about that time

Jessica Mullen

about that time

Jessica Mullen
Grateful for my health and wife and kitties and home. Grateful for whole foods and walmart delivery. Grateful for our perfect home. Grateful for easy days and perfect timing. Grateful to be free. Grateful to always have plenty. Grateful for my perfect office. Grateful for la croix. Grateful for grocery money. Grateful the rent and bills are paid!

Grateful to feel better already. Grateful I can sleep whenever and how much I want. Grateful for my computer and phone and internet. Grateful for coffee. Grateful for tea. Grateful for humans. Grateful for music. Grateful for my family and friends. Grateful for the new journal! Grateful it's done! Grateful to let life live me. Grateful to have all the orders out. Grateful to relax into the now. Grateful to remember I can focus on my breath.

Breathing in I know I'm breathing in
Breathing out I know I'm breathing out

Watch yourself feel in a bad mood, kinda down. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself feel unsatisfied and blah. Watch yourself resist EVERYTHING! Watch yourself wish for some energy. Watch yourself wish for an addy script. Watch yourself reaching outside of yourself for ANYTHING. Watch yourself want kratom. Watch yourself want a drink.

Watch yourself wish for a wind. Watch yourself wish for something to look forward to that isn't food! Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself want to cry. Oh it's probably pms right on schedule, for the whole entire week before my period wow.

Watch yourself wish for something to talk about on the fun show. Watch yourself wish it was easier. Watch yourself wish for an attitude adjustment. Watch yourself breathe in and breathe out. Watch yourself remember you have to post your vid today. Watch yourself wish for some motivation. Watch yourself wish you would cry and get it over with.

Watch yourself know that all the scrolling isn't helping. Watch yourself feel grateful for the groceries. Watch yourself feel grateful for the grocery money. Watch yourself seriously want a prescription for addy or wellbutrin or something!!!!!!

Watch yourself breathe in and miss your parents. Watch yourself breathe out and feel a little better. Watch yourself feel pissed bc you haven't binged in a month and you're at your heaviest weight in months. WTF?!

Watch yourself feel pissed. Watch yourself want something to change. Watch yourself want something to feel passionate about!! Other than food!!! Watch yourself wish you were more into painting! Watch yourself want a creative outlet! Watch yourself want some creative passion! Watch yourself need a new project! Watch yourself have to sit the fuck down because this standing desk is OVER!

Watch yourself sit down and feel a little better. Watch yourself notice writing always works. Watch yourself still hate yourself lol. Watch yourself realize you need a little self compassion... Watch yourself feel like a failure! Like a loser! Watch yourself want to feel like a success! And a winner! Watch yourself WANT TO FEEL SUCCESSFUL!

Jessica I love and accept you exactly the way you are.

Breathe in and lighten up! It's not serious!
Breathe out and let go. It's not serious.

Watch yourself feel the twitch to go on twitter. Watch yourself like listening to nin. Watch yourself want a nin shirt. Watch yourself wish the new nin was good. Watch yourself wish for new music. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself wish you could make something as good as pretty hate machine. Watch yourself wish you were better. Watch yourself wish you were more successful. hahahahahahaha

Watch yourself remember you should shower. Watch yourself feel annoyed. Watch yourself want a pop. Watch yourself feel grateful the grapes from whole foods were good. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself wish for stimulants. Watch yourself tab to facebook and immediately close it. Watch yourself watch this youtube video. Watch yourself want to feel better. Watch yourself want to feel better!

Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out and want some tea. Watch yourself feel like you're not doing enough! Watch yourself tab to twitter and immediately start comparing yourself to others. Watch yourself CRAVING stimulation. Watch yourself want to have fun. Watch yourself want to see your family. Watch yourself want to travel. Watch yourself feel claustrophobic about this fucking virus. Watch yourself realize you're blaming something outside of yourself.

Watch yourself. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself want to shower.

Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself feel a little better.

WATCH YOURSELF WANT TO SWIM WITH DOLPHINS!!!
Watch yourself want to be inspired to make some really good art.
Watch yourself breathe in and wonder what you'll make next.
Watch yourself remind yourself to appreciate the journal you just published. Watch yourself want to make more!

Watch yourself want to feel better still. Watch yourself want something that feels good. Watch yourself want SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO!

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.