What am I interested in
Chess
Life coaching
weed n shrooms
meditation
attention training
magick life
tarot
photography n image making
cats
cooking
handstands / acro
flow
attention
music esp my halloween playlist rn

I want to feel better!

Watch youself stand here looking your gum wrappers
watch yourself feel like wilding
watch yourself wish for a creative outlet
watch yourself feel restless
watch yourself want some new interests
watch yourself change the playlist
watch yourself see the chat flash

watch yourself look in the pwny cam
watch yourself want something good to happen
watch yourself say i feel like something awesome is about to happen!
watch yourself say i feel like something awesome is about to happen!
watch yourself instantly think about what other people would think about that

watch yourself make a typo and backspace a lot
watch yourself wonder about this weird ass music
at least it's weird
watch yourself crave some of that high school goth passion
watch yourself want more for yourself
watch yourself want to PLAY and GO OUTSIDE and HAVE FUN with YOUR FRIENDS

watch yourself breathe in
watch yourself breathe out

watch yourself wonder if you should reply to that dm. watch yourself want to catch a wind. watch yourself remember craving kratom today for the first time in a while
watch yourself want to turn to food for comfort
watch yourself say to yourself you need to comfort yourself some other way
so i want to comfort myself
it's about to be winter
i want to see my friensd and family
but i'm just using that as my excuse to suffer
i want singular focus
i want passionate meditation
peak experiences
at least some sort of breakthrough''

watch yourself braethe in and catch a breath
watch yoruself try to remember to stop people pleasing
stop people [pleasing
be yoursel
fstop people pleasing
stop peoiple pleasing
stop peipole pelpasoakae

watch yourself feel your muscles ache watch yourself breathe in watch yourself see things out of the corners of your eyes
watch yourself invite it in
watch yourself open the connection
watch yourself welcome the new interests in
welcome new interests!
like candles in wine bottles
clove cigarettes
windows open to the november cold
cold pizza you forget to eat
eyeliner
ghosts
seances and ouija boards and black nail polish you paint over with red when it chips
safety pin piercings
too tired in the morning but it was such a good time

watch yourself feel the feeling of that time
it was so exciting
a whole new world to explore

and i am just now getting into...
tea
lol

watch yourself judge yourself but finally feel a little better because you're expressing yourself
you really needed an outlet

watch yourself breathe in watch yourself listen to the music
watch yourself breathe out watch yourself want to stop time
watch yourself want to have fun
and be around a lot of people, having fun and playing together
watch yourself feel ready

watch yourself braethe in
watch yourself breathe ou

watch yourself like this playlist
watch yourself roll your eyes because you got bored again
watch yourself want to remember your goth mindset
every moment was so important and fraught
every moment was so serious but so carefree
dark and fun how i like it
watch yourself feel an edge breaking through your skin, like a metal spine

watch yourself grow a metal spine
watch yourself breathe in
stop people pleasing is your next tattoo

be yourself
be yourself be yourself be yourself

haha i have no idae who that is
so i'll try to be myself
i am myself
i am
i am
i am myself
i am myself

it's not deep
it's be god
i am myself
i am god breathing out

breathing in i am god breathing in
breathing out i am god breathing out

watch yourself feel yourself catch yourself from the freefall
watch yourself actually enjoy the music and remember a bit about who you are
dark and light
very bad and very good
breathe in and remember to be yourself
you are god braething out

watch yourself chew more gum
but at least you're god breathing out

gotta keep that mindset
the god mindset
stay focused on the breath

breathing in i am god breathing in
breathing out i am god breathing out

dear jessica
remember this
writing always works
working out always works
walking always works
but really writing ALWAYS works

breathing in i am god braething in
breathing out i am god breathing out
i am no longer people pleasing
i please myself
it's what felix would do

maybe i should just rebrand to felix

breathing in i am god braething in
i am god breathing out

breathing in i am having the best day of my life
breathing out i wouldn't worry about all this if i was felix

felix cares about felix.

what would felix do?
dance
felix ulysses
f u

felix would just stand there looking around
thinking about what he wants

felix doesn't think about what other people are doing
felix DOESN'T CARE

felix is tough and stands up for himself
felix cares about felix

breathing out

breathing in i am god breathing in
breathing out i am god breathing out
never question the decision

watch yourself get lost in thought and realize
it's time to go back to I AM
it's fun to think and visualize but
I AM and that's all there really is to it

I AM whatever i fancy
i am felix
i am love yeah love
i am jessica mullen dot com
i am a powerful witch
i am successful
i am a star
i am letting go of my thoughts
i am at peace with what is
i am who i am
i am who i am supposed to be
i am who i want to be
i am
i am
i am

breathing in i am god breathing in
breathing out i am god breathing out