watch yourself sit in the chair. watch yourself resist a lot of things but at least you can see it. yes i am resisting. yes i am sitting in this chair. yes i want to read my book. yes i want to feel relieved. yes i want solutions. yes i want to feel better. yes i want more new music to listen to. yes i am hungry. yes i am sad. yes i am sitting in an awkward position to accommodate linty.

yes i feel bad for pwny. yes i am sad. yes i am sad. yes i am sad. yes i am resisting aging. yes i am resisting death. yes i am resisting. yes i just want to read my book. yes i want to feel better. yes i just want to be left alone. yes i just want to meditate. yes i forgot to meditate yesterday. yes i need to send thank you cards. yes i need a list.

1. mailbox
2. shower
3. record
4. call
5. walk
6. meditate
7. write c thank you
8. medicaid forms
9. mmr cover
10. movie night

yes i am hungry. yes i am waiting as long as i can to eat breakfast so i can eat lunch late so i can make it to a late dinner. yes i am feeling a little uptight. yes i am feeling sad. yes i am listening to lil peep. yes i am braething in. yes i am breathing out. yes i am excited to drink more coffee. yes i am sitting here. yes i am here. yes i am. yes. i am.

yes i am sitting uncomfortably. yes i am grateful for linty in my lap. yes i am feeling numb. yes i am here. yes i am noticing the humidifiers humidifying. yes i am grateful for comments. yes i am fearing the worst. yes i am anxious. yes i am wondering what i should do

yes i am sad. yes i am here now. yes i am tortured by time. yes i NEED to read more of this alan watts book. yes i am feeling a little down. yes i am feeling a little annoyed. yes i am embracing every change.

yes i am sitting here. yes it is sunny. yes i am so grateful it's sunny. yes i am sitting here. yes i see a bird fly by. yes i am exited for spring. yes i am resisting change. yes i am resisting death. yes i feel so responsible. yes i feel like i am not doing enough. yes i am worried. yes i am anxious. yes i am accepting it all. yes i am facing it. yes i am facing it. yes i am facing it. yes i am craving. yes i am craving numbing. yes i am craving. yes i am feeling physically good. yes i am feeling good in my body.

watch yourself start to feel a little better.

breathe in and bring energy into your crown chakra
breathe out and activate your crown chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your third eye chakra
breathe out and activate your third eye chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your throat chakra
breathe out and activate your throat chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your heart chakra
breathe out and activate your heart chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your solar plexus chakra
breathe out and activate your solar plexus chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your navel chakra
breathe out and activate your navel chakra

breathe in and bring energy into your root chakra
breathe out and activate your root chakra

thank you for helping pwny. thank you for helping pwny not suffer. thank you for giving pwny a good life. thank you for pwny. thank you for pwny. thank you for helping pwny.

even though i am sad, i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself. even though i am anxious, i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself. even though i am uncomfortable, i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself. even though i am resisting change, i still totally and completely love and accept and forgive myself.

i am switching to the version of reality i prefer. in the reality i prefer, i am in the right place at the right time. i am focused. i am saying yes to what is. i am surrendering my preferences. i am saying yes to change. i am in the flow. i am flexible and flowing. i am letting life live me. i am at peace with what is. i am letting life live me. i am at peace with what is. i am light. i am here now. i am saying yes. i am present.

i am focused. i am saying yes to what is. i am already perfect, wow! it is already perfect! wow!

i am focused. i am in the flow. i am letting life live me. i am focused. i am at peace with what is. i am doing everything right. i am trusting the process of life. i am letting go of my resistance.

i am letting go. i am light. i am trusting the process of life. i am love yeah love. i am saying yes. i am going with the flow. i am here now. i am letting go. i am at peace with what is. i love myself and i don't give a a fuck! i am focused. i am having the time of my life! i am present.

yes
i am
focused
already perfect
nam myoho renge kyo

i am conducting
i am focused
i am making my best work
i am riding the flow
i am present
i am at peace with what is
i am letting go

i am saying yes to what is.
i am saying yes to what is.

yes to this music. yes to hoping i like it. yes i want to make more. yes i want to feel creative. yes i want to turn this pain into art.