adjusting my attitude

Jessica Mullen

adjusting my attitude

Jessica Mullen
So happy and grateful I can choose to lighten up and have fun
I am so torn lost confused
I am so whole found clarity
whole
clarity
Clarity
It is clear
I know I Know
I am allowing well being to flow through me
I am letting myself focus and not think about what you think about me
And I have all these typos from my fake nails I have to reglue every day

i don't know what to do I don't know what to make where do I put my energy I am blocked beyond belief

I AM FLOWING

I can choose to be light and fun
I can choose to let go of those things weighing me down
I can choose to be excited
grateful
I am excited about winter oddly
I am excited about walking around I guess
Why am I not excited?
I AM ExCITED

I have nothing to look forward to but hibernating
I LOOK FORWARD TO HIBERNATING
i feel like time is slipping through my fingers way too quickly
Am i blowing it? Am i blowing my chance to be great?

This drug obsession is getting old
I am getting old

I AM FREE I AM ETERNAL YOUTH

I just want to create, draw express myself but what to make when i make stuff i cringe

i make my videos and i love my videos but that only takes up a couple hours a day what about the rest?

i want to want to work on the school
making my materials
what would i teach today?
i need school today

I need to take my own advice

I need to focus on feeling good i need to FOCUS! i need to be nice to myself the most and that's the hardest thing

feeling BOTTOMLESS and imagining the relief alcohol can provide if only for a few hours that's better than NEVER!

feeling so alone and lonely yet wanting to be by myself! feeling disillusioned with life and disappointed in myself looking at myself through my parents' eyes

ahhhhhrhrhrhrh i just want to scream and i'm back to diary land live journal days
where am i what am i doing
i'm too scared to drink the keke water bc i dont want to look at myself
i use to love myself?
i love myself

I LOVE MYSELF

how can i love myself for real though, where is my epiphany, what should i do, what should i make?

i want to let the music out but how the fuck do i do that where do i start?

i want ideas from my dreams but i push them away
go on my phone
go on my phone
go on my phone
go on my phone
go on my phone

i want music to flock to me flow through me
musick flowck to me
musick flocks to me
musick surrounds me

i want magick to make magick what is the magick?! what is the magick?! how to do magick? how to let the magick be here now?

get fucked up
get numb
get out of here
react
react
react

i can see myself but don't change
i can see i can see
so confused by what i see
i have a good life
i have an easy life
i don't respect myself or what?

I RESPECT MYSELF
the MUSICK FLOCKS TO ME
I LOVE MYSELF
I MAKE MAGICK

i want to scratch a deep hole in my forehead
let the magick out
the musick flocks to me
then i go on my phone

i know a shift in perception is all i need
please give me epiphany! please! please! please! please!

please help me feel better!
about my work! workshops! court! doctors!

i am avoiding i am avoid dance
help me please
thank you for the help
thank you for the help
thank you for the compliment

i love myself i love myself i love myself i love myself i love myself i love myself i love myself i love myself i love myself i love myself

i love myself i love myself i love myself i love myself i love myself

how can i make art that helps me love myself?
(other than my videos?)
should i just make more and more videos?!
how can i make art that helps me love myself?
i love myself
i love myself
i love myself
i love myself

i love myself i need to let the crazy out
i love myself i need to make make make
i love myself i love myself i love myself
i love myself i love myself i can let it be easy
i can breathe
breathe good brain bad

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself
breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself
breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself
breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself
breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself
breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself
breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself

breathing in i am focused
breathing out the musick is flocking to me

breathing in i am a powerful witch
breathing out breathing good brain bad

breathing in i am love
breathing out i don't give a fuck

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself

breathing in i love myself?
breathing out i love myself

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself

thank you thank you thank you thank you

i love myself i love myself i love myself

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself

breathing in i love myself
breathing out i love myself

Jessica Mullen
Living the magick life.
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