This day, March 19, 2020, I cease believing in visible money as my supply and my support, and I view my current world of effect as it truly is... simply an outpicturing of my former beliefs. I believed in the power of money, therefore I surrendered my God-given power and authority to an objectified belief. I believed in the possibility of lack, thus causing a separation in consciousness from the Source of my supply. I believed in mortal man and carnal conditions, and through this faith gave man and conditions power over me. I believed in the mortal illusion created by the collective consciousness of error thoughts, and in doing so, I have limited the Unlimited. No more! This day I renounce my so-called humanhood and claim my divine inheritance as a Being of God. This day I acknowledge God as my supply and my support.
1. God is lavish, unfailing Abundance, the rich omnipresent substance of the Universe. This all providing Source of infinite prosperity is individualized as me the Reality of me.
Today it was nice out and we walked to the mailbox because we got an order! There were several people out walking around. It almost felt like a normal day. When we got home we sat on the balcony doing our CoC handbooks until we got too cold. I'm trying to hurry up and write so I can record and make dinner before we skype with our friend at 8.
I talked to my mom this morning. They're still fine. Called my sister but she didn't answer. Hope she's doing ok. Texted my brother but he didn't write back. Texted my other sister just now.
Got up around 9 and did my morning stuff. THe new bidet is pretty great. Slowly we will move to rags instead of TP but for now... TP. Have switched to hankies instead of tissues. Saving the paper towels for cat shit only. I used rags to clean the bathroom yesterday which was great, washed them in bleach and now we have a new system. If nothing else, this quar is excellent for reducing our paper use. I love that part. The paper goods are really an unnecessary expense, especially since we pay a flat water rate and can do as much laundry as we fancy.
We did Body Pump and ate texas caviar for lunch. I took a shower and we got our order together. SO FUCKING GRATEFUL for an order. So grateful.
I had raisin bran crunch for breakfast, trying to use up the open almond milk. Finally ate some ancient almonds with the new dates I got on amazon luckily last week. Dinner is beyond burgers (from the freezer) on buns also from the freezer. We're still burnt out on cooking but will make fried rice tomorrow.
I'm about to get my period and I've been pretty cranky the past 2 days. I am trying to maintain a good attitude! BUt yeah I need to be really disciplined about my attention. Lots of NMRK and counting. Lots of thank you. THANK GOD we have herbal remedies still. PLenty of coffee too. PLENTY.
So happy and grateful to be in perfect health. So happy and grateful to have plenty of money. So happy and grateful to always have plenty. SO happy and grateful to be here now. So happy and grateful to relax into the flow. SO happy and grateful to always have enough! So happy and grateful to have the prosperity plan. I know god is lavish unfailing abundance. I know everything is happening FOR us. I know it's all working out. I know it's all going to be ok.
So happy and grateful to relax into my writing. SO happy and grateful I can surrender my preferences and THOUGHTS. So happy and grateful I can remember to be conscious. Last night I did my mmmr and there is one exercise where you write "I am conscious of ______" and it really helped me get present.
I am conscious of this pain my back. I am conscious of the advice to not take advil. I am conscious of this gum in my mouth. I am conscious of the chat from Keke.
I am conscious of the need to ball out my back! Ow! I am conscious of feeling stressed. I am conscious of dragging my feet. I am conscious of the music in my ears. I am conscious of feeling hungry.
I am conscious of feel anxious. I am conscious of feeling irritated. I am conscious of needing to be nice to myself and relax. I am conscious of feeling put upon. I am conscious of feeling like I'm not managing my time well enough. I am conscious of the calories I ate today. I am conscious of my breath. I am conscious of my hands. I am conscious of my dreams. I am conscious of this pain! I am conscious of feeling pressured! I am conscious of feeling a little stressed. I am conscious of feeling like I need to keep moving. I am conscious of RESISTING. I am conscious of feeling like I am resisting.
I intend to allow. I intend to be flexible and flowing. I intend to relax into the now and stop fighting what is. I intend to be present. I intend to be patient and calm. I intend to be kind to myself and smile! I intend to love myself and not give a fuck!
I intend to have the best night of my life. I intend to make my best work. I intend to love myself and not give a fuck! I intend to trust the process of life! I intend to love! I intend to be gratefuL! I Intend to appreciate what I have! I intend to love yeah love! I intend to lighten up! I intend to enjoy being! I intend to appreciate what i have! I intend to go with the flow! I intend to celebrate! I intend to bask! I intend to enjoy life! I intend to relax and enjoy life!