Quar day 15. Got up at 830 but went back to bed til 1030 because I Had a really bad headache. Too much coffee yesterday. Got up when K got a phone call from the oral surgeon to reschedule her consultation for wisdom teeth removal. No idea when we're going to resched that.
Listening to modest mouse and remembering Dan.
New bright eyes song out today, it's pretty good.
So the phone call woke us up, and we had to quickly eat breakfast and get ready so we could walk to the mailbox before 12:30 pickup. We had 3 orders to take! So grateful for orders! So grateful!!!
So we walked to the mailbox and it was pretty cold out, 38 or something. But the fresh air felt incredible. Last time we went outside was friday on the balcony, and wednesday was the last time we like, left the property.
The walk really helped me feel better.
Came home and sat in my office for a minute, doing a little bookkeeping. Then we started a loaf of bread in the bread machine.
Then... hmm... did some scrolling. Then we meditated. I miraculously stayed awake, though didn't really have any epiphanies today. Still really into "What's the activity" idea from yesterday.
Then K called her dad and I tried calling home but no answer. We're both hungry waiting for this loaf of bread to be done, so we went upstairs to pass a little more time and get rid of my headache. Finally sat myself down to do my writing. Kind of dragging my feet today, trying to give myself a rest day, but also trying to remember that scrolling is not restful.
So my headache is gone and I'm debating more coffee. Probably will wait til I eat a piece of toast. So grateful to have plenty of flour and yeast and oil. Thank god we're stocked on pantry stuff.
Only pending errand is getting cash sometime... idk when. I mean, it's not that risky right? Just one atm. Don't even have to go to the check out counter.
The quar is nice and peaceful and I Do really enjoy it. But I want a few normal things... like not being afraid to go to the rite aid. I'm sure I'll get over it sometime soon. Also, once all this tylenol gets delivered next week I guess I'll feel a little more confident. Such a weird time.
Today I am so grateful for our plumbing and treated city water.
I am so grateful for linty in my lap. I am so grateful for my perfect wife who takes care of me and who teamworks everything with me. I am so grateful to have a washing machine in the basement that only we use. I am so grateful for spotify and showtime and my phone. I am so grateful to have internet. I am so grateful that when I tear my attention away from my phone, life is pretty great.
I am so grateful to have money for rent in april. I am so grateful to have money to pay the power bill. I am so grateful to have a stocked pantry with oils and grains and seasonings. I am so grateful to have some onions and potatoes and apples and carrots. I am so grateful to have daves grocery delivery. I am so grateful for the internet!!
I am so grateful for my computer. I am so grateful for people posting about SoLD on the gram. I am so grateful my family and friends are all in good health. I am so grateful to have entertainment. I am so grateful to have books to read. I am so grateful to have a few musical instruments to play. Really helps get out of my head sometimes.
I am so grateful for the CoC handbook and the MMR. I am so grateful to have enough. I am so grateful to have my health. I am so grateful to have les mills on demand! I am so grateful to have weights! I am so grateful to have a bedroom gym! I am so grateful to have soap and cleaning supplies and laundry detergent. I am so grateful to have enough of what we need. I am so grateful to be switching to pee rags! I am so grateful I found some paper towels to get delivered in a month...
I am so grateful to be where I am. I know my inner supply is giving me what I wanted. I know that what i have is something i wanted.
Today I intend to focus my attention.
I intend to record my best video yet!
I intend to relax. I intend to trust the process of life. I intend to let go!
I intend to trust the process of life. I intend to enjoy life today! I intend to get in a good mood! I intend to let go! I intend to be here now! I intend to enjoy being!
I intend to let the wild horses get cash for me. I intend to let life live me. I intend to go with the flow. I intend to let go. I intend to lighten up and not care. I intend to trust the process of life. I intend to allow well being to flow. I intend to watch the activity of my mind...
What's the activity?
"What if there's not enough"
"I'll be fine"
"I'm free to enjoy life right now"
"I know it's working out"
"I can let it go for a day"
"I want a drink"
"Oh right the keke water's kicking..."
I intend to do my MMR and counting. I intend to record my best vid yet. I intend to stick to my meal plan. I intend to relax about getting cash. I intend to trust the process of life. I intend to let go. I intend to relax!!!
WHat's the activity?
"I can do this"
"I can have fun"