitting in this chair. Yes I wish I was standing but don't want to go through all that to put the desk together when i'll just take it down later.

Yes I am breathing in. Yes I am breathing out. Yes I want to feel good about myself. Yes I want to "crack the code" of feeling good regardless of circumstance. The Work really helps but it's losing its flavor.

Yes I am feeling frustrated today. Yes I am hungry. Yes I want to create something new. Yes I want to feel inspired. Yes I want to do a hemisync tape to get some direction. Yes I want the energy food to work better and better every day. Yes I want to be in focus 12 more. Yes I want to feel good about myself and waste less time. Yes I want to take advantage of every moment, not necessarily being productive but enjoying life. Being present. Yes I want to be present every moment of my life.

Yes I want to feel better. Yes I don't feel bad but I want to feel FLYING HIGH. Yes I want to feel better and better. Yes I want to be my reason for feeling good. Yes I want to have the best day of my life!

Yes I want to feel focused and in love. Yes I want to feel loved. Yes I want to feel appreciated. Yes I want to accept it as it is. yes I want to accept it as it is.

I am focused. I am flexible and flowing. I am saying yes to what is. I am loving what is. I am in the flow. I am doing everything right. I am totally in love with myself! I am making my best work! I am feeling better and better! I am my reason for feeling good. I am feeling the best I've ever felt. I am focused on being present. I am the abyss. I am saying yes to what is. I am loving what is! I am doing everything right ! I love myself and I don't give a fuck!

I am letting life live me. I am so grateful to be here. Everything is perfect and in its place. It's all working out for me. I feel the best I've ever felt! I love myself! I am totally in love with myself!