Watch yourself sit in the chair. You have 25 minutes. Watch yourself start the deep dream dreaming. Watch yourself breathe in and feel a pain in your back. Watch yourself breathe out and sit up straight. Watch yourself tighten your abs to try to have good posture. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself feel a little deprived. Watch yourself feel a little crabby today. Watch yourself want kratom. Watch yourself wish you could handle taking it for years. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself listen to linty cry. Watch yourself wonder why she's so talkative now. Watch yourself breathe out and try to focus. Are you the creator??

Watch yourself remember you are the creator. If you are the creator, what should you do? Decide how it is.

Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself feel frustrated that everything doesn't go exactly the way you want it. Watch yourself breathe in and feel how much you want to control. Watch yourself treasure these quietish morning moments of writing. Watch yourself want to make your best work again. Watch yourself want to go back to feeling how you did saturday. WAtch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself look out the window and see it's raining. WAtch yourself feel grateful it's not snow. Watch yourself backspace typos and remember going to the lake yesterday.

Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself wonder why linty won't come in here. Watch yourself wonder how to have a good day with a bad attitude. Watch yourself tell yourself the process from the BMJ

Gratitude
Consciousness
Focus
I am

Grateful for my health and home and wife and linty. Grateful to always have plenty. Grateful to have plenty of money and groceries. Watch yourself feel a little stale and stagnant and remember that this is your fallow period, you're fertilizing the earth.

Watch yourself feel impatient for spring. Watch yourself want someone else to clean the toilet. Watch yourself feel curious about your thoughts, that's a good sign. Watch yourself want to have breakthroughs and epiphanies. Watch yourself want to come up with something good to talk about on the fun show. Watch yourself want success and tell yourself success is not the goal. Success is in this moment. Right now you are successful at getting up at 8:30 am and writing. Watch yourself want to be as enlightened as Byron Katie. Watch yourself wonder how to get to that state. Watch yourself want to have an ego death experience. Watch yourself feel so tired of your ego. Watch your ego feel tired of itself.

Watch yourself want to get back into the hemisync tapes. Watch your mind come up with excuses why you feel off. Watch yourself want to finish your writing before K gets up. Watch yourself listen to the pot banging in the kitchen. Watch yourself feel like you've really let your cleaning duties slide. Watch yourself make a list of all the things to clean, the flawcet, the potty, the toilet, the shower, the dehydrator, the filing cabinet, the vacuuming, the litter boxes, your body.

Watch yourself want to have a great day. Watch yourself telepathically tell linty to get the fuck in here. Watch yourself miss your quest bars that you cut out because they seem like they're not really helping your body.

Watch yourself breathe out and want to have a great day. Watch yourself tell yourself you have to let go of control and stop trying to force things so much. You have to say yes to what is.

Yes I am sitting in this chair. Yes linty came in here the second i started saying yes. Yes I am feeling better already. Yes I am dreading pump a little, but not really. Yes I am craving a little external help like kratom or adderall or whatever. Yes I am wishing for drugs. "What can I take?" Yes I am feeling incomplete, yes I am feeling not good enough on my own. Yes I am trying to watch my thoughts. Yes I am breathing in and feeling tension in my back. Yes I am breathing out and feel tense. Yes I just want to say yes to what is and be good natured and easy going and chipper and cheerful and not so uptight and tense and critical.

Yes I am breathing in. Yes I am realizing that i am the source. Yes I am the creator. Yes I am doing everything right. Yes I want to make my best work. Yes I want to record my best video. Yes I want to be more successful. Yes I want more external motivation (jk). Yes I want more success. Yes I want more sales and orders and payments and subscribers. Yes I want to make more subscriber content. Yes I want epiphanies I can sell as products.

Yes I want to listen to my music. Yes I want to have fun. Yes I want to feel good about myself and my body. Yes I want to lighten up and enjoy the day.

Yes I am sitting in the chair. Yes I am the creator. Yes I want to list my favorite thoughts. Yes linty is cute looking out the window.

I am focused. I am creative. I am the creator. I am saying yes to what is. I am loving what is. I am flexible and flowing. I am allowing well being to flow. I am focused. I am making my best work. I am saying yes to what is and I am playful and accepting and understanding. I am loving what is. I am totally in love with myself. I am already perfect, wow! I am at peace with what is. I am doing everything right,. I am making my best work right now.

I am focused. I am loving what is. I am saying yes to what is,.

Yes it is time to start my day. Yes I am allowing a good attitude. Yes I am making my best work. Yes I surrender. I surrender. I let go.