I AM 2021

Jessica Mullen

I AM 2021

Jessica Mullen

Welcome to my 2020 review and intentions for 2021! I have been blessed beyond belief this year, and I am excited to ride the flow into 2021. 2020 was the first year School of Life Design went in the black. My wife and I survived 9 months of pandemic. My kitties are alive and well. My family and friends are alive and well. I maintained my fitness routine and weightloss. I am more focused than ever. I filled an entire book with miracles. We published our best journal yet. We visited Illinois in the summer and went camping in September. I'm in the middle of a deep dive into the Gateway Experience Hemi-sync tapes. We upgraded to a color laser printer, I got a medical marijuana card, and we're able to afford regular grocery delivery. I started a successful 0nlyfans account and have so much fun with it.

To celebrate this tumultuous, exciting, and restful year, I've answered selected prompts from Soul Communion 2020 by Tasha Nassar and Monique Mitchell. I found Tasha on Twitter a while ago and her tweets are uplifting and inspiring, and I had fun with her workbook. I love having closure at the end of a year and a focus for the new one. Cheers to the best year of our lives!

What were your top three themes for 2020?

  • Say yes to what is
  • Focus
  • It's already perfect, wow!

What did 2020 teach you?

  • It's all unfolding perfectly.
  • To take my medicine.
  • Relearned again and again: chanting really truly works.

What did you release in 2020?
Air travel. Trying to control so much.

What did you discover about yourself in 2020?
I AM is my ultimate creative power.

What were you most grateful for in 2020?
Kelly, my kitties, my home, my health. My friends and family. Unemployment, grants, grocery delivery, sobriety, medical MJ, ebooks, Les Mills On Demand, alien activity, hemi-sync tapes, Zooms with friends, tea, quitting kratom for real this time.

Where did you surprise yourself in 2020?
I am a natural alien conjurer.

What made you smile in 2020?
Our neighborhood, zooming with R, my meditation videos, kitties, the occasional adventure by car, Cleveland, hemi-sync focus 12, endless inside jokes w/ K.

What conclusions did you reach in 2020?

  • Focus is the best use of energy: chanting, counting, conscious breathing.
  • I truly can trust the process of life. And when all else fails, chant NMRK.
  • I AM is my power.
  • It's already perfect, wow!

How did you celebrate or acknowledge your accomplishments? (If you didn’t, how could you do this next time?)
Miracle collection zine. "Going to the movies." Camping. Renting a car and getting medical! Car rentals are a super fun way to celebrate.

List three challenges that you were tested with this year.
Pandemic. Website going down. Going unconscious.

How did you deal with the challenges? What new tools could help you in the future?
Meditating/going within/hemi-sync. Working out, walking. Chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo. Thinking/feeling "Already perfect, wow!" Flipping the narrative with I AM. Saying yes to what is.

List three things that went really well for you this year. What are you most proud of?

What skills helped you make it happen?
Investigating my resistance to working out (the answer from hemi-sync land: TAKE YOUR MEDICINE!). Setting deadlines and meeting with R to stay accountable for the journal. Religiously using Myfitnesspal. Focusing on presence. Watching my cravings/seeking/reaching for things outside of me to feel good.

How has your life changed in 2020?
Financially stable. School of Life Design pays our monthly expenses. Kratom free. Embracing pandemic. Ordering Whole Foods. Better friends with the mail carrier. Twice weekly zooms with our friend--see him more than ever. Onlyfans success!

If you could use one word to describe 2020, what would it be?

What is your word for 2021?

If you lived and breathed your word every day in 2021, what would be different for you?

What are you looking forward to in 2021?

  • Having the courage to be disliked.
  • Making my best work.
  • Having the best days of my life.
  • Feeling the best I've ever felt.
  • Being a powerful witch.
  • Living the magick life.

What lessons are you bringing into 2021?

  • When scared or powerless: NMRK
  • When angry or unfocused or neutral or bored: counting
  • Resisting or crabby: Breathe in and say yes to what is breathe out and say yes to what is
  • Overwhelmed or stressed: Already perfect. Wow!
  • Confident or excited: breathing in i am god breathing in breathing out i am god breathing out
  • Hopeful to flying high: I AM

How do you plan on remaining in your power in 2021?

  • Say yes to what is
  • see it as already perfect
  • chant nam myoho renge kyo
  • practice silent counting
  • breathe consciously

What are you ready to embody?

List 3 things you love about yourself.

  • dreamy
  • fun
  • weird

List 3 dreams/goals you would like to manifest this year.

  • Focus
  • Presence
  • Adventure: Regular conscious astral travel

List 3 new thoughts/affirmations that will support your dreams/goals.

  • NMRK, counting
  • Say yes to what is, it's already perfect, wow!
  • I AM

I feel energised when...
I hemi-sync, exercise, take my medicine, record/post meditations, have a routine

When I am hurting, the kindest thing I can do for myself is...
chant NMRK or count (FOCUS) or sleep

I feel safest when...
bringing walmart groceries up the stairs n we have a car rental

A gift I will give myself once a week in 2021 is...
The Fun Show!

Write the words you need to hear for 2021....
It's already perfect! You're already perfect! Wow

Dear Jessica,
Keep trusting the process. You really are getting so good at it. Let yourself relax a little more, and enjoy it a little more. You got the medical because it's your medicine. Take your medicine. Keep taking your medicine. Breathe in and trust. Breathe out and trust. How do you trust? You say yes to what is. And when you can't say yes to what is, you chant NMRK.

Breathe in and be here now. Breathe out and congratulate yourself on how far you've come. Let the flow through you. You let the flow through you every day. Surrender, let go. Let go of your awareness. Let go of your awareness of it. Let go of your awareness of it. Let go of your awareness of it. Let go of your awareness of it. Let go of your awareness of it and be here now. Breathing.

What to do when you can't drag your attention away? Focus. Count. Breathe. Laugh.

Breathe in and say fuck it!
Breathe out and let go! You're already doing it! It's already done!

You've come so far! You know it's already perfect! You're going deeper and deeper and learning to enjoy it more and more! Keep doing what you're doing! Everything is perfect and in its place and it always has been! It's already perfect, wow!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.