Watch yourself want to feel better. Watch yourself decide to feel better. You have 18 minutes to feel better. WAtch yourself tell yourself, "I AM LOVING WHAT IS! I AM SAYING YES TO WHAT IS! STOP SUFFERING!"

Watch yourself beat yourself up. Watch yourself forget everything you learned from that book already. WAtch yourself feel too warm already. Watch yourself want drugs already. Watch yourself want drugs! WAtch yourself want kratom! Watch yourself want something!

Watch yourself struggle with sobriety on this even of 5 years sober from alcohol. Watch yourself want to loosen up, lighten up, STOP SUFFERING! Watch yourself remember alcohol definitely won't stop your suffering, nor will kratom. Only you can stop your suffering. Watch yourself want to return to the BK book to remember how to stop suffering.

I know it's because I'm believing thoughts that aren't true but I feel trapped.

Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out. WAtch yourself want to feel better. WAtch yourself want relief. Watch yourself want to separate yourself from your thoughts and urges. WAtch yourself want to be the watcher. Watch yourself want to watch the thoughts and observe the thoughts and stop relating to the thoughts.

WAtch yourself beat yourself up for the loss of control. Watch yourself want to feel better!

Watch yourself want to pull it together and have a great day. WAtch yourself want to feel flying high! Watch yourself want to feel relieved! Watch yourself wonder how many self help books you'll have to read to feel better permanently. Watch yourself want to stop suffering permanently. Watch yourself just NOT ABLE TO UNDERSTAND WHY THIS IS HAPPENING.

WAtch yourself tell yourself to accept what is, love what is, say yes to what is. Watch yourself tell yourself,

I'm going to stop pretending I don't like struggling with ________. I'm giving myself permission to enjoy struggling with ________. HAVING IS EVIDENCE OF WANTING!

Ok so having is evidence of wanting....

Watch yourself breathe in and at least feel better from a little writing. WAtch yourself breathe out and feel relieved to be doing your writing first thing again. Watch yourself want to feel better, so you make your list and collect your favorite thoughts.

How did i get "stop suffering" to work yesterday??

It works the best when resisting, I guess I'm not resisting as much? Now today I am beating myself up, judging. Feeling sorry for myself. Wanting to whip my body. Hahahahahaha

STOP SUFFERING.
Sounds like a parent telling a child. Just stop suffering!

WAtch yourself want to feel better, want to feel optimistic, enthusiastic about this day. Watch yourself want a deeper transformation. I know i have thoughts I believe that aren't true!

WHat are you believing that is hurting you?
I should restrict more. I should weigh less. I should feel better.

NONE OF THOSE THOUGHTS ARE TRUE. It is what it is. That's all it is. My story is hurting me. LET THE STORY GO!!

How to let the story go???
HOW DO YOU FEEL WHEN YOU BELIEVE THOSE THOUGHTS??
Like a failure, a loser.

WHO WOULD YOU BE WITHOUT THE THOUGHTS??
Calm, peaceful, able to focus on enjoying life.

SO LET THE THOUGHTS GO! Turn them around.
I shouldn't restrict more. I shouldn't weigh any less. I shouldn't feel any better.

Ok but I still don't feel better. I still don't necessarily believe those thoughts any less.

Trapped in old patterns! Dismiss the urge! Dismiss the thoughts! Rise above your thoughts! Stand up to your thoughts! THAT'S NOT ME! STOP SUFFERING!

Today I intend to stop suffering. I intend to dismiss the urges... I intend to feel better! I intend to love. I intend to accept what is. I intend to make peace with what is. I intend to love myself and not give a fuck! I intend to lighten the fuck up! I intend to make my best work! I intend to get out of my head! I intend to be the watcher! I intend to love what is! I AM LOVING WHAT IS. I AM A LOVER OF WHAT IS. Anything else is painful insanity! It is what it is.

I am focused. I am in the flow. I am saying yes to what is. I am already perfect wow! I am loving what is. I am focused. I am doing everything right. I am in the right place at the right time. I am surrendering. I am in the flow. I am living the magick life! I am focused. I am surrendering. I am letting go of my thoughts. I am stopping my suffering. I am dismissing the urges. THAT'S NOT ME! I am free. I am letting the patterns go. I am letting the beliefs go. I am choosing to stand up to my thoughts. I am choosing to stop obsessing. I am choosing to feel better.

Here's today's list:

1. Grit
2. Record
3. 5 yr sober article
4. Orders

Easy list!

Watch yourself want to accept what is and stop fighting what is. Watch yourself tell yourself

I AM LOVING WHAT IS
I AM SAYING YES TO WHAT IS
YES THANK YOU
STOP SUFFERING
URGE DISMISSED
THAT'S NOT ME!

Watch yourself breathe in and try to force the feeling better. WAtch yourself breathe out and tell yourself

I've noticed I am having trouble being the watcher of my thoughts, and that's ok. I've noticed I am struggling with relating to my thoughts, and that's ok. It's working itself out.

I've decided to feel good about watching my thoughts. It's working itself out.

GIVE ME A THOUGHT THAT WORKS!!

It is what it is.
It is what it is. It is what it is. It is what it is.

LET ME BE FREE OF THE TYRANNY OF MY MIND!!

As BK says, "There is nothing more exciting than loving what is."

I AM LOVING WHAT IS.

What is is.

And today's thoughts will be:

• Stop suffering.
• That's not me. I am already perfect.
• There is nothing more exciting than loving what is!