Watch Yourself Want to Feel Better

Jessica Mullen

Watch Yourself Want to Feel Better

Jessica Mullen
Watch yourself sit uncomfortably, not knowing how to sit in a way that doesn't hurt your back. Watch yourself think about your dad. Watch yourself feel your hair tickle your face and neck.

Watch yourself listen for K on the porch. The doorbell just rang. Watch yourself feel anxious. Watch yourself breathe in. WAtch yourself breathe out. WAtch yourself feel anxious. Watch yourself feel anxious. Watch yourself feel tension in your stomach and tightness on your heart.

Watch yourself feel relieved bc it was just the census. Watch yourself feel weird about this whole living in the world thing. Watch yourself take a sip of lime bubbly. Watch yourself set the can back down. Watch yourself shift your feet. Watch yourself wonder if you should put on more clothes. WAtch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out.

Watch yourself wonder where that smell is coming from. Watch yourself get goosebumps because it's so chilly. Watch yourself breathe in. Watch yourself breathe out. Watch yourself yawn.

Watch yourself feel anxious but better. Watch yourself want to record but not really feeling it today> Watch yourself miss the kratom. Watch yourself be annoyed.

Watch yourself feel self hate about the whole kratom thing. Watch yourself wish you had gotten that kneeling chair instead. Watch yourself wish for more kratom. Watch yourself feel terror about the reasons you can't.

Watch yourself miss your parents again. Watch yourself feel very missy today.

Watch yourself wish this withdrawal would be over. Watch yourself be annoyed you got into this situation again. Watch yourself wish you didn't have to cook. Watch yourself feel depressed. Watch yourself feel sad. Watch yourself want to cry again.

Watch yourself wish you could make better content. Watch yourself wish you thought more highly of yourself. Watch yourself wish for some good news. Even though you already got some. Watch yourself wish for more and more external signs that you're on the right path. Watch yourself wish for this withdrawal to be over by morning. Watch yourself wish you could feel better, back to normal, RIGHT NOW.

Watch yourself wish it was warmer. WAtch yourself already tired of shivering. WAtch yourself wonder if you're shivering from withdrawal or bc it's 74.7º.

Watch yourself wish for more success. Watch yourself wish just to feel better. Watch yourself wish for solutions. Watch yourself space out. Watch yourself keep tabbing back and forth to the chat.

Watch yourself listen to the windchime. Watch yourself feel anxious again because you have to make dinner in 8 minutes. Watch yourself wish you felt inspired. Watch yourself want to relax, get a massage. Watch yourself wonder about alternate paths your life could have taken.

Watch yourself try to focus! Watch yourself feel like you're wasting your life! Watch yourself feel pathetic! Watch yourself wonder if weed would help! Watch yourself feel anxious! Watch yourself feel a mess! Watch yourself wish things were different! Watch yourself feel annoyed!

===the next day===

Watch yourself feel annoyed. Watch yourself be tired of being annoyed. Watch yourself wish you had more direction. Watch yourself wish you could just do a drug. WAtch yourself want to feel better. Watch yourself feel grateful for the la croix. WAtch yourself feel uncomfortable in your chair. Again.

Watch yourself annoyed that all you want to do is watch tv. Watch yourself want to feel better. Watch yourself want to make music as good as early nine inch nails.

Watch yourself feel lethargic. Watch yourself wish for a good feeling. Watch yourself want to feel better. Watch yourself annoyed at these mood swings. Watch yourself feel angry...

Watch yourself want to feel better. Watch yourself think "JUST FEEL WHAT YOUR FEELING NOW AND STOP TRYING TO RUN FROM IT"

Watch yourself wonder what you're feeling.

Watch yourself feel tired and run down. Watch yourself feel so scared. Watch yourself feel irritated. Watch yourself feel overwhelmed. Watch yourself wish you could feel good without a drug. Watch yourself wish for an outlet. WAtch yourself wish for some nirvana or something.

Watch yourself feel the urge to open facebook or twitter. WAtch yourself crave distraction from feeling this way. Watch yourself feel dread about the future. WAtch yourself feel flat. WAtch yourself wish and wish and wish just to be comfortable in your chair. Watch yourself wish you could have an endless supply of uppers. WAtch yourself be so tired of yourself.

Watch yourself feel relieved about money. WAtch yourself wish to find the perfection in this moment. Watch yourself want to take a nap. Watch yourself want to be left alone.

Watch yourself wish you felt better. Wow is that all I ever think about? Wishing I felt better??

How can i be ok with how i feel now?
ugh i guess gratitude

i am grateful i don't have to go anywhere else today. i am grateful for medicaid. i am grateful for my family and friends. i am grateful to have a wife who takes care of me. I am grateful for brewnuts. I am grateful my weight was back down to 117.5 today. I am grateful for the internet and electricity and water.

I am grateful i at least get a chance to be here today.

Watch yourself wish you would just carpe diem. What tf do you want to seize?

Watch yourself feel so annoyed that you feel depressed. Watch yourself wish you didn't feel depressed. Watch yourself want to look at depressing covid news. Watch yourself feel too tired to be annoyed.

Jessica, I love and accept you exactly the way you are. Jessica, I love and accept you exactly the way you are.\\\

Breathing in I love myself
breathing out i don't give a fuck

Breathing in i love myself
breathing out i don't give a fuck

watch yourself try to watch. watch yourself feel weak. Watch yourself want to feel strong again. Watch yourself feel anxious. Watch yourself feel uncomfortable. Watch yourself look at gone batty. Watch yourself wonder if you should chew some gum. WAtch yourself not know what to want. Watch yourself feel dead inside. Watch yourself just want to feel better and like yourself again.

Watch yourself sit in the chair in yet another uncomfortable position.

Watch yourself yawn constantly.

WAtch yourself keep wanting to watch tv. Watch yourself wish for some compassion. Watch yourself tell yourself you don't deserve compassion because you did this to yourself.

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.
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