Pandy Struggs

Jessica Mullen

Pandy Struggs

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself feel a little down and claustrophobic. Watch yourself feel like your good pandemic attitude is waning a little... Watch yourself feel down today. Watch yourself be mad at yourself for being depressed over something so stupid. Watch yourself feel bad for feeling stupid. Watch yourself feel in this annoying cycle you've been in since undergrad.

Watch yourself breathe in and want to lighten up. Watch yourself breathe out and want to feel better. Watch yourself feel betrayed by your body. Watch yourself feel so perplexed. Watch yourself know what you have to do and know you're not going to do it. Watch yourself chat K about the gas bill. Watch yourself want to feel better. Watch yourself feel frustrated. Watch yourself feel tormented. Watch yourself watching these emotions and give them permission to move on.

Watch yourself listen to the emancipator remixes album and absolutely love it. WAtch yourself feel so grateful for good music to listen to. WAtch yourself feel grateful you snagged a whole foods delivery slot. Watch yourself miss your family. Watch yourself feel sad like you're going to cry about this fucking pandemic it's so fucking annoying i want to see my friends and family i'm OVER IT!

Watch yourself feel grateful it's almost march. Watch yourself miss your dad. Watch yourself wish you had something to talk to him about. Watch yourself miss your family so bad.

Watch yourself cry and feel sad, then email your parents about your lake adventure. Watch yourself feel a little overwhelmed with your routine. Watch yourself feel like giving up. Watch yourself want to have a good attitude and feel better. Watch yourself feel disappointed in yourself that you're not feeling/doing better. Watch yourself want to have a good day. WAtch yourself want to do The WOrk on your thoughts but you're having a hard time....

THIS PANDEMIC NEEDS TO END.
Is that true? Yes
Can you really know it's true? No
How do you feel when you believe that thought? Frustrated and sad and lacking
Who would you be without that thought? Just living my life and not missing people so much
Turn it around: This pandemic doesn't need to end. My thinking needs to end.

I NEED TO MEET MY NIECE
Is that true? YES
Can you really know it's true? No
How do you feel when you believe that thought? Like I'm missing out, like heartbroken
Who would you be without that thought? At peace, just living life
Turn it around: I don't need to meet my niece. I need to meet my thinking.

Ok the work always works how annoying. I need to meet my thinking.

Yes I am sitting in this chair. Yes I am frustrated. Yes I want to do this inquiry all day every day. What else?

I SHOULD WEIGH 10 POUNDS LESS
Is that true? YES
Can you really know it's true? No
How do you feel when you believe that thought? Like a failure, confused, angry, frustrated, disappointed, self hate
Who would you be without that thought? Accepting. Have time and energy to think about other things.
Turn it around: I shouldn't weigh 10 pounds less. My thinking should weigh 10 pounds less.

Haha.

Yes I am sitting in this chair. Yes I am grateful I got a whole foods order in. Yes I am grateful my family is all still breathing. Yes I miss pwny. Yes I wish it were easier to do this work moment to moment. Yes I want to feel better. Yes I want to feel inspired and creative. Yes I want to feel better. Yes I want to have a good day. THANK YOU FOR THE GOOD DAY.

Yes I want to feel energized. Yes I want to have fun. Yes I want life to feel like it has meaning and a point. Yes I want to be in a good mood. Yes I want to have a good day.

Yes I want to love myself and not give a fuck. Yes I want to have fun and feel good. Yes I want to feel good about myself> Yes I want to feel totally in love with myself. Yes I want to accept myself exactly the way I am. yes I want linty to come back in here! Yes I want to feel less sad. Yes I want to feel less sad about being almost 40! Yes I want to feel better. Yes I want to feel like my life has purpose. Yes I want to lean more into being an artist. Yes I want to make art. Yes I want to feel creative and inspired.

Yes I want to have a good day. yes I want to be nicer to myself. Yes I want to know why the fuck my body is acting the way it is. Yes I want to feel better and focus on art. The only art I care about is detangling my thoughts, stopping my thoughts, meeting my thoughts with understanding, meeting my thinking. I want to make art about meeting my thinking. I want connie to email me. I want LOVE and CONNECTION! I want to see some other people! I want to see friends and family! I want to have fun! I want to be in the sun! I want to feel good about life! I want to feel good about life! I want to feel relieved! I want to feel inspired! I want to make good work!

I want to record my best video yet. I want to record my best tiktok yet. I want to feel inspired to write an article about major epiphanies. I want to make some colorful painting art that makes me feel really good to make. I want to MAKE ART. I want making art to consume me. I want to make my best work. I want to feel successful. I want to be present. I want to feel the success of being present for real. I want to be my reason for feeling good. I want to feel better!

I am focused. I am an artist. I am creating. I am making my best work. I am totally in love with myself. I am flexible and flowing. I am feeling better by the minute. I am letting life live me. I am saying yes to what is. I am loving what is. I am present! I am here! I am doing everything right!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.