I am focused and I am grateful i am choosing to be myself and i am choosing to live the magick life.
i am choosing to love and be loved and i am choosing to be in the now
i am choosing to love myself and not give a fuck and i am choosing to be here now. i am choosing to lighten up and enjoy life! i am choosing to be the best version of myself right now! i am choosing to enjoy life the way it is!
i am deciding to focus right now.
today i woke up around 10:30am. i went to bed late last night because i was up reading permanent record by edward snowden (love it). woke up, stepped on the scale: 123.5! lowest weight since........ idk grad school? or i guess the last time i fasted in 2010. if i don't weigh myself at least every other day i tend to lose focus on the project.
so that was a great way to start the day! yes i've been trying to lose weight since about january. i just DECIDED that i'm going to be lighter like i always wanted and i've been able to stick to the mindset. i've lost about a pound a month since january, so over 10 pounds now!
i chugged my coffee and fed the cats and brushed my teeth. ate a fiber one bar, took some kratom (about 3g?). cleaned up the litter boxes etc. then we went upstairs to meditate and then we did grit cardio 28. it was the first time i liked grit! the last time we did it I HATED IT because i hate not going on a beat and i hate having to remember the exercise i'm supposed to be doing. i like to check out and let my body follow the trainer on the tv. but i liked this grit because it was easier to stay in step with the instructors, and i started doing my own thing when i got overwhelmed (like jumped rope and did a lot of burpee rollover things instead of getting up to do plyo lunges).
after grit i ate some cereal and hopped in the shower to get ready for my 2pm tarot reading with N. did the reading which lasted nearly an hour, and was received very well and very helpful.
after that kelly and i worked on packing orders for almost an hour! we had three orders go out today (and we just got another one!). we're trying to pack up our old dslr for nora's birthday, but had to format the cf cards and charge the battery. so we'll take that to the post office tomorrow.
we walked the three orders to the mailbox, and it was prettttty chilly out. like 60 and windy.
got home and made lunch (at like 5pm): a smoothie and half a bagel with pb.
after lunch... oh i capped kratom. that was until about 7... then i had to do the books, place a wholesale order, promo a couple events, and i listened to a few of connor and brittany's youtube videos.
finally i am here doing my writing, and next we are going to eat some lentils and then work on the cult of counting book some more. we sent the proof off last night! the book is about 70% done. lots of details to wrap up.
so happy and grateful to be here now. so happy and grateful to have a journal that comes through for me when i need it. so happy and grateful to have lmod. so happy and grateful to feel good about life. so happy and grateful to be healthy and to have my happy healthy wifey and kitties. so happy and grateful to live in the perfect place!
so happy and grateful to choose to smile and enjoy. so happy and grateful to feel connected. so happy and grateful to be here now. so happy and grateful i can let go and enjoy life!
i intend to have the best day of my life. i intend to lighten up and have fun! i intend to enjoy being. i intend to take care of myself. i intend to make my best work.
i intend to love myself and not give a fuck. i intend to chant and count. i intend to let go of my resistance. i intend to stand up to my thoughts. i intend to feel creative and in the flow. i intend to lighten up! i intend to enjoy being! i intend to love yeah love! i intend to bask and have fun! i intend to trust myself! i intend to let life live me! i intend to live the magick life!
i intend to be HONEST. i intend to COMMUNICATE. i intend to be here now, i intend to love myself. i intend to act with compassion! i intend to feel good now. i intend to focus. i intend to focus. i intend to be compassionate. i intend to be kind. i intend to give what i want to receive! i intend to be a miracle magnet! I intend to remember to chant!
nam myoho renge kyo, nam myoho renge kyo nam myoho renge kyo
oh and i counted to 4000 so far today
nam myoho renge kyo nam myoho renge kyo nam myoho renge kyo
nam myoho renge kyo nam myoho renge kyo
i intend to pay attention i intend to be here now.
i intend to ask for what i want. i intend to feel good about myself! i intend to enjoy being! i intend to trust the process of life. i intend to let go! i intend to play! i intend to do the work! I intend to connect. i intend to live in the flow.
i intend to live in the flow.
i intend to live the magick life.
i intend to celebrate and enjoy life!
i am choosing to live the magick life and i am choosing to live in the now. i am choosing to focus my attention and i am choosing to make my best work. i am choosing to feel better! the writing always works!
what do i want?
to feel the best i've ever felt
to be a best seller at M
to make a living
to have the best night of my life
to feel inspired to make our next book
to finish the coc!
to feel energized and in the vortex!
to take better care of myself!
to play and have fun and laugh!
to record my best video yet!